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Apr 26, 2017 5:34:47 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Apr 26, 2017 5:34:47 GMT -7
Dear Smitten (@jamie ),
How interesting. Adults were always too busy around me with one thing or another so I couldn't be entertained by them. Anything that lit my curiosity I tested on my own. And yes it was an assumption but all I have until I know for certain are my assumptions. I think you're intelligent. You teach me something new every letter. I have heard of computers once or twice but I have never seen one nor did I know what they are used for. My mother uses them sometimes in her occupation but she never really liked them either.
It helps because it makes me smile too. My cheeks hurt only a little but its hard not to smile when I'm writing you. I can't say I'm light as a feather though. I feel tightly wound... like I might burst too soon if I don't do or say something. I feel like I should shout or turn in circles or scream, all things very uncharacteristic of me. Like I need to emote to release whatever is going to overflow inside of me. I know that may sound strange, others might think that's worrisome... But I feel... good. That's rather underwhelming. I feel great. Wonderful even. I shouldn't tell you so much. It has only been a week. And I like to be mysterious too. Hiding myself until just the right moment. But I want you to know too because I want to know how you'd react to knowing. We can't both be mysterious, that'll be difficult. Maybe a little fun, but difficult. Knowing that writing me makes you smile (dare I say it's directly me that makes you smile) is inspiring. I can admit that I'm the one usually being pursued. It feels strange being on the opposite side. Interesting and strange.
I want to know the whole of those who are important to me. Therefore, no I am never satisfied with parts of people. But I am always happy to make it a long term pursuit of finding the pieces and putting them together to complete the puzzle. As I said before, I don't like losing relationships or friendships because I invest the time to learn someone fully. I know it's difficult to learn someone fully, that is why it becomes a long term pursuit because people change over time. I like trying. I like being able to know their quirks and their strengths and what makes them happy. It's just something that I personally like. I don't know if its a bad thing. I don't know if I can really say if it's a bad thing or not considering I'm biased. The things I do learn about people have never made me feel like its a bad thing though.
I can't make that promise, that I won't think about what family it may be that you're a part of. My mind wanders, especially when I get interesting pieces of information. If I do figure out who you are too soon, would you want to know? I could leave it completely out of the letters. And we do still have many many (too many) months left until this promised and planned meeting.
I just giggled, in amusement of your words and in triumph at what I will say is your confirmation that everything I've said may be true. In that case, I think I may be closer than either of us think because of more assumptions and just based on my own personal experiences. These I won't reveal because they may reveal more about me than I wish to and I'm the one doing the chasing. I'm excited. Only a little nervous. Definitely excited. The thought of seeing your smile and knowing its you makes me smile. I hope you don't catch me gazing at you..
Ah, and now comes the difficulties of being anonymous and attempting to remain so. Well.. I am an ear to listen for anything else. Or, an eye to read?I do hope whatever it is that you are struggling with resolves itself in the most positive outcome possible. Maybe one day in the future I'll be able to find out what it is.
I will contribute to the music list if you like. You have given me two songs and three bands to possibly look into so I will reciprocate. As I stated before, I love classical music. One of my favorite pieces by Chopin is Nocturne op. 9 no. 2. I do hope you listen to that one, it's an incredibly beautiful piece. I try to picture a different story to go along with it every time I hear it. If you listen to it, tell me what you imagine and I'll tell what I pictured the last time I heard it. It was by far the most fitting of the rest. I'll share if you would like to hear it anyway. I also love Beethoven's more well known Piano Sonata no. 14, Moonlight Sonata. The gentle piano in the first half makes my heart race. On the other end of the spectrum, "Sunshine of Your Love" by Cream is a really nice song. It has a smooth sound to it and I like the sound of the guitar. The lyrics speak to my romantic heart. Speaking of heart, the band Heart is wonderful as well. The singer's vocals are amazing. I'm particularly fond of the song "Crazy On You". I will try my best to get to the Room of Requirement soon to listen to the songs you have recommended.
You say it's not difficult to flatter me and say things like that. I think it may just be you who has that ability. I'm not usually so flattered by words. I just like your praises..
... My thoughts on that will remain my own. So I will say, no, there is nothing I would like to share that would make me want to reveal myself sooner. Even more so now. I do look forward to receiving your letters. And I'm glad I'm not the only one who's attentions have been stolen away by their anonymous writer. How unexpected. To become swept away by someone who I haven't even seen yet (I did say I would complain).
Are you inviting a lot of her friends? Your friends? It sounds like it will be fun because you're excited about it. You should invite me! Joking of course. But I would love to come if I'd had the opportunity to. I wish to ask what is the occasion but I feel as if this is one of those things you won't share because it may reveal something? Assumptions, assumptions of course.
I remain shocked at how much I continue to reveal about what happens, what goes through my mind while I write these letters to you. Again, I'm not usually that open. The things you bring out of me. I also remain forever smiling knowing that these things I'm doing, like staying up and analyzing every word you've written and possibly reading too much into your words (because let's face it, many phrases have many meanings), are things that you may be doing too. I don't think I've ever felt so whimsical so often.
