Light Touched My Hand In A Dream [Jamie]

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(On The Flap Of The Envelope It Reads "Only Open This Somewhere Private!")



Gift Accompanying The Letter

Happy Valentine's To My Anonymous Writer. I told you I would get a gift. I wanted to get chocolates but that didn't seem like enough. I didn't want to get anything that would be too much either. It wasn't expensive but it did made me think of you. Warm like the sun.. Try not to wear it too much.



Sincerely,

Basking

@jamie

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dear admiree,

The poem and the bracelet are both beautiful; thank you. I wish that I could give you more than my thanks, but I already sent my gift away with my other letter. (It, unfortunately, was not as good as this one. I'll have to try harder next time there's an occasion to give you something.) I wonder (and feel free not to answer) if you are aware of all of the bad things that come with the sun. For example, if you were to gaze upon me, and I am the sun, would I not blind you? I'd rather prefer for you to be able to see me without any serious physical harm. And, of course, you must have heard the story of Icarus, who flow to close to the sun and fell to the unforgiving ocean because of it. Not to take the romance out of everything, but do you think I could be just as dangerous?

love,
admirer

@lionaanna

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Dear Fellow Admiree (@jamie),

I'm glad you liked it. I thought about getting one for myself too but somehow that seemed like it wasn't a good idea. For more reasons than one. The biggest, of course, being that I would not want you to possibly see me with it and know that I'm the one you're writing. Somehow I'm still slightly nervous about you knowing who I am.

Somehow, I knew you would bring the story of Icarus up even before I decided to send the poem. Is it because I'm starting to learn you? To answer your question honestly and at the risk of embarrassing myself, you are dangerous for me. Because I've become so attached to you. Your letters are my happiness most days and because you control my happiness, you are dangerous. Just.. be careful with that power, okay?

It looks like now we'll receive two letters from one another each day. Am I too excited?

Sincerely,

Fellow Admirer

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dear admiree,

Perhaps after we figure out who the other is (because honestly, I see this as a question of when, and not if), you can purchase yourself a bracelet, and we can match. For your information, I’ve not started wearing the bracelet, but I do carry it around with me in the pockets of my robes.

Does it seem like a very me thing to point out the downside to everything? I hope that’s not the case. That is perhaps one of the best reasons I have ever been dangerous for someone else, so I will accept it gladly. To be someone’s source of happiness is a little exhilarating, but I promise that I won’t get drunk on power. I care for you, so it seems silly for me to try to manipulate you in any way, even if I could.

Two letters a day! How exciting! I refuse to say that you are too excited without knowing how excited you are, because it seems we share a similar enthusiasm.

love,
admirer

@lionaanna

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Dear Sweet Surprise (@jamie ),

Lucky me that I've already figured out who you are. I think you have a decent ways to go before you figure out who I am. There is not rush so take your time in your search. I enjoy our letters so much to give them up because you have figured me out. However, once that time comes, I will purchase one of my own so that we can match.

It is something that I am discovering is a 'you thing' but I do not see any bad in looking at the downside of things. If you do decide to get drunk on power, make it positive and continue to make me happy with your words. I care for you quite deeply in such a short amount of time and now knowing who you are I'm connecting this feeling with your face and who I know you to be. It hasn't been a difficult process at all. You, Jamie, are someone I care for deeply.

My excitement is quite possibly palpable which is why I'm currently writing from under my covers well into the evening. I wish to share my excitement with no one but you for now.

Sincerely,

Wildly Enthusiastic

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dear admiree,

I’ll never be able to figure out who you are until you give me more hints. I was very liberal with mine, but even as I comb back through our letters I can barely find anything of use. Throw me a bone. (Ha! If you really do know who I am, then the humor of that will not be lost on you). Just because I figure you out doesn’t mean that we can’t continue out letters. In fact, I rather expect it. Very romantic and everything.

I think you’re the only person who has said that my occasional pessimism isn’t a bad thing. I’m not going to get drunk on power – that’s the one thing that I definitely don’t do. Wow. You wrote my name. I have to take a minute, because you wrote my name. It’s me. I’m Jamie. You wrote a letter to Jamie Greyback…who is me. Wow. This is more overwhelming than I thought it would be. I’m kind of hyperventilating a little bit right now.

