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Feb 3, 2018 17:10:20 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 3, 2018 17:10:20 GMT -7
He was right, about who she would choose, but for some reason, that hurt Dustin more than being blindsided would have. It sucked that he knew his sister so well – and had proved that he had known her that well by correctly guessing the way this conversation would end – but that he still had to give her up. Not for the first time, Dustin wished that this could have gone differently. Maybe if he was more of a coward (or less of one?) he wouldn’t have had to give Kinsey an ultimatum at all. “Kinsey, you lost me forever anyways.” He told her, hardly believing that he was saying those words at all. “You say you love me, and that you trust me, but then you choose someone you barely know over me.” Dustin actually managed to look at his sister for a moment, his eyes boring into hers. “I’m not a good person, Kinsey. I can’t forgive you for doing that.” She hadn’t even tried to consider what he was saying, or that she would maybe choose Dustin over Riley. She had chosen her boyfriend, and she had done so easily. All of the agony that she was pretending to be in was fake. It wasn’t agony at all. What was agony was losing the person you loved, and then watching someone else you loved walking down that same path, without regard for what the consequences would be. What Dustin had said was true; he wasn’t a good person. Worse, he didn’t care.
@kinsey
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Feb 3, 2018 20:12:21 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 3, 2018 20:12:21 GMT -7
Kinsey watched him closely after speaking, trying to figure out what he was going to say. She had a feeling she wasn't going to like it at all and when he did speak, he confirmed that fear. Kinsey bit her lip, fought to keep the emotions in, but tears started streaming down her face despite her efforts to control herself. She didn't want to seem weak while Dustin was being so blunt, didn't want to hear him say the same words that Diana said because she couldn't control her emotions right now, but she also couldn't help it. This was Dustin. Her big brother, the one person she could always go to for anything ... until now. She was in her first real relationship and instead of supporting her like she thought he would, he was demanding she leave him. If it was anyone other than Riley she'd choose her brother in a heartbeat. Again and again she'd choose him, but Riley was different. He'd searched her out, watched her and protected her. He was the one person she'd told about her bully and her gift and he still stuck around, still wanted to help and be there for her and build her up. After all that he did, she couldn't dump him for no reason. Besides that, she loved him. She didn't think Dustin would believe her if she said that, he would probably think it was young love or a crush or something.
She wanted to say something, to explain herself and beg him to understand or reconsider, but she couldn't speak. Couldn't say a word as Dustin went on, saying that she was choosing someone she hardly knew over him. She shook her head, still crying. She wanted to beg Dustin to take it back, to not make her choose between them but she could tell just by looking in his eyes that it was pointless. She hurt him by not breaking up with Riley, more than she could have believed possible. She took a small step back, then another. "I'm so sorry," she forced the words through her throat. "I never, ever wanted to hurt you. You are ..." she bit her lip again as she tried to keep herself from bursting into sobs, this time hard enough it bled, but she didn't care. "I love you. Even if you never talk to me again or never want to see me, I will never stop loving you. I'm sorry," her voice ended in a soft whisper as she stared into his eyes for a few seconds before Kinsey spun and apparated on the spot. If Dustin didn't want to see her anymore, there was no point in her being at the beach with the family anyway. He was the reason she went on that vacation in the first place. She only wanted to stay away from the twins and she could see the triplets whenever she wanted. Right now, however, she just wanted to find somewhere where she could be alone and try to do something about this aching hole in her heart, though she had a feeling that it wasn't ever going to go away.
@dustin
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Feb 3, 2018 20:27:00 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 3, 2018 20:27:00 GMT -7
Kinsey was crying, but Dustin was not. He was hurt, but he would not break – he could not break again. She said that she never wanted to hurt him, but that was obviously false, or she would have picked him. Why didn’t anyone ever pick him? Ev had picked Rocco, Vi had picked her betrothed, and now Kinsey was picking Riley. Kinsey began saying that he was something, but never finished the sentence. Dustin could figure out pretty well where she was going with it, though. He was not enough. He had never been enough for anyone. Anyone he had ever loved had found someone else. It hadn’t worked out for Ev, he didn’t care if it worked out for Vi, and he knew that it wasn’t going to work out for Kinsey. When would they see that they had the person they needed to love all along, right in front of their noses? Dustin was sick and tired of being kicked to the curb, of being second best. He didn’t deserve to be second best, especially not when he kept offering up his heart and it kept getting broken. If Kinsey had chosen him, Dustin realized numbly, he would have told her. He would have told her about Vi, about the mess that he had made and the fact that he didn’t want her to end up messed up, too. She didn’t need to learn what it was like to be second best… but now she was going to.
“Not enough.” Dustin said quietly when Kinsey said that she loved him. She could pretend, but at the end of the day, her love for him had buckled under the weight of a love of someone she didn’t even know. And that? That wasn’t love at all. That was convenience. He had protected her when she had needed protecting, and somehow Kinsey had fooled herself into thinking that she loved Dustin, when really she just needed him. And now that she didn’t need him, she didn’t love him, either. Kinsey Apparated away, but Dustin didn’t have the comfort of an easy escape. He stood vigil on the beach. The sun set, and the moon rose. The moon set, and the sun rose. Only then, bathed in the early morning light, did Dustin turn towards the cabin, walking to meet his future – a future without Kinsey in it.
@kinsey (the end)
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