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Jul 21, 2016 16:44:28 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2016 16:44:28 GMT -7
@edmund The Heart Wants What it Wants by Selena Gomez Outfit<3 To say in the least, Addilyn Slater was nervous. Not nervous for any old person, either, but nervous for Edmund. She had to tell him quite a few things today...and neither one of them would make him happy. One will probably make him excessively mad, while the other, may just make him disappointed. That was the last thing Addi wanted him to feel; disappointment in her. But, she thought, hopefully he'd understand her side of the story and why she did what she did.
She had sent him an owl earlier that day when she first woke up to meet her at The Courtyard after breakfast. She tried to dress nice, because maybe if he saw how pretty she looked he wouldn't get so mad at her. She straightened her blond hair, and put on a bit of eyeliner and mascara. Then she threw on a pair of dark blue shorts, a pink shirt with a bicycle on it, and her white converse. She looked ... okay, at least in her own eyes. Shrugging, she made her way out the door. Finally getting to the courtyard, Addilyn Joy too a seat on the grass and leaned up against a tree, awaiting the arrival of her boyfriend.
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Jul 21, 2016 19:58:47 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2016 19:58:47 GMT -7
Edmund didn't know what to think. Addi had never asked him to meet her via owl before and his mind immediately jumped to the conclusion that something must be wrong. While he was getting ready to go, he was running through ideas in his mind. He was trying to think of things he might have done to upset her, but he just couldn't come up with much. Maybe she decided that she couldn't stop thinking about when she got mad at him, how he'd scared her then. He had noticed that she'd been upset a lot lately, but he couldn't figure out why. He figured it was something to do with him and couldn't stop the nerves. He was almost positive that she was going to break up with him and he was trying to figure out how to stop it from happening. The truth was, he deserved it. He wasn't good enough for Addi, he knew that from the start. She was too happy and positive and good for him.
When he felt like he couldn't put it off any longer, he left his room and went straight to the courtyard, skipping breakfast. He'd left late enough that there was no way Addi could know that he hadn't eaten. The truth was, he didn't think he could keep anything down at the moment. As Edmund entered the courtyard he saw her instantly, sitting on the grass against a tree and couldn't keep himself from smiling at the sight of her, though his heart was pounding so hard he felt like it was going to jump out of his chest. She was so beautiful. He could tell from the way she was sitting and the expression on her face that she was nervous too. His heart sank, but he kept the smile on his face and crossed the Courtyard, moving until he reached her. He quickly sat down right in front of her on the grass, so nervous he could hardly keep himself from shaking. He hid it though. There was no way he would let her see how much their breaking up would tear him apart. He threw a careless smile her way, though his feelings could not be described as careless. "What's up Adds? You look nervous," he commented with a wry smile, searching her eyes with his own.
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Jul 22, 2016 8:54:49 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 8:54:49 GMT -7
@edmund <3 Addilyn was shocked to see Edmund appear so quickly. She rose an eyebrow and smiled at him. He seemed a bit different and she hoped she hadn't scared him with her owl. If anything, she should be scared. She didn't want him mad at her for what she did; granted, all she did was confide in her older brother but Ed might not be happy about that since she said she'd keep it quiet. And then... She had to tell him about Theodosia.
Giving him a small smile, she shrugged. "Well, I am a little nervous...I have some things I need to tell you... But I don't want you to get angry or upset with me." Her face became soft as she looked at his face.
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Jul 22, 2016 9:06:46 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 9:06:46 GMT -7
She was nervous. She admitted it straight out. This only confirmed his suspicions and his heart fell so low he was sure it disappeared entirely. When she smiled, he forced another smile out. Why was this so hard for him? He was usually so good at holding back his emotions, at showing only what he wanted others to see. But with Addi ... with her he let go, especially over the last little while, since they decided to date.
He leaned forward and wrapped her in a tight hug. After all, once they were done he was positive he wouldn't feel comfortable giving her hugs. Especially since he was sure he wouldn't be able to stop his feelings for her quickly at all. "I won't get angry or upset," he whispered as he continued to hug her. He couldn't let her see his face when he said those words, because in that moment he was unable to hold back his emotions. Man, he just needed to get this over with.
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Jul 22, 2016 9:13:44 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 9:13:44 GMT -7
@edmund <3 Addilyn watched as he leaned forward to give her a big hug. Oh goodness, she was a horrible person. How could she do this to him? After the amount of times he specifically said he didn't want her to tell anyone, and she just went off and did just that. He said in her ear that he wouldn't get angry or upset, and Addilyn gulped. She looked into his eyes and took a deep breath. "Well...first, I need to apologize for something... I -" A few tears welled up in her eyes. "I told Grey about us ... and I know you didn't want me to tell anyone but he's my older brother and we're rebuilding our relationship and, and something else happened that I was talking to him about and it all just came out." Then Theo's face popped into her brain and she became more sad. "And I don't want you to get angry because, well, something happened with Theodosia..."