Sincerely,
Not Difficult (For You) To Flatter
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Apr 28, 2017 21:34:48 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Apr 28, 2017 21:34:48 GMT -7
dear stranger,
The adults in my life were always busy, but they were also always trying to curry favor, so they were willing to give up a minute or two of their time in order to put themselves in my mother’s good graces. Testing things on my own wasn’t something I could really do, under my circumstances. It’s hard to explain. But in any case, I’m not sure if you could call me intelligent so much as curious. I like to indulge my curiosity, so I know things that other people might not know. That doesn’t make me intelligent, just good at remembering facts and surprising people. A computer is a wonderful thing – it has access to more information than a hundred libraries put together with just a few taps of your fingers.
I am a big fan of smiling so hard your cheeks hurt. Even though you’re hurting, it’s a good kind of pain – and actually a good kind of pain, not the kind of pain you tell yourself is good because you only have one choice. You can be both light as a feather and about to burst, I promise. I don’t know if there’s a good word to describe the way that feels, though. I understand wanting to get everything out, but for me, personally, trying to get stuff out doesn’t actually weaken the emotion. Quite the opposite, actually, which is a bummer when I’m angry and trying to get it out in a productive manner. It’s funny how we both want things that are directly opposite to each other, isn’t it? I will take any ambiguity out of this and say that you, yourself, are the one who is making me smile. I’ve said before, I fell in love on accident, so I don’t know if I’ve ever pursued or been the pursuer, at least not on purpose.
I’m important to you? I don’t know whether that counts as an assumption or just an educated guess based on what you’ve said. I think making someone your long-term project sounds both interesting and exhausting. I’d always worry that the person wasn’t as interested in me putting together the puzzle as I am, if that makes any kind of sense. I guess it would be a disappointment to lose relationships after you had already given them a lot of your time and energy. Does it ever frustrate you if you see someone that you love changing in a bad way? Of course you love them anyways, but that doesn’t meant that you don’t know when they’re moving in the wrong direction. And of course you’re biased, but we all are, when it comes to weighing our own strengths and weaknesses. That’s why I try not to talk about mine until I’m absolutely certain that they are what I think they are.
I would want to know if you figured out who I was, yes, because then I would feel a little less guilty about wanting to know your identity, as well. It would just be paying back in kind. What would you do if you realized you had met me before? For all you know, I’m the person you hate most in the world, or the person who’s broken your heart before. The thing about anonymity is that it can give you unexpected surprises, but those surprises might not always be pleasant ones.
Everything is true, hmmm? I certainly hope that your assumptions don’t come back to bite you in the end. It’s a shame that you won’t reveal them to me, though, because I really would like for us to be on the same page, as far as knowing what the other person knows about us, that is. I’m excited, too, though I think I might have a fair few more nerves than you do. I’m rather afraid that if you discover me, you won’t want me. (I was going to cross that out, but I fear you would just look right through it again.)
Do you think if you heard my voice you would be able to recognize me by ear? Perhaps I could send you a Howler…
I’ve never heard the Chopin piece, but I have heard Moonlight Sonata before, and I do agree that it’s beautiful. I had a question for you, however – do you think it is better to get a live pianist to perform these songs for me, or will a recording do just as well? If the former, I do know someone who could play for me, but I’m afraid I would get rather tied up in trying to explain to him why I wanted to hear that specific Chopin piece. I don’t really like to share my romances with others until they’re official, and since we’ve yet to write to each other for even a full fortnight, I wonder if shouting this off the rooftops is wise. In any case, the next time I visit the Room of Requirement, I’ll listen to the two non-classical songs, and perhaps the two classical ones as well, depending on your answer to my previous question. Perhaps we’ll pass each other on the way there… If you want any more music recommendations, feel free to ask. I always have more songs on hand.
Are you saying that I am special? I am extremely easy to flatter, but that particularly compliment always manages to strike my heart. If that was not your intention, I think it would do you well to pretend it was… Unless you’re uncomfortable lying to me?
So there is something that would make you want to reveal yourself sooner, but you’re unwilling to tell me whatever that is? Trust me, I do not have many free moments, but the ones I do have are spent pondering you. I do think it is for the better that we wait until graduation to reveal ourselves. I would hate to be Hogwarts’s token lesbian couple, and as far as I know, there’s no one else that would keep us from becoming that, unless you know of something that I don’t.
It’s her celebration, so I’m trying to invite her friends, and her friends only. There’s not much crossover between our social circles, due to her being several years older than me, but my other sister is also coming so I’ll have someone to talk to. Actually, getting a guest list is like pulling teeth. I think my sister is worried someone’s going to be offended if she doesn’t invite them, even if she was never close to them in the first place. Your assumption about me not revealing the occasion is indeed correct. If you’re as close as you claim to be at discovering my identity, how do I know this is not the last nail in my coffin?
I’m not normally this savvy with words. My letters tend to be short and succinct – enough to get the point across and not much more. Writing this much is uncharacteristic of me, as is being able to flatter people easily. I’m glad that I was able to bring a little bit of whimsy into your life – I think everyone could use more of that, don’t you? love, me @lionaanna
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Apr 29, 2017 9:41:01 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2017 9:41:01 GMT -7
Dear Savvy With Words (@jamie),
They wanted to impress your mother? Is your mother an important person? Tell me about your mother. I know you said you're not a pureblood. Is she magical or muggle? What's she like? What does she do? Of course if it will give anything away then don't tell me. I know you said you didn't me to think about your family so if that's off limits then you don't have to worry about it. Curiosity spiked. People wanted to impress my parents too as they are important people in the fields they work. And many types of intelligence exist. You're intelligent. And you have a great memory to have the ability to remember those things that people don't know.
