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Sept 7, 2016 9:56:14 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 9:56:14 GMT -7
The feeling of Nik's sadness was enough that it would normally send Dan into a downward spiral, but he was in a place where he couldn't let that happen. After all his experience with Irina passing out and not having any emotions at all was enough to cause him to relish in any moment he could feel. Which was a new thing for him. When Nick started to cough, Dan looked up his eyes full of worry, but Nik shook his head, saying that Dan shouldn't be sorry. That there was nothing they could do to help it. But Dan didn't believe that, he believed that it was his fault in some capacity. If he had been closer with Nik the past few months, hadn't been focusing so much on school, the tournament, and Irena, maybe he would have heard about the hotel sooner. Maybe he would have heard about this girl in the place that she worked and where they went together. Whatever the situation was, he felt like he had abandoned Nik, he had abandoned his best friend, and that was the last thing he wanted to do. "Nik... I know that you'll be okay. Because if you weren't going to be okay, I wouldn't be okay. He wasn't sure where he was going with this, he shook his head. "Listen, I don't know what I can do for you. I'm sorry about everything, sorry about me. I'm sorry about not knowing what's going on in your life right now, but we need to fix that. We can't keep secrets from each other. And I know that I'm a bigger culprit than that of that then you are." He found himself slowly sitting on the edge of the bed trying to ignore the rock in his throat and the Welling in his eyes, "what do you need me to do right now?"
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Sept 7, 2016 10:17:21 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 10:17:21 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Nikolai listened as Daniel spoke. It sounded like a ton of nonsense, but it wasn't. All of his words made sense to Nikolai. And they made him sad at the same time. The last time he spoke to Dan, besides the argument with Irina, was when he told him about his past. Suddenly everything came crashing down after that. They didn't speak, and now he was dating his little sister. Although Nikolai was still upset and angry at the two of them, he felt like Daniel didn't like him anymore because of his past. It just hurt him so bad. "I never keep secrets from you Daniel. I told you my biggest secret...and then you were just gone..." His voice cracked again, feeling the anger and pain throughout his body, and the betrayal.
The bed moved and Nikolai looked up at him, his breathing raggedy. What did he want him to do? He wanted him to be his best friend again. Part of the reason Nikolai was so upset about his best friend and sister being together, is that Dan is HIS best friend. Not Irina's. And now, if Dan ever came over, it would be for her and not for him. He felt the jealousy, but didn't explain it. What he really wanted was just Dan. "I want you to hold me..." A few tears finally fell, and he looked into Dan's eyes.
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Sept 7, 2016 12:17:53 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 12:17:53 GMT -7
Dan wanted to protest that there were secrets Nik had kept. Mostly secrets pertaining to this girl, but he knew it wasn't the time or place to start a fight. He nodded as Nik said that Dan was just gone after their long talk and Dan shook his head, leaning forward slightly, "that's my fault, I know. It was horrible... the way you felt. I was different then, Nik. I'm more prepared now. I can be there for you now," and for Irina, but he didn't say that aloud just now.
Then Nik said what he wanted and Dan actually leaned back a tiny bit in surprise. He had never heard Nik ask that of anyone, and Dan had never been asked anything like that in his life. Dan swallowed, nodding slowly before leaning forward and wrapping his arms around Niks shoulders, pulling him toward him in a hug.
Dan wasn't surprised at his own tears finally showing themselves, nor was he surprised at the amount of emotion coming from Nik. Anger, betrayal, sadness, mostly sadness. Dan choked on a sob, tightening his grip on Nik. "You'll always be my best friend, Ced. That will never change. I promise."
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Sept 7, 2016 13:26:00 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 13:26:00 GMT -7
@daniel <3 He shook his head, anger now appearing. "You should've been there for me then, Dan. You should've been there when I finally felt comfortable enough to tell you something like that. But you weren't." Magdalena was. His heart was beating fast, his face turning pink. "So much has happened... And you've just been off with my sister of all people, not even talking to me."
Then Daniel's arms were around Nikolai. He took a sharp intake of breath, his eyes wide for a moment, trying to remind himself this was just Dan. It wasn't anyone bad, it was his best friend. More tears fell because of the stress he was put under, dizziness overcoming him and his blood pressure rising. Dan's voice calmed Nik down slightly and he took deep breaths, which was difficult as sobs were racking through his body at Dan's words. "I - I don't know that, Dan. You haven't been much of a friend lately..." Hearing Dan sob was breaking Nikolai's heart, he didn't know what to do. So he laid his head on Dan's shoulder.