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Jul 22, 2016 9:22:46 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 9:22:46 GMT -7
Edmund let Addi pull away, though he didn't want to. This might be the last chance he got to hold her that way, but he knew he couldn't make the moment last forever. He stared into her eyes, hoping she couldn't see how nervous she was. Then, she told him. She told him that ... she told Grey about them? That meant she wasn't breaking up with him.
Edmund couldn't help it, a giant smile covered his face as he chuckled a little bit. Sure, he asked her not to tell her brother, but that was so much better than her wanting to break up with him, he just couldn't control his relief. He knew no one else was in the Courtyard, they were all eating breakfast in the Great Hall, so he leaned forward and gave Addi a quick kiss. He knew that a kiss would show her he wasn't upset or angry more than anything else would. He smiled, "I'm not upset that you told Grey." Edmund knew she wouldn't understand why he wasn't upset, but he was too relieved to explain himself.
Then she mentioned Theo and Edmund frowned instantly. What did she do this time. "What happened Adds. Tell me," he implored, leaning forward and taking her hand gently in his own. He could tell by the look on her face that it wasn't good. Was this the reason she'd been so ... distant the last few days?
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Jul 22, 2016 9:30:14 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 9:30:14 GMT -7
@edmund <3 When Edmund smiled happily at her, Addilyn scrunched up her face. What in the world? Why was he so giddily happy? He leaned forward and kissed her and she giggled softly. "Okay, well that wasn't what I was expecting, but I'm glad you aren't upset with me... Why aren't you, again?"
And as soon as she said Theodosia, his smile was gone. Addi licked her lips, a bit worried to tell him. What would he do? This was the same problem she had with Grey. And Grey was doing something about it and it still worried her, not only for Grey's sake but her own and Edmund's as well. "Well, she cornered me in Moaning Myrtles bathroom... And was calling me names. She burst the pipes so the bathroom flooded and she froze me so I couldn't move. The water was almost up to my mouth, and she held me down and, well, she made me apologize for just being me..."
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Jul 22, 2016 9:41:27 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 9:41:27 GMT -7
He should have expected her to wonder why he was so happy, but Edmund was taken aback by her question. How did she not know why he was so happy? Right ... she didn't know why he thought she asked him to meet her. Oh, this was going to be interesting. If he could think of something reasonable to explain his joy, he would've lied, but he couldn't. So he might as well tell her the truth. He gave her a wry smile, wrinkling his nose as he braced himself to tell her. He knew he was making a weird, comical face, but hopefully she'd be too entertained by his expression to be angry about his assumption. He shrugged his shoulders, "Well, I noticed you've not been ... so happy lately and I couldn't think of why you'd ask to meet me by owl. I, uh, I thought you were going to break up with me," he admitted, embarrassed. He looked at her eyes for a second before turning his attention to the ground in between them.
As Addi told him what happened, Edmund's jaw and fists clenched, the anger boiling up in him. "She was drowning you," he made the question more of a comment. "I hate her," he grumbled angrily. She'd done that to Addi. His Addi and he had no idea until days later. What kind of a boyfriend was he? As his anger rose in regard to Theodosia, the blame- he realized- could only be placed on himself. He let this happen. He wasn't there to protect her. He bit his lip and turned away from Addi. How could he let Theodosia get to her and torment her like this? Why didn't she tell him sooner? As quickly as his anger at Theodosia rose, it was falling. It was his fault.
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Jul 22, 2016 10:31:48 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 10:31:48 GMT -7
@edmund <3 Addilyn made a weird face back at him. What was he even doing? It amused her but confused her at the same time. He was happy, not upset, but he kept giving her these faces. She didn't know if he was playing a game with her or not but she couldn't help but laugh. That was until he told her the real reason he was concerned about their meeting. Addilyns eyebrows rose immediately. She scooted closer to Edmund and put her hands on his knees. "Ed...I'd never break up with you. Trust me. I'd never. I have too much feelings for you...and I'd never want to lose you. I'm sorry I haven't seemed happy, but I am. I just wish people knew, is all. I'm extremely happy."
Then he was angry again. She could see it coursing through his body. She gave a small sad smile and held her hand up to his cheeks. "Edmund. You don't hate anyone. And I'm okay, now at least. Trust me." She smiled at him gently and gave him a kiss.