I'm smiling again today while writing this because of your words. I think this might be permanent now. I do know that shouting or trying to let out what I feel will only make it stronger but this feeling that's consumed me makes me want to try to release it. Even though I find myself not wanting to let it go. I want to hold onto this feeling for as long as I possibly can. Writing letters to you is starting to take too long because I'm always pausing now and thinking of you and something you've said in a previous letter instead of actually writing. When was the last time you were angry? What were you angry about?
You are becoming important to me, yes. To answer you question, I don't think I've ever had that happen to me, to have someone change in a way that I didn't like. I say that only because those important people usually realize themselves and tries to fix it. I had something similar happen recently but they realized that they've made a mistake and that they want to get back on the right track. I think even still, I would tell them and try to understand why they have become that way. Of course, I may already know but talking to them about it would allow them to see that they've changed in a way that may not be good for them.
Those thoughts have definitely crossed my mind. I do wonder if we have met before. There are very few people I can say that I hate because hating someone takes energy. I much prefer ignoring those who prove to not be worth the effort. Even then, if I find out who you are and we aren't on.. what I will say is the best of terms, would you still be willing to give me a chance? I would be willing to tell you who I am at that point. Honesty. And even still... I think I would still want to try. Maybe I have gone mad.
My nerves are a little more.. substantial than I would like to admit. I do worry that we'll meet and you won't be interested any longer. I won't say I'm a different person but, as I stated in one of my earlier letters, no one fully knows me. The person who knows me best still doesn't know me fully. So you may not like the person you may know me as (if we do actually know one another) or the person you may have heard about. In our letters I'm more open. I share more of myself. So, yes, I understand how you feel. But, at this very moment, as I write this letter, I can't write it any more plainly. I want you. I want to try with you.
I do wonder... send it you're confident that I won't or you may just give me the last piece of the puzzle. Also, make sure it's a modified one. The screaming is rather surprising and very hard on ears.
Your question really depends on the skill of the person you wish to play it for you. If you trust his skill then, yes, it is best to hear it live. Recordings are great but I feel like the music takes a hold of my heart better when it is live. If you do ask him, what would you say? You could just say that it was recommended to you. It is a romantic song so maybe they might question it. I haven't told anyone about our letters yet either but I know if I were I would have a lot of explaining to do. That doesn't mean I have no intention of doing so. Just for now, I'll keep these letters you to myself. I wonder if we were to pass one another if you would know it was me. I at least know that you're blond and are possibly a Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff. Have you figured anything out just yet? Or have I been too successful hiding myself?
Lying isn't something I like to do anyway but yes especially because I wouldn't like lying to you. I did promise my honesty writing and I will give you that. Yes, you are special.You flatter me like no one else it seems. I go back to your words, read them, smile as if I'm a mad woman, then read them again. As I said words from others usually don't flatter me but your words seem to make my world pause for moments in time and I can't think of anything else but what it would be like to hear you say them directly. These are the things that keep me up at night under wand light. Am I revealing too much?
Again, my thoughts on that will stay my own. But yes, there is something that would make me reveal myself earlier and I won't share what it is. If I could see you today I would meet with you in seconds. We can't be Hogwarts' lesbian couple if we're not lesbians. I understand what you mean though. Other same sex couples may be more hidden. I know there are rumors but I don't think I've seen anything definite. And, no, my thoughts do not involve a 'someone', just to make things a little clearer.
Maybe you are right. Maybe it is best that we wait because it will give us time. The letters will keep me company and keep the smile on my face permanent. I'll continue to write you everyday if I can. Though it may not be everyday sometimes because I have to study for N.E.W.T.s soon. I'm not too worried but there is one subject that is rather unpredictable so studying for it has been interesting. Would telling me what N.E.W.T.s you're sitting for be too telling?
I'm guessing it's going to be a big party then? Does she really know that many people? The more, the merrier for a celebration. If they're kind enough to attend then maybe they wish her well. And if not and they still attend they get to witness her being happy and, really, it's her celebration so that's all that matters. No nail in the coffin, I assure you, even if I weren't as close as I may be I would have still asked. It's just me wanting to know more about you. This is so much harder because of the whole 'remaining anonymous thing'. I want to know you better and that includes your family. Ah well. I've gotten to the point of counting down the days. I feel silly because there are so many left. Tell me something new that won't reveal anything about who you are.
I want whimsy of this sort to be mine alone. But yes, I guess everyone deserves to feel excitement like this at least once in their lives. You especially. My letters may get shorter. Even if they do, I'm still interested. I'll still write you. Oh and, this may seem a little random because I'm writing this at the end of the letter but when is your birthday? Just out of curiosity. I'm already waiting for your next letter and I haven't even sent this one yet....
Sincerely,
The Pursuer
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Apr 30, 2017 9:24:24 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2017 9:24:24 GMT -7
dear stranger,
My mother is indeed an important person. She’s a Muggle, and she manages hotels for a living. I doubt that you know the professions of everyone’s parents, so I think that this is something that’s safe to say. But in any case, the employees were always kind to me because they thought it would get them better shifts to work or a pay raise or something. My mother’s side of the family isn’t the side that I’m trying to keep you from. It’s my father’s name that you would know and recognize (and yes, my father’s surname is the one that I use). I’m glad that when I was younger I didn’t realize that everyone was just using me; I think if they tried that now that I’m older, and capable of seeing the trickery, I would be a little upset. I don’t like being a means to an end. I feel like arguing with you about my intelligence or lack thereof is a fruitless task, so I’ll just agree with you and leave it at that.