We can share all the excitement that you want. Now excuse me while I go blow into a paper bag to keep myself from passing out.

love,
admirer
jamie

@lionaanna

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Dear Stay Calm (@jamie),

The humor is definitely not lost on me. I just imagined you laughing and I smiled really hard and now my cheeks are hurting again. I don't know what clues to give you without giving everything away. I play an instrument? Can you guess which one? You should ask me some questions to get me to spill my identity. That how I got you to tell me yours.

Pessimism makes you more prepared for the worse. When bad things do happen you're less surprised by them. Of course it's okay to be more hopeful for better but being prepared for the worst isn't a bad thing.

Yes, I did write a letter to Jamie Greyback, who I hope is okay because of the alarming second part of her last letter. I hope you found that paper bag and calmed yourself. I would hate for one Jamie Greyback to pass out because I used her name. Though I guess it seems kind of weird that I just used your name twice in this letter. Don't pass out though.

Sincerely,

Still Secretive

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dear admiree,

My sense of humor tends to include a lot more wolf-related puns than most people are comfortable laughing at, just as a fair warning. I figure if I make the jokes than no one else can make them against me, if that makes any sense. I hate jokes about fleas, though. That implies I have poor hygiene, and I definitely don’t. I assume that you don’t play the violin, since you would have mentioned it when I said I wanted to learn it… Do you perhaps play the flute?

Pessimism prepares you for the worst, but it also takes some of the beauty out of the world. When I get the energy to be optimistic, it really is nice – the world looks so much more magical through rose-colored glasses.

I am okay. Mostly. I think? It’s still a really, really weird idea that you’re actually writing to me. You know who I am, and you know who my father is, and you still want to talk to me. That’s great. That’s amazing. And that’s my name! Wow! Okay, lots of exclamation points! And lots of fragments! I was doing really well with seeming calm until this paragraph…Oops.

love,
jamie

@lionaanna

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Dear Mostly Calm (@jamie ),

Just as long as you don't get upset if I laugh too. Of course it wouldn't be meant offensively but I'm sure they'd be amusing jokes. No I don't play the flute. Nor do I play the violin, though it is a lovely instrument. Close though. I play the viola. I could teach you violin just based on the techniques I've learned but you would have to modify them for the violin. I'm sure that you'd want to stick with your friend who promised to teach you though. Being able to play whenever you want and play beautifully is revitalizing. It's a great relaxer for me anyway.

A realistic view is best though. Being able to see things as they are. It's a hard skill to obtain as most people aren't realist. Most people like to see the best in everything. Optimism is exhausting, in my personal opinion.

Your father is still not an issue. When you talked about him in an earlier letter, before I knew who you were, I thought even then that your father wouldn't matter.
I do hope you aren't truly in danger though from anything that he's done. Your excitement is definitely preferred over you hyperventilating but I fear that if your excitement continues for too long you may begin to hyperventilate again.

Sincerely,

Musically Talented

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dear admiree,

Here I was, thinking I was going to have to guess every instrument I knew before you would tell me. It’s probably a good thing that you told me you played the viola, because it’s definitely not on my top ten in the list of instruments I would guess that you would play. Perhaps, when I get better at the violin, we can do a duet together. Violin and viola are normally paired together, aren’t they? I’m sure that Brandon knows how to play the viola, too. He knows how to play practically every instrument under the sun. (And now that you know who I am, you can know who all of my friends are, too. Isn’t that wonderful?) What music does for you is kind of what Quidditch does for me, but I wanted a less competitive way to unwind as well.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to reach realism. I don’t mind oscillating between optimism and pessimism, though of the two I agree that optimism is definitely more tiring.

He might not matter to you, but he matters to me. My cousin, Mina (the one I’m writing letters to, if you’re curious) seems to think that there’s a chance that he’ll come around, looking for us. Or rather, for her family. Apparently her mother pissed my father off. I’m still trying to get used to the idea of having cousins, if I’m honest. After so long with it just being me and my mother, having five siblings, and now six cousins…Is a lot.

