hanging by a moment (brandon)

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@brandon , 

I know it's been a few months, but I decided it was time that I explain myself. I'm not sure why, but the idea of leaving you hanging for so long eats at me. I don't like unfinished business. Things should be done in a timely manner. It was entirely my fault that this was all unresolved...

Brandon (Dancing Boy), you made me feel something I hadn't ever felt, and I appreciate you for that. I'm sorry that I can't continue with this, just know that you meant a lot to me and still do, deep down. I have so much going on and... I'm not ready to sacrifice my time or my job for anything. But I wanted to thank you for making me believe that love was possible. 

I'm not saying I loved you, since we only had that one night together and that would be crazy, but you still assisted my current belief that maybe I could love someone someday. I'm just not ready yet.

At this time I'm sure you don't want to talk to me, and I completely understand that. However, if you would like to be friends I would be willing and happy to accept that offer. Just friends. Maybe you can even help me sort through some feelings I have about stuff. You're good at feelings, right?

Anyway, I apologize greatly for vanishing on you. Take your time replying, or don't at all.

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Callisto (The old lady)

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--- a week after he receives the letter ---

@callisto,

I was surprised to get your owl, but I wanted to thank you for writing me. It resolved a lot of questions that I had and ... well really yeah that's all. Thanks for the letter. 

I don't mind talking to you now, especially just as friends. I like to think I'm good at feelings, though I'm definitely not as good at them as I am at music. What sort of things do you want to talk about?

Don't worry about it. I'm not upset at you anymore. I was, I can't lie about that, but I'm good now. We can just talk, no need to apologize.

~Brandon

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--two days later---

@brandon,

I'm so glad you wrote back. I'm not really wrapped up in... well, I do have one thing I could use some advice on...

Hey, hey, I totally understand you being upset with me. You can still be, if you want. Friends fight, right? I'm glad we can be friends.

Anyway. I have this one friend who I've been really close to since Hogwarts days. Like, early Hogwarts days. I don't know, I think I might actually... feel romantic feelings toward them? I don't know. With you it was so easy to tell because you were so easy to talk to but she's just... easy to talk to but not in that way?

You know, maybe it's too soon to be asking you about this. Tell me what you think, we can talk about something else.

-

Cal

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@callisto,

I'm not upset anymore. Promise. But we can fight later, if the need arises and after we'll still be friends. 

Sooooo I'm not entirely sure if you actually want advice or not ... I felt a bit like I was getting mixed signals there. Still, when did you start noticing these possibly-romantic feelings for this person? How often do you get to see her? I'm totally willing to help in any way I can, but you might have to give me a little more information than that. Sorry.

~Brandon

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@brandon,

Deal.

Mixed signals are kind of my specialty, wouldn't you say?

I don't know. I guess I didn't start noticing them until about a month ago, after I had thought everything over since Christmas. I didn't even know what romantic feelings felt like until then. For all I know I've been in love with hundreds of people and never even noticed. I see her all the time, we're best friends. I don't actually know what I need advice on... maybe tell me how you can love people so much without running scared? You're braver than I am. Much braver.

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Cal

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@callisto,

Yeah ... you might be pretty good at mixed signals. That's not necessarily a bad thing though. Especially if you don't know how the other person feels about you. If you send mixed signals then you're almost certain to get some kind of response, which could help you figure out their feelings. 

Does that make sense to you?

Uhh loving people takes time and effort. You have to really get to know them and let them get to know the real you, which is harder than it sounds. I think the main thing is giving people time to explain themselves. Instead of jumping to conclusions about them (which we both know you never do that ... >.>) give them a chance to talk about how they feel and why they do certain things. Just get to know them better than you've ever known anyone else. Tell me how that goes?

~Brandon

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@brandon

I guess that kind of makes sense. It gives them a chance to choose which signals they want to act on, kind of thing? And maybe gives them the time to think on their own feelings... Still, I prefer being straightforward, so it annoys me when I'm not.

See the issue is I don't uave time. I'm so swamped with work and when I'm not I'm crashing at home recovering so I can get back to work. As for jumping to conclusions... Nice one.

Yeah, that all makes sense. I just need to... Decide what's important. How are things with you, anyway? Any beautiful girls after you? I mean, this is Brandon Fisher we're talking about. There must be thousands of eligible people wanting you. It'll only get worse when you're famous.


How is the music? I hope you're still playing and writing often.