I agree that writing these letters is taking longer, though for me it’s because I reference all of our past letters when writing, as well, in order to keep from accidentally repeating myself. You’d be surprised to know that I don’t get angry easily. I think the closest I’ve come to anger in a long time is being upset. My sister went to meet someone she had never met before in Hogsmeade, alone, and I was upset about that, because she could have been hurt. And I don’t like it when my family gets hurt.
Somehow, it makes sense to me that the people you care about would be intelligent enough to realize their own mistakes. I have to admit that I’m curious about who you’re referring to, and what ‘right track’ they got back onto. But, since you are evidently taking the role of the mysterious one, I will not inquire further, so that you won’t be tempted to tell me something that you shouldn’t. Have you begun the countdown to Valentine’s Day yet? Perhaps the easiest way for you to be able to make it to graduation without ripping your hair out or revealing your identity is to hop from holiday to holiday. Valentine’s Day to St. Patrick’s Day to Easter to graduation – that way, it’s only a month or so that you have to survive at a time.
Ugh! One of the cats in the common room snatched the other pieces of parchment your letter was on, and by the time I caught it, the entire thing had been shredded, and most of it eaten! I apologize for the brevity of this letter, but I’m more than a little miffed. Cats have never really liked me, but it’s never gotten this bad before. love, me @lionaanna
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May 1, 2017 5:09:01 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 1, 2017 5:09:01 GMT -7
Dear Only Upset? (@jamie ),
How interesting. Of course I mean your mother running hotels, not the fact that people were attempting to use you to get ahead. You were a child and shouldn't have been subject to people being nice to you for that sole purpose. I would recognize your father's name? Is he a pureblood? Or famous in general? What kind of person is he? Now my curiosity has grown. You are correct, arguing with me about your intelligence would be a fruitless task.
Where does upset land on your scale of 'anger'? I upset mild or is it a step below angry? I don't get angry too often either. I can get annoyed rather easily depending on the situation or who I'm dealing with. You're very protective of your siblings. Did she get frustrated with you when you were upset about it? I guess you can never be too careful, though Hogsmeade is a small village.
Telling you who this person is that I am referring to would ruin everything. By ruin, I mean you would know immediately who I am. I will only reference this person as such I talk about them again. So yes, it is best to steer clear from that. Of course I have been counting down to Valentine's Day. As I've said before, I am fond of Valentine's Day. The atmosphere is always better in the month of February. Everyone is more open to love in February. Romantic love, yes, as well as other types of love. The pressure to love can get suffocating for those who are single but those who are attached or wish to be attached are more willing to love and be loved. Of course you have those people who have had the holiday become a bad memory or those who just hate to concept of a holiday that seemingly requires you love. Those people are the minority though. Counting down to graduation using the holidays still makes it seem long. Unfortunately.
What a terrible creature! Well, nothing to be done about it now. I think you only missed the most important parts of the letter so that's okay. I can't remember what I wrote exactly but referencing your previous letter I think I have a clue. Part of me doesn't want to rewrite it... but for transparency I will summarize. Just know that I want you. And even if somehow on the other ends of this letter we both turn out to be someone that we don't particularly care for, I want to try anyway. I don't think you can be, I don't think someone I can't stand can make me feel... this. I have every intention of meeting you and getting to know you in person, no matter who you are. I only ask that you try as well if the same is true, that I am someone you do not like. I can't make you, but it is my request.
Sincerely,
Still Counting
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May 1, 2017 6:19:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 1, 2017 6:19:10 GMT -7
dear stranger,
You would recognize my father’s name. He’s not a pureblood, but he’s spread all over the history books, and not for a good reason. The reason I took his name isn’t exactly a noble one – I wanted the protection it afforded from people seeking to do me harm. So far, I think it’s done just the opposite, and put me in harm’s way. He’s not a good person, and I think that people resent him for that, rightfully.
It depends on the kind of upset, really. When I’m really upset – like I was with my sister – I would say that it’s a step below anger, but there are times when I’m upset and it’s not even in the realm of angry. I do cry when I’m angry, though, so people can confuse the two sometimes. I’m sorry, that wasn’t really informative at all, was it? I’m good at feeling emotions but not really good at describing them after the fact. Sometimes my sister is hard to read. I did have a legitimate reason for being upset, though, so even if she was displeased with me, at least it wasn’t over something frivolous.
The one problem I have with Valentine’s Day is that people sometimes use it as an excuse not to show their love during the rest of the year. While it’s all well and good to have a holiday devoted to telling someone you care about them, I don’t think that you should need one, so waiting until the big day to ask someone to be your romantic partner seems kind of silly to me. And people who propose on Valentine’s Day? Gag-worthy. I do like it when people are more receptive to love, though, because I’ve got a lot of it to give and it can be a little tiring sometimes to find people who are willing to receive it – which is part of the reason that I sent an anonymous letter in the first place. As for counting down to graduation, how terribly rude would it be for me to start a countdown in these letters? Too much?