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Jul 22, 2016 10:43:07 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 10:43:07 GMT -7
Edmund froze when she put her hands on his knees. Was she upset with him for having so little faith in her? He wouldn't be surprised. But her words pushed all his fears away. He looked into her eyes once more, giving a sad smile. "I don't know what I'd do without you Adds. Don't ever leave me," he pleaded softly. She just promised she wouldn't, but he could hardly believe it. He needed her to say it again. He reached forward and ran his fingers through her hair. "We'll tell everyone soon, I promise." Then he smiled wryly, "Then again, you already told your brother. Who else needs to know?" Edmund's voice was sarcastic, but he really wasn't upset. He didn't want her to tell her brother, but now that it was done it was fine.
He smiled at her kiss, but shook his head simultaneously. "I hate her. She's ..." He couldn't even explain what Theodosia was. "I can't believe she did that to you," his voice softened. "What if she tries to do something to you again? I don't want that to happen Adds, we have to stop her somehow." Edmund was determined. He didn't want anything like this to happen to Addi. She didn't deserve it.
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Jul 22, 2016 10:49:55 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 10:49:55 GMT -7
@edmund <3 "Turn that frown upside down, Edmund. Look me in the eyes, okay? I will never leave you." Maybe her next comment might freak him out, but she wanted him to know how much she enjoys him and that she really won't leave. "I'll be around long enough to have little Edmund's and Addi's running around." She smiled. He asked who else needed to know and she chuckled sarcastically. Her parents of course and her closest friends, but for now, Grey was enough.
A soft smile made its way to her face. "If it happens again, it happens again. Grey said he was going to talk to her, I'm just worried about him." Addilyn knew he could take care of himself, but still. She was a crazy girl.
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Jul 22, 2016 10:58:57 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 10:58:57 GMT -7
Edmund finally smiled again when he let himself believe her. "Adds, I-" love you. He wanted desperately to say those few little words, but couldn't force himself to actually speak them. "I believe you. I won't leave you either," he promised, though he felt like it was unnecessary. She really ought to know how he felt about her by now. She didn't say who else needed to know, so he took that as acceptance, as an agreement that for now it was enough that Grey knew. He just needed to figure out how to tell his family. Was he ready for that yet?
He shook his head, "I'm not all right with that Adds. I don't want her tormenting you. I won't let it happen again," he tried to explain calmly, but it was hard. He couldn't stand the thought of what Theodosia had already done, much less what she could do if they didn't do something to try and stop her. His expression relaxed slightly when she said Grey was going to talk with her. "He'll be fine. And maybe he'll be able to help out with her," Edmund said the words, but he didn't believe them. For some twisted reason Theodosia thought what she was doing was right. She wasn't going to stop because someone else told her to. He reached forward to touch Addi's cheek, "What can I do to help?" he asked in a whisper.
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Jul 22, 2016 11:08:37 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 11:08:37 GMT -7
@edmund <3 He paused as he spoke and Addi rose an eyebrow. Was he going to say what she herself has been wanting to say? It gave her a rush through her veins. Her heart beat faster and she took in a sharp breathe. She hoped he didn't notice, especially since he hadn't said that.
Addilyn hoped Grey would be okay. Making Theo change her mind, however.... wasn't seeming too likely. Edmund touched her cheek and she glanced up at him, smiling softly. "Just be here, E? I...I was traumatized to say the least."
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Jul 22, 2016 11:15:03 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 11:15:03 GMT -7
Edmund could hear voices. People were starting to come out of the Great Hall. He closed his eyes for a second and shook his head before lowering his hand. "I will always be here for you, Adds. I just- can you not go anywhere alone anymore please?" His eyes pleaded with hers. If she wasn't alone, Theodosia couldn't do anything to her. "Even if you're not with me, just make sure someone is with you. If she gets to you again ..." He trailed off, not wanting to even think of that possibility. "You still are traumatized, aren't you?" he asked softly. "I'm so sorry that happened, that I wasn't there for you then ... or after." He didn't know what else to say so he stopped, and just watched her.
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Jul 22, 2016 13:45:57 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2016 13:45:57 GMT -7
@edmund <3 Addilyn looked into his eyes, the desperation extremely visible. She swallowed nervously. "How am I supposed to do that, Edmund? Granted, going to class and to the common room is easy because I have you, but, the bathroom?" She gave him a slanted smile. Addi shook her head at Edmund. "E, stop. You can't expect to be there all the time. It's not your fault, you're here now."
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