-

Cal

[Still feels strange to write your actual name]

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@callisto ,

Yeah, it lets them show you what they think. You could do that for a few days if you want, or just be straightforward. It's just that not all people respond well to bluntness. Some people are taken by surprise and don't know how to react, which is why I tend to try and ease them into it. 

Find time? Everyone can make time for the things that are important to them. Maybe try to plan something with them in advance (like meeting somewhere to catch up or have dinner or something) and that way you'll be able to prepare yourself for it and make sure you have time.

I'm doing just great. Loving being back at Hogwarts. Um, I took a girl on a date a while ago and I think I'm starting to develop feelings for her (since we're talking about liking people). Other than her, I'm just enjoying my music and time spent with my old friends. Now, having tons of adoring fans is something I don't really want to deal with ... if I'm being totally honest with you.

The music is going well. I'm playing every chance I get and I think it sounds good. Then again, what I think doesn't really matter if everyone else doesn't like it.

~Brandon

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@brandon,

Okay, okay, I know bluntness is kind of my thing... I'll try to ease, I guess. Or maybe I won't try anything. I don't know.

I know it's easy for most people to make time for things, Brandon, but it's a lot harder for me than you realize. I mean, planning in advance is the only way, so I'm sure I'll do that, but I don't think I can make time the same way other people can... It just doesn't come naturally to me. I'm not a lover, like you. I'm a thinker, and that's about where I stop.

I'm glad you're doing great. A date? Wow, that's fantastic. I hope things go well. I'd love to still hear more of that music, of course. I'm sure I will on the radio. Hey, I'm sure you can deal with those fans with grace and poise, Brandon. You're smart and charming, but you also are a lot more straightforward than even you realize, I think. You can do it.

It matters if you like it more than anything else, I'd think.

Maybe you could send me a recording or something?

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Cal

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@callisto

Alright, let me know how it goes, whatever you decide on doing. 

Well then, start with planning time in advance and then maybe see how it goes? Once you start developing feelings for someone, it gets easier and easier to want to spend time with them and to make time for them. If that makes sense. Even thinkers can figure that out, trust me. 

Thanks. I had fun with it. I'm planning on asking the girl if she'd like to officially date me ... sometime soon. I'm a little nervous, so we'll see if I go through with it or not. I'll show you some of my stuff the next time I see you. Do you want to meet sometime? I mean, I know you're busy, but maybe we could do something after graduation and I could show you some of my new music or something? Or I can send you a recording. Whatever you'd prefer. 

Thanks for the vote of confidence.

~Brandon

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@brandon,

I chickened out. I didn't say anything. I don't know, Brandon, I'm just not sure if this is for me... I mean, planning time in advance is a good idea but I keep... I don't know. If I plan then I want to back out and if I don't plan then I don't know what to do. I hope it does get easier. Though, now I'm just confused because someone else is catching my eye and I'm internally screaming about everything right now.

I'm glad you had fun. It'd be great if you guys became official. You're probably the best boyfriend anyone could have, right? Yeah! Let's meet sometime, that would actually be great... After graduation would be perfect, I think. How about the week after? We could meet at Dominic Meastros. That's a good place, I think...

I miss you. I mean, not like I want to ruin your love life kind of way, no. I just miss having someone around who I really opened up to. I think seeing you might help me put my head on straight.

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Callisto

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@callisto,

Hey hey calm down. It's alright. Sometimes it takes more time and effort than others, but you don't have to rush things. Maybe just have a backup plan that you can use, but see how things go. So ... are you interested in two different people now then? If you need to talk about it, I'm always here.

Well ... not quite sure how awesome of a boyfriend I would be. I mean, things never really get to that stage with me and the girls I like. I'm starting to think I have bad luck ... but I hope things work out with Rosie. The week after graduation would work! Any day or time better for you (since you're the one with a job)?

Well thanks. I'm glad you feel like you can open up to me and if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. 

~Brandon

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@brandon,

I'll work it out. Backup plans are good. I like those. I don't know what I'm feeling, in all honesty. I was pretty good at being 'vulcan' with my feelings until I met you. Thanks a lot, dancing boy.

You'll be an amazing boyfriend, like I said. You're very kind, loving and loyal. A true badger. Evenings are probably best, usually Sundays. I'll get back to you about my official schedule. I hope to see you soon.

I'll definitely keep that in mind. If you need anything please feel free to ask. I would be happy to be of any help.

Talk soon.

@callisto
(kk this is wrapped )