I don’t think that it was terrible…just acting on its dislike, which is also forgivable, since I haven’t met a cat who likes me yet. I’m sorry that I missed the important bits, but I am glad that you decided to give me a summary instead of making me wonder what I’ve missed out on. I…want you too. And even if it does turn out that we’ve met before and hated each other, or that we’re incompatible, I do want to try, too. And even if romance doesn’t work out, like I said earlier in this letter, I am looking for more friends. Having a friend who knows all of me instead of just a part of me sounds like a welcome prospect. love, me @lionaanna
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May 1, 2017 8:07:18 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 1, 2017 8:07:18 GMT -7
Dear Cats Love You (@jamie ),
Hmm. I had a thought but I'm sure it's incorrect. I think I'm more concerned with the fact that you said you're in danger? Is there someone after you? I can admit that is a little alarming. You say that it's your last name putting you in danger. Does that mean any of your siblings with the same last name are in danger as well?
It was actually very informative. I found it informative anyway. I think crying when angry would be incredibly frustrating. I'm sure people do mistake that for sadness or hurt. I don't like analyzing my own emotions, personally. I have a habit of getting trapped in my thoughts and reliving high stress or highly emotional moments repeatedly. That alone is frustrating because it's distracting and can amplify whatever I'm feeling whether the emotion is good or bad.
I understand what you mean. I know people like that exist. And I know that Valentine's Day proposals are overdone. I still can't help but think they're romantic though. I put myself in that position, the thought of someone proposing to me and they've decided to do it on Valentine's Day. It makes me grin. Or maybe it's just the act of proposing period that makes me still look upon it favorably. I don't think anyone who is actually in love needs Valentine's Day to show their love. If someone waits until Valentine's Day to show their love, I don't think I'd believe the love is actually there. So just to make sure I'm understand correctly, you sent the letter because you were looking for both platonic and romantic love? How interesting. And no, not too much. It will be torturous for me though because now I'll have to see the countdown in two places. I'll be happier once that number has become a single digit number.
I'm not very fond of animals if I'm being honest. Not for any vindictive reason I'm just not good with them and I don't have a lot of experience with them. So cats aren't fond of me either. Good. I'm pleased we're on the same page. I think, however, that reading those words from you has made me a little more impatient. Everything's probably going to get worse now. I'll be utterly preoccupied with thoughts of you. Studying should prove fun; I may not get through nearly as many chapters as I usually do. Maybe studying in my dorm will be best. I don't want to get caught staring into nothing with a smile on my face. By the way, I'd asked in the letter that was eaten but when is your birthday? Call me curious.
Sincerely,
110 Days Left And Counting
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May 1, 2017 10:14:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 1, 2017 10:14:19 GMT -7
dear stranger,
Tell me your thought and I can tell you whether or not it’s incorrect, then. I’m not really sure whether I’m in danger, to be honest. There are things that lead me to believe that the bad people who have been present in our lives lately are looking for people like me to assist their cause. I don’t know whether or not my siblings are in danger, either. I think they might be less so, because their other parents are wizards (and can protect them from danger better than my mother was ever able to protect me), but I honestly don’t know. It’s complicated.
Being mistaken for sadness or hurt wouldn’t be so bad if people didn’t automatically assume that crying meant weakness. I try not to be weak, because I have too much to be strong for. I don’t like analyzing my own emotions, either, but it’s the only way I can make any sense of them and understand why I’m feeling what I’m feeling, if that makes any sense. If I don’t analyze them, then I don’t know how I can feel better when I’m feeling bad.
I think that proposals are romantic, too, but I feel like the ones that are more personal are better than the ones that happen on holidays – I’m also not a fan of proposals that happen on birthdays, or Christmas. It just feels cheap. When I sent this letter, I wasn’t sure what kind of love I was seeking, so I was open to either and both. I think that it’s important to have both platonic and romantic love in a relationship; what’s the point in loving someone if you can’t talk to them about the stupid, pointless stuff in life that you’d share with your friends? Thank you for making it much easier for me to do the countdown – I was dreading counting the days by myself. 109 left to go. Almost to double digits?
I’m fond of animals as a whole. I’m great with dogs, and birds. It’s just cats that don’t like me, and the feeling is becoming more and more mutual. My sister has a cat, so I have to pretend to like them every once in a while, though. You should try studying in the library. I’m there a lot. We could be studying at the same table and not even know it! How romantic, right? I don’t know why my birthday makes any difference to you, but I’m also slightly worried that you’ll use the student records to find my identity using that information. As a compromise: my astrological sign is Gemini. love, me @lionaanna
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May 2, 2017 0:10:48 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 2, 2017 0:10:48 GMT -7
Dear Platonic And Romantic (@jamie ),
My honest first thought wasn't even a serious thought so I know that it is incorrect. Since you asked though, my first thought was Voldemort but, of course that's not even rational considering that he died years before either of us were born. The history books also don't mention any lovers or children and, as I recall his last name was Riddle. I personally don't know of anyone with that last that attends Hogwarts and I also believe his family name died along with him. So I'd already known that was an incorrect assessment. I hope you don't laugh when you read that. I felt silly just writing it. I hope you can stay safe.
I'm perfectly okay with not analyzing how I feel, mostly because I'm really good at hiding it when I really want to. I don't think about it, no one notices and asks and therefore I'm able to table it and think about it at another time. I'm better able to think about the things that need immediate attention. How about other people's emotions? I know you say you aren't observant but with people you know are you good at analyzing their emotions? Are you the advice giver of your friends?
