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Dec 27, 2016 17:49:31 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 17:49:31 GMT -7
Andy was going to marry Phil. That wasn’t surprising in the least bit, so Nat didn’t know how to explain why her stomach lurched so unpleasantly at the thought. She pasted a smile back onto her face, touching her sister’s arm gently. “That’s wonderful, Andy.” Nat swallowed. “Maybe if you and Phil get married James might get around to thinking about it.” It was meant to be teasing, but the joke fell a little flat. Was it wrong to worry that her boyfriend, a known former playboy, would never want to settle down with her? Probably not, but Nat didn’t know how to make it sound like she wasn’t just fussing over something silly.
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Dec 27, 2016 17:53:42 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 17:53:42 GMT -7
Andy smiled as Nat said it was wonderful, even though he was sure it worried her sister somewhat. Since Andy was so young. At the mention of James, though, Andy laughed, turning away for a moment as to now laugh in her sisters face. "Maybe, guess we will have to wait and see," she said, reaching over to place her hand on Natalias knee. "Are you guys happy, though? I mean... I can tell he really likes you, from what I've seen," and the fact that he settled down at all.
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Dec 27, 2016 17:59:21 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 17:59:21 GMT -7
Nat nodded slowly when her sister asked if she was happy with James. It was impossible for her to be sad when James was around, because he was…James. He was goodness and he was happiness and he was light. “I love him, Andy.” Nat said with a sigh. “And I’ve told him this, so many times, but I don’t know if we mean the same thing.” For Nat, love was more than just feeling good or happy or light when somebody else was around. Love was surrender. Surrendering her past, surrendering her pride, surrendering her heart. Lestranges weren’t supposed to surrender, it wasn’t who they were. “And I worry, that one day, he’s going to realize that he made a mistake.”
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Dec 27, 2016 18:06:24 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 18:06:24 GMT -7
Nat was nodding, so that was a good sign. She said she loved him, and Andy wasn't surprised, of course. She sighed, and went on to tell her concern to Andy. Andy paused a moment to think, chewing on the side of her lip. Then Natalia spoke again, saying how she was worried that he'd think he made a mistake. "Hey," Andy said shaking her head and squeezing her sisters knee, "if that did happen then you'd deserve better anyway," she encouraged, not that it was the most positive thing to say. "But I think you should give him the benefit of the doubt. Worrying means you suffer twice," that would be some advice she should take herself.
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Dec 27, 2016 18:14:00 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 18:14:00 GMT -7
Nat shook her head when Andy said that she deserved better anyways. “And if no one loves me again?” Because of course she feared that. She was the definition of damaged goods, with her father’s torture still niggling at the back of her mind even now, not to mention her family’s heritage and the fact that whoever would love her after James would have to content himself with James’s sloppy seconds, or whatever other derogatory term there was for someone who had already been in a long-term relationship. “This is why I was always afraid to love, Andy.” Nat said, turning her hands over so she could look at the lines on her own palms. “It makes me irrational.” Her rationality was the one thing that had always been there when Nat stumbled. To have her safety net gone was scary.
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Dec 27, 2016 18:27:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 18:27:19 GMT -7
If no one loved her again? That... well, it was actually a rational fear. One that Andy had, too. Though her fear was more along the lines of whether or not Phil would still love her when she finally confessed what she'd done. "I... I don't know. That scares me too," she admitted. She nodded as Nat said this was why she was afraid to love, how it made her irrational. Andy almost laughed out loud. She was ridiculously irrationally. Because of love. Not just romantic love, too. "I think it's okay to lose control a little," she explained, "but you'll find your feet again eventually. But... to live without love isn't living, right?" she said slowly.
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Dec 27, 2016 20:50:50 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2016 20:50:50 GMT -7
Nat and Andy were on the same page when it came to their fears about love, it seemed, and that made Nat feel fractionally better. At least she wasn’t walking this road alone. Andy said that it was okay to lose control, and Nat made a soft scoffing noise. “When have I ever lost control?” Nat asked. The closest she had ever come to losing control was when their father had tortured her, and that wasn’t even losing control so much as it was having control ripped away from her. “To live without love sounds…sadder, now that I know what it means giving up.” It was easier to live without love when she hadn’t known what love was, but now…Not so much.
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Jan 2, 2017 10:47:59 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 2, 2017 10:47:59 GMT -7
Andy chuckled, "not saying you have lost control, Nat," she explained. "I just mean to lose your balance for love... isn't that a good thing?" she said slowly, raising an eyebrow, kind of questioning it herself now. "And you'll always have my love... now," she said softly, taking one of Natalias hands. "So you won't have to worry about that. Can't give you the same things James can, though," she chuckled under her breath.
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Jan 2, 2017 22:11:02 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 2, 2017 22:11:02 GMT -7
Nat squeezed Andy a little tighter when her sister said that she’d always have her love. It hadn’t taken long for Natalia to accept that once she realized that Andy loving her was in the realm of possibility. “Andromeda!” Natalia said, slightly scandalized by her sister's comment. “I will have you know that James and I –” Nat flushed bright red before she could finish her thought, and then buried her head in her hands. This was not what respectable pureblood girls gossiped about! Then again, she and Andy hadn’t been respectable pureblood girls for a while now. “And now I’m thinking about you and Phil, and ew, ew, ew!” Nat shrieked. Andy had opened a can of worms that was better left closed, but now Natalia was laughing instead of crying, and she was too worried about scrubbing her brain clear of the offending images to think another thought about whether or not James would love her.
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Jan 9, 2017 6:56:03 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 9, 2017 6:56:03 GMT -7
Andy couldn't help but chuckle a little as Natalia exclaimed her name at what she said. Then Nat seemed about to share some very personal information before cutting herself short and turning bright red. Andy laughed again as Nat covered her face. Then, Natalia mentioned her and Phil and it was Andy's turn to turn red. "No, no! We, no," she answered.
Though, Andy was partly sure that she would not be very cautious once Phil got back. But, she was still a lady. She wouldn't just throw herself at him. She shook her head, her eyes stinging with laughter again, "this is not safe," she said with a strained tone.
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Jan 9, 2017 19:40:39 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 9, 2017 19:40:39 GMT -7
Now both of the Lestrange sisters were totally embarrassed, and Nat felt bad for letting Andromeda rope her into this kind of conversation. Still, wasn’t this the sort of things that sisters were supposed to talk about? If so, Nat was really glad that she had never been close to Andy before, because this conversation was suddenly awkward. Nat dissolved into another fit of laughter when Andy said that it wasn’t safe, nodding as she did so. Finally Nat managed to get herself back under control, her cheeks pink and her eyes shining with unshed tears of laughter. “We are still Lestranges, even only by name.” Nat finally said after a moment. “So we are ladies.” And that was that.
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Jan 11, 2017 8:05:23 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 11, 2017 8:05:23 GMT -7
Andy nodded, letting her laughter die down as Natalia said that they were ladies. "Yes, yes," Andy said, patting her sisters hand. "Thanks again for coming today and for... playing that song," she said softly, smiling at the girl next to her. She liked this new Natalia, loved her, and even loved herself a little more for getting to be sitting beside her. She felt glad that she could laugh with her, cry with her and make music with her, even if she didn't have a violin in hand right now.
@natalia (Let's say this is the end?)
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