I’ll be careful to control my breathing.

love,
jamie

@lionaanna

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Dear Social Butterfly (@jamie),

I wouldn't make you go through every instrument to try and guess which one I play. That'd be cruel. Yes, the violin and viola are often paired together so we could definitely play together once you learn to play. Since finding out who you are I've seen you with a few people in the Great Hall but I don't know if any one of them would qualify as a Brandon. What's he like? Other than being a musician of course. I don't get to play as much as I used to because of N.E.W.Ts now especially but I used to play every other day wherever I could find a secluded spot. Seclusion made it so I wasn't interrupted. I'd play for an hour or two. My favorite spot to play was a little cove just outside of the Forbidden Forest. It's not so secluded anymore but it was perfect during my fifth year.

I haven't said this in a while: tell me something new. Something you haven't told me yet. Maybe something you've been hesitant to tell me? Or something shocking? Surprise me. I'm in the mood to be surprised and the best way to do that would be something new from my not-so-mystery writer.

What I meant was that my opinion of him would not affect my opinion of you. Her mother pissing him off would mean him coming after you? Is her family offering to protect you from him as well? It would be logical for them to do so. Going from a small family of two to such a large family would be interesting but yes very overwhelming. My family is a bit on the smaller side so finding out I had more than what I know would be shocking. How does your mother feel about your new family? Have you met the mothers of your other siblings? Did you only meet your other siblings at Hogwarts? That's a lot of questions, I know. I don't mean to be so intrusive but my curiosity is rampant when it wants to be.

Sincerely,

Half of a Duet

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dear admiree,

Keeping me in the dark while you know who I am is a little cruel, too, but yet you’re doing it. (I kid – mostly.) Knowing we can play a duet is only making me more eager to perfect my skills! If you’re looking to see which of my friends is Brandon, the easiest way to spot him is his Durmstrang robes. He used to go to Hogwarts – hence how I know him – but he transferred to Durmstrang for his sixth and seventh years. It just so happened that he got to come back this year! He’s tall-ish, and has brown hair. I know it’s not a great description, but hopefully you can figure it out now. An hour or two!? That seems like a long time to play an instrument… Has your little cove been taken over by others? Do you want help reclaiming it?

Now that you know who I am, I’ll tell you something new about my family. My youngest sibling is my little sister, Max. She’s a fifth year and she’s in Slytherin house, and she’s one of the best things that happened to me. We became really close at a low point in my life, and then we stayed close. I know that’s not really something shocking or surprising, but I love Max a lot, so I figured it would be good to mention her.

No, her mother pissing him off would mean him coming after them, and then finding out that his own kids are here and deciding that he might as well, while he’s in the neighborhood. They’re not offering us anything other than being familial – up until now they’ve been hiding from us to keep from being found by Fenrir. I don’t really know why that is, but it’s not really my place to talk. It’s not like him finding me will make much of a difference, since he already did the deed and turned me. It’s Max that I’m worried about, and her other half-siblings (by her mother, not our father). My mother isn’t really in the picture anymore. I’ve met Max’s mother, but no one else’s. Not all of them are alive anymore, and at least one lives in a foreign country, so… there’s a lot to contend with. I met Max and Adrian (sixth year, Gryffindor) at Hogwarts, but I met Odette and Elias outside of it. I hope that my family dynamics make sense, and are enough to satisfy your curiosity.

love,
jamie

@lionaanna

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Dear Future Violin Player (@jamie ),

I laughed reading that part of the letter. Find out who I am and you can end your own suffering though I do wish to hold on to the mystery for as long as I can. Do you know why it is that he transferred? I'm unsure if I've seen him but just based on your description it is possible that I may have. If you think that two hours is a long time to play, wait until you start needing to practice to perfect your playing. When I was learning to play viola, my mentor demanded that I practiced an additional two hours to the three I spent practicing with her. And that was daily. Maybe he won't be as tough on you but I don't regret it. Practicing that much helped my playing. Yes my cove has been taken over unfortunately. There isn't much of a point in trying to reclaim it now considering soon I will be gone from here. Thank you for the offer though.