I understand what you mean but holiday proposals can definitely be personal. If the holiday is the person's favorite holiday that can be one of the reasons they decided to propose on that day. Birthday and Christmas proposals can be cheap if that is the only thing they are offering on a day that, customarily, requires a gift of some sort. If the proposal is the 'gift', then yes I agree that is cheap and tasteless. The small things.. Hmm. Tell me something simple or silly that happened to you today? Though it will be tomorrow by the time that I receive your next letter. I want to know your simple favorites too. Color, food, thing you do to relax, favorite subject (since we are still in school). Tell me something new. One hundred nine is less than One hundred ten so I guess I'm happier. Optimism.
So you're in the library a lot? Now that I know maybe is really is best that I don't go. I'd need to go to study and I don't want to be continuously looking around the library at all of the blonde women that may be there to try and guess if they are you. Common room is then. Though I may go to the library occasionally... I can't say that using your birthday to find your identity isn't something I would do but the thought hadn't even occurred to me. I love Divination. I know that it isn't everyone's forte because people think it has no foundation or it is unstable magic but I think that's one of the reasons why I love it so much. With the stigma against it, people are always shocked when it is accurate and, for me, it has been much more accurate that not. I'm not a Seer but I'm talented with other forms of Divination that don't require the eye. Me asking for your birthday was me trying trying to find out more about you, but now that you've put that thought into my head maybe it is for the best. What a coincidence, I am a Gemini as well.
Sincerely,
109
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May 2, 2017 7:57:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 2, 2017 7:57:10 GMT -7
dear stranger,
I can safely say that I am not Lord Voldemort’s daughter. Imagine how crazy that would be – the evilest person ever to walk the earth, a father!? And I don’t even want to know who would agree to be his bed mate. I didn’t laugh at this guess, if that gives you any solace. I was more stunned, to be honest. My father was, however, someone associated with Voldemort. I hope that doesn’t give you too many clues, though I do believe there are quite a few children (or grandchildren) of Death Eaters attending school with us. It’s not an easy thing, to be related to someone on the wrong side of history when so many of our classmates had parents who were on the right side. Even though people say it doesn’t matter… I wonder if it does.
Hiding your emotions isn’t healthy, is it? That’s what I’ve always been told, at least. I don’t know if I’m good at analyzing other people’s emotions. I do give a lot of advice, not just to my friends but to people in general, though I’m not sure how good any of it is. Sometimes I feel like I’m just reading off the slogans from bumper stickers and hoping that the tonality will somehow make it more meaningful.
I still think that choosing a holiday is shallow, even if there’s a reason behind it. After all, a proposal should be celebrating the couple, not only one half of them. At least that’s how I see it. Something simple that happened to me today? Well, I met with one of my house mates to discuss one of our common interests. I know that’s vague, but I don’t think I need to reiterate why it is. It was a good time, just because we had a lot of breakthroughs. Now that I’ve told you something, you have to tell me something, too. My favorite color is red, my favorite food is Skittles (they’re a Muggle candy), and my favorite subject is Potions. I expect that you will be answering all of those questions as well, in your return letter?
I am. I’m in quite a few classes (as in, double digits…) and so I spend a lot of my free times studying, because I want to earn good marks on my N.E.W.T.s, just in case my career plan doesn’t go the way it’s supposed to. Maybe I just think about things too much? Worrying that you’d find my identity like that is something that only someone as worrywart-ish as me would even consider. Divination and I don’t exactly agree, which is funny, because I’m friends with a clairvoyant. I think that I like hard answers too much in order for Divination to be of much use to me. I like Potions so much because it’s the same steps every time, and if you follow what the instructions say, you’ll always have the product that you want. Even though you’ve implied you no longer want to know my birthday, the fact that we share an astrological sign is intriguing to me. Did you happen to be born in June? (I was, hence the question.) love, me P.S. Have you been able to listen to those songs yet?
@lionaanna
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May 3, 2017 2:38:22 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 3, 2017 2:38:22 GMT -7
Dear Overbooked (@jamie ),
Hmm. I think that may have been 'the nail in your coffin', as you put it. But I'm not sure yet. You did say you wanted me to tell you so I'll let you know if I've figured out for certain. But I do have a lot of information to go back over. And I don't think it matter. There are plenty of people who have... less than reputable family members that turn out better than them. Most people make a name for themselves just because they are tired of being weighed down by that bad history. Become someone more than your parent.
People like to say that but I'm perfectly healthy. Burying your emotions is unhealthy. I don't bury them I just don't show them to everyone. I analyze them on my own time and then handle them accordingly. Do you think you could read my emotions? Just using this letter? What do you think I'm feeling right at this exact moment? If you had to guess anyway. Aren't bumper stickers supposed to be humorous?
Even if that holiday is a day they remember because they shared a very special memory on that holiday? What if the couple met on that holiday? Even then you'd think it's cheap? With letters it's hard to tell tone of voice at time so I'll clarify that I'm amused right now. There is no anger, it is all in good fun that I'm asking those questions. It must be a productive common interest thing. I hope they weren't too pretty, whoever this housemate of yours is. You might make me jealous (kidding again of course). I didn't do a lot today. I've been studying and studying and studying. My father wants me to do well, of course, but I need to do well to get into my chosen career. I've been thinking about the fact that Valentine's Day is tomorrow. Should I send you a gift of some sort? By the time you get a chance to answer, it may already be on its way to you so you won't be able to say no. Unless of course you sent it back. I hope that you don't though. If I do send a gift I think I'll make sure to not be in the Great Hall when it comes so I don't see you receiving it. My favorite color is black because it goes with everything. My favorite food is anything seafood. My favorite subject, as I told you before, is Divination. When you think of me, where do your thoughts take you?
