When my heart is his (Erik Esper)

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Dear Erik,

Can I just start off by saying that I absolutely love your music? I know you probably read this in every letter but I'm a huge fan! Your music really speaks to me and has helped me through some difficult times. I don't really want to get into the depressing details of pretty much growing up in a hospital but discovering your music made it all feel less bad somehow. It helped me stay positive even when things got rough and I can't ever thank you enough for bringing that sort of positivity to my life.

That being said, I have a bit of a strange thing to ask. Your songs paint you as a bit of a philosopher and really deep person. I have a friend that is something like that and I've had the biggest crush on him for years now. I just don't think he realises I exist, apart from the obvious part where I'm a friend of his. I kind of want to tell him how I feel, but I don't want the limitations my medical background gives me to also limit him. What do you think is the right thing to do? Try and let him know that I like him? Or is that too pushy or something? He's just always been around for me when I needed a friend more than anything and I don't really want to risk losing that.

I'm just very confused and I want to do the right thing. Can you please help me?

Yours truly,

J. O.

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J.O.

Thank you for your kind words. I'm grateful to hear how my music has helped you. It sounds like life has given you a difficult hand.

I wouldn't consider myself a philosopher, but merely someone that pays attention to life and isn't afraid to share all sides of it. I choose to not ignore the ugly sides of life, and I want my listeners to feel that as well.

As for your friend, I'm probably not the best to ask when it comes to love but I'll do my best. You obviously like this friend but you're afraid that you'll limit him if you confess those feelings. If those feelings are genuine and mutual then you're limiting yourself and him by not telling him. Don't let your medical history be an excuse for your fears.

I will also say, life is always full of hard and terrifying choices. Being afraid that saying something would ruin what's already there is valid. It's normal to be afraid. But here's a question of my own. If you don't say anything will you regret it? If no, then don't and move on with your life. If yes, then be brave and tell him. Life is too short to let fear stop you.


E. Esper