I knew a little bit of that information just based on my observations of you and through other means I won't mention. Thank you for elaborating though. While not a surprise it was pleasant information. I'm glad you are close with at least one of your siblings and that she is able to be there for you.

So essentially, yes her pissing him off would put you in danger of him coming after you and Max. Her conflict with him should not affect you so negatively so it would be best if they offered you some kind of protection from him. That or avoid conflict with him. But that is just my opinion, of course I have no control over what happens. Is your mother not in the picture any longer because of you attending Hogwarts? Are you unable to send her owls? Everything has made sense so far but that is a lot of information. How do you feel about your brother participating in the tournament? Did you want to participate? I had no interest in doing so and I honestly hadn't been that excited about it.

Sincerely,

Only A Little Cruel

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dear admiree,

Is it strange, that I want to keep suffering for a little longer, for the sake of the mystery? As for Brandon, I don’t know why he left. From what I’ve heard, it was because he needed a new beginning. His younger adopted siblings go to Hogwarts, and I think that being a big brother might have gotten in the way of his studies or something. I know sometimes caring about my siblings can take away from study time, but from what I gather it was even worse for Brandon than normal. That is a really, really long time to dedicate to anything, especially playing the same song over and over and over. I don’t think that he’ll be that strict with me, since this is supposed to be fun, and not a chore. No, no, we need to reclaim it. What if we want a secret place to meet together, because we want to pretend we haven’t met until graduation but still want to see each other’s faces? Think of the romance! Aren’t you the one who said you were a romantic at heart?

I assume that you knew my sister’s name and house, but not the other bits, right? I don’t see how you could know more than that without talking to Max yourself, and I know how Max can get around other people… she wouldn’t tell you any of that. I’m close-ish with Odette and Adrian. It’s really only Elias that I can’t seem to connect with. We can have a polite conversation, but I don’t know if we’ll ever really get past that point.

I don’t think that they see it that way. To them, we seem to be nothing more than extensions of Fenrir, so why would they need to protect us from ourselves? My mother isn’t in the picture any longer because I chose her not to be. It’s a long, complicated story that begins and ends – where else? – with my father. It’s not the sort of thing I like to talk about over owl, if at all possible. Perhaps if we meet in person, I can give you the story. I wanted to be the Champion for Hogwarts, but I’ve made peace with the fact that Anna is. We’re friendly. As for Elias… well, he isn’t doing a great job of representing our family, is he?

love,
jamie

@lionaanna

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Dear Unforgettable Face (@jamie ),

If the mystery is what is keeping you interested then suffer away. Joking of course as I don't wish you to suffer in any capacity but if you would like the mystery to continue I perfectly happy with that. Sometimes, anyway. As I unintentionally revealed in my other letter, I know the difficulties that come with having siblings so I can relate a little. It is unfortunate that it affected him so negatively that he had to move away in order to get a fresh start. You will learn this when you do start playing and practicing, but practicing things in pieces make it easier even if you are playing the same part over and over again. It does not feel like the same thing if you make mistakes on it and when you successfully perform a piece, the feelings of accomplishment are well worth the practice. I am glad that you wish to assist me in reclaiming it but I think I'm even more glad at your words and that there is a possibility that you will want to meet before graduation. I think if we meet there won't be anyway of returning to the way things are now.

Yes, I did know your sister Max's name and house, I have seen you with her, but yes that is the only piece of information that I knew beforehand. And you wish to be closer to all of your siblings? Or the ones you aren't very close with? Is it that you and Elias don't have very much in common or what? If you do not mind me asking, I mean.

I personally find that to be illogical but my opinion does not matter and won't change anything. The tasks are dangerous but I believe Molly Weasley has been performing well. Are you disappointed in Elias for his performance. I imagine with your athleticism you would have done well in the tournament but I wonder if I would have received your letter had you been spending your time preparing for the tournament tasks as well as studying for classes and N.E.W.Ts,

Sincerely,

Practice Makes Perfect