That is a lot of classes to take for a back up plan. I think I can guess the fact that you won't share what the plan is that might not work, am I correct? If not the original plan, could you share the back up possibly? You should be worried I'm going to find your identity. For mystery's sake. You did say you wanted to remain a mystery. I do think that I've almost solved this mystery though.... We shall see. Divination is wonderful. I'll show you some time after we meet. It's complicated so it is much better to explain in person. And yes, I was born in June as well. What a neat coincidence. And I still would like to know your birthday. It is probably just not best for me to know right now.
Sincerely,
108 But Ready For 1
P.S. I only got the chance to listen to one of them before I needed to get back to studying but your observation regarding the Room of Requirement was correct! So I will go back soon to listen to the others before I give you my full opinion. Feel free to give me more of your favorites! Did you get a chance to listen to mine?
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May 3, 2017 5:22:26 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 3, 2017 5:22:26 GMT -7
dear stranger,
Aw, darn. I was trying to keep you in the dark! …Well, sort of. I’ve found that even when I try to be sneaky I end up giving a lot of way. I realized just now that even if you probably know who I am, I don’t have a clue who you are. Pureblood Gemini girl could still be quite a few people, especially since, as we’ve pointed out, I don’t make a point to know people’s blood statuses, nor really their birthday, unless they’re already important to me. It’s not difficult to know that I’ll be better than my father, but it can be frustrating to think that people just want me to make a name for myself to wipe out the red mark being my father’s daughter put on my ledger. I just want to be able to live my own life!
Thank you for making that distinction. I don’t know if I could read your emotions just via a letter – people have said that the majority of what we look at and interpret when we’re talking to other people isn’t their words, but their facial and body cues, and since this is writing, I don’t have any of those. If I had to guess, I’d say that you’re excited right now, to be able to be writing me, and eager to hear my response. But that’s just an educated guess. Bumper stickers are supposed to be humorous, but some of them also give some one-line life advice. I don’t know why.
I don’t know. I’ve always been fond of having more reasons to celebrate, so why not make an entirely different holiday about the day that you got engaged? She’s extremely pretty (and gay), but right now, I’m not really looking for any love that comes outside of the form of a slightly pithy, ever-elongating letter. I’m sorry that you spend so much time studying; even if it is a means to an end it can be exhausting sometimes. Happy Valentine’s Day! I know you said you’re probably sending me a gift, so I hope you enjoy the Chocolate Frogs I’m sending with this letter. When they hop in your stomach, know that that is how I feel every time I think of you. My thoughts wander, and so my insides follow suit.
No, I don’t think I’ll tell you my career plan, though you claim to already know who I am. My backup plan is to become a potioneer. I’ve said before that I have an interest in the subject, and it would be nice to make the world a better place by helping people be rid of pain or inconveniences via potions. I am worried that you’ll find my identity, but not worried enough not to keep letting information slip. As for our meeting, remember that you’ll have to show me Divination in the summer, so plan accordingly. Interesting that we were both born in the same month; there’s a chance we were born on the same day! How about you tell me the date of your birth and I can rule out one day of thirty-one for you? love, me P.S. Excellent! As soon as you have, do let me know. I love music. My schedule has been hectic, so I haven't been able to visit the room for long enough to give the music my full attention. I'm hoping to meet with my pianist friend soon in order to hear the classical pieces, though.
@lionaanna
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May 5, 2017 3:54:51 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 5, 2017 3:54:51 GMT -7
Dear No Proposals On Holidays (@jamie),
Blonde, a (beautiful) woman, polysexual, muggle mother who manages multiple hotels, not pureblood father who was a death eater and did really bad things sure to be mentioned in history books, June gemini, seventh year, has a sibling that goes to Hogwarts but also has siblings outside of Hogwarts with a family name that is well known, most of friends are (possibly) Gryffindor but is (possibly) not a Gryffindor, Is (possibly) a Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff, loves potions and wants to be a potioneer if first plan does not work. These are all of the clues I've gathered so far from our letters that will help me figure out who you are. I think because you gave them all to me separately in multiple letters, they didn't seem like too much. And individually, each detail could be anybody. But all together.. yes I really think I may have found you. I'm... only slightly nervous about it. And I hope I don't give myself away when confirming. How funny is it that I've narrowed it down on Valentine's Day.
An educated guess, you say? And where have you gotten the information to make that guess? It's a really accurate source and I fear that it may give you more information that you shouldn't know. I get really excited just seeing the owls fly over head during breakfast time. I can't show it, of course, just on the off chance you decided to pay more attention to what's going on around you rather than what's in front of you. I'm better at reading body language and eyes than anything else. I wish I could read yours.
Too flirtatious?
I do hope you are talking about our letters; I recall you saying that you were writing a cousin of yours? And Happy Valentine's Day to you as well. I do hope you liked your gift from me. I saw it an knew that I wanted to get it for you. You should wear it sometime soon so I can see it on you. And the meaning behind the stones is very fitting, I think. I ate a chocolate frog as soon as I was able to and the feeling I got while it hopped around is very reminiscent to feelings I get when I think of you. Though much more forceful. Thank you very much for them. Who doesn't enjoy chocolate every once in a while?
That's admirable. Would you open your own apothecary specifically for pain potions? Travel the world to search for rare and interesting ingredients to make better potions? Manufacture your own creations in bulk and sell them to hospitals? Yes, yes. I have not forgotten that we are to meet in the summer. One hundred seven days and counting. Even if I confirm who you are, I will not approach you (if I can help it) until that time is up. Will me finding out who you are make you want to know even more so who I am? If you found out who I was tomorrow, with me knowing who you are, would you approach me? Do you think you would want to?
I was not born on the first, nor was I born on the thirtieth. I was not born on the fifteenth either.
Sincerely,
Captured And Enraptured
P.S. I really hope your pianist friend is a great player. Remember to tell me what story you hear. I hope your schedule calms a bit, even with N.E.W.Ts nearing.
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May 5, 2017 9:20:05 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 5, 2017 9:20:05 GMT -7
dear stranger,
When you write them all out like that, it does seem like I’ve given a lot of information away, doesn’t it? I certainly can’t think of anyone else who matches that description. All I know about you is that you’re a pureblood girl who also likes girls, and has a lot of friends and/or family who are blonde women. It is funny that Valentine’s Day was the day when you came to your final conclusion. It shouldn’t be too difficult to confirm who I am, right? All you have to do is look for me in the Great Hall and see whether or not I receive a letter. It would have been smart to put some sort of identifying mark – like rainbow ink or something – on the outside of the letter as a means to that end, but if you’re willing to let the mystery go on a little longer, maybe not.
The information I used to draw my conclusions is the many interactions I’ve had with other people who are excited, et cetera. My brain and memory are accurate sources, then? It’s a shame that you feel you can’t show your emotions in case it leads me to find you, especially since you already seem to know who I am, and turnabout is only fair play.
No such thing as too flirtatious when both parties are consenting.
I would certainly hope that I would not be beginning a romantic relationship with my cousin…Especially considering that she’s quite a few years older than me, and, from what I can tell, a raging alcoholic. I’ve already relayed this information, but I am extremely fond of the gift – it’s on my person right now, though not around my wrist. I’m glad that you enjoyed the Chocolate Frogs, though I must admit I indulge in chocolate much more than every once in a while.
There is one potion in particular that I’m looking to do more research into, but I won’t say. If you really do know who I am, and who my father was, you can probably figure out of which potion I speak. I’m glad you haven’t forgotten about our meeting. I won’t pretend that you knowing who I am doesn’t increase my curiosity. If we can’t officially meet each other, then we can at least share long, lingering glances. Those aren’t as fun if they’re only one way – then it’s just called staring. I like the intrigue behind just having the letters, though. I think it’s much more special knowing that I have to wait for your response, rather than being able to get it immediately. You, unlike me, had the wherewithal to remember that there are only thirty days in June. I’m afraid my excitement got the best of me. As for the date of my birth, it falls on none of those three days either. Only twenty-seven left to go, hmm? love, me P.S. My friend is indeed a good player - he wants to become a musician after graduation, if that tells you anything about his skill. I'm not sure when we will get to meet, though, because I'm also taking a lesson from him, so I need more than a few minutes of his time.
@lionaanna
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May 6, 2017 6:42:46 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on May 6, 2017 6:42:46 GMT -7
Dear Starts With A J (@jamie ),
I've solved the mystery and even if I hadn't before I know now for sure because your last letter confirmed it for me. Wow. If I'm being honest my initial reaction was shock. I'm still a little bit in shock actually. My second reaction... well I can't quite tell you because that would give too much away and I quite like the position that I'm in now, being the hidden one. But you're as beautiful as I knew you'd be. I'm... just really glad that I have a face that I can imagine now. I'll try not to stare too much in the Great Hall but now I can see your reactions when you get my letters. My heart is feeling light and heavy and... so much. Unexpected. I wish I could say I'm sorry that the mystery is up so soon, but I am honestly happy that I can picture your smile and your blush and what you look like when you concentrate on my letter. All very cute, if I do say so myself.
I don't think my excitement could be like theirs. My excitement stems solely from you and your words. You may see the occasional secretive smile from me but that is all. There are other reasons not to fully show my reactions and emotions but yes you figuring me out is definitely one of them. Will you start focusing on the others in the Great Hall now just to try and figure out who I am? I do hope to keep it a secret for a bit longer so if you wish to try and find me, try you best.
I did mean familial love from your cousin but yes that would be rather odd, drunken tendencies aside. I am very pleased that you like your gift. Now that I know who you are will you wear it? Or do you not wish to explain where you got it from to your friends? Either is okay as I understand both. I know you wish to wait until after we've graduated to possibly pursue something more than our letters that I enjoy so if you do not wish to explain and put a name to what we are at the moment, I understand.
Yes I do know what potion you speak of as I know it is a necessity. You not knowing who I am is definitely a position that I like being in. I won't stare, I promise, but I may gaze longingly at you from the corner of my eye. I am more prepared to wait until we graduate though, if that continues to be your wish. I will take your responses however I can get them, through your written words or your spoken words.
Will you admit to your birthday now? I know who you are but I do want to know your birthday still. I will give you mine if you assure me that you also won't go to the student registry to figure out who I am...
Sincerely,
Hopeful at 106
P.S. I hope you meet with him soon! Make sure to tell him to play it at its intended pace. Many people who have played it like to speed through it and it does not sound as mystifying that way. I also hope he is a good teacher.
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