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Sept 7, 2016 13:36:01 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 13:36:01 GMT -7
Dan didn't comment on Niks anger, not yet. He didn't want to make him more upset. He just nodded, taking all the hits and letting them come, much like he did on that day. Dan knew who he was, what he did wrong. He was acutely aware of his flaws. He didn't mind Nik firing them back at him, again.
But then Nik was saying that Dan hadn't been much of a friend lately and then he sobbed again, swallowing hard as Nik laid his head on his shoulder. He waited a moment, and then another, just letting Niks emotions soak into him. Then he made a choice.
He took in a deep breath and willed himself to feel a sense of calm. Then, he imagined that feeling lacing through his arms, through his fingers, and into Nik. He imagined this sense of calm filling the both of them. He imagined taking all of Niks anger, hurt, and sadness away and giving him something else to use. He had no idea if this would work, but maybe just the steady breathing would be enough to help...
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Sept 7, 2016 14:22:00 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 14:22:00 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Daniel didn't even talk anymore. It made Nikolai a bit more angry, but then again he was glad for the silence. It wasn't that he didn't want Dan to talk with him and talk about things, but he did like just crying and being quiet. It was easier to think, and for some reason the sound of him sniffling and their breathing calmed him down much more than anything that Daniel probably could've said.
He felt Dan take in a deep breath, but didn't think anything of it. However, it made him stop to listen. He could hear Dan's heart beat through his chest, and Nikolai felt like a child again, being held as he cried because he was in pain. This was ... different. It was a way no one had seen him before, other than Magdalena. And now it was Dan holding him, comforting him. A wash of calm spread through his body, and Nikolai sighed heavily. Is that what Dan was doing? Niko didn't feel so angry anymore, just sad, and calm. He looked up at him, tears still on his cheeks. "You messing with me, yeah?"
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Sept 7, 2016 17:58:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 17:58:10 GMT -7
Niks sighed and his on breathing slowed and Dan realized it was working. Or at least, something was. Then he look up at him, speaking and Dan bit his lips. "I'm not sure... I just, wished you'd feel some calm and peace and then... well, I think it worked," he swallowed hard, "I just wanted to make you feel better. Because I... love you. And stuff, you know," he cleared his throat, smiling awkwardly. This was all too feelsy for Dan in the first place without saying something like that, but he had to. He had to make sure his feelings were clear to Nik. "If you can forgive the past few weeks and just look at the future, I'd appreciate it. Can you? Can we please?" he moved his hands to Niks shoulders.
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Sept 7, 2016 18:19:55 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 18:19:55 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Nikolai looked up at Daniel, his heart breaking. "I love you and stuff too, Dan." He laughed, and then cringed as the pain in his side shot up to his head. Niko took in as deep of a breath as he could without hurting himself, and nodded to Dan. "I can try to forgive, but I can't promise. Not at the moment, at least, Dan...it's hard. Really hard. I'm scared. I know you say I won't but I don't want to lose you to my sister..."
He looked at Dan again and more tears fell. "Trust me, I want to stay calm. But I can't. Everything that's been going on...the stuff I told you, Magdalena, being touched, the club, and now I get stabbed. I'm scared, Dan..."
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Sept 7, 2016 19:54:15 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 19:54:15 GMT -7
Dan nodded, accepting what Niko was saying wholeheartedly, as he always did. "I know words wont' prove anything, so let's stop talking about all that and I'll stop making promises and I'll prove it instead," heck, Dan thought Nik should be glad that it was Irina. If it was some other girl he didn't know then Dan would see him even less, wouldn't he? Still, he completely understood how Niko felt. He always did, after all.
Dan nodded, "you have a right to be sacred, Ced. You have every right," he gently squeezed the mans shoulder, "so be scared for a while, let it happen, then let it go. You can do it. Hey," he moved his hands away and gestured to the chair beside the bed, "I will stare here as long as you want me to. I'm here for every second, okay? You can tell me about... Magdalena?" he hoped he got the name right, "whenever you're ready. But for now, I think you need some rest. Trust me, it's like a reset. You'll feel better, at least a little," he encouraged.
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Sept 7, 2016 20:16:08 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 20:16:08 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Nikolai stayed silent, figuring he'd go ahead with what Daniel was saying. If he really wanted him to let it go for now, he would. Niko didn't want to upset Dan, he knew he was already upset, and here he was sitting with an open wound, crying like a child.
Dan's words made Nikolai perk up a bit and he nodded. "Would it be weird if I wanted you to stay in the bed instead of the chair?" His cheeks turned a delicate pink. At the mention of Magdalena he smiled again, looking down at his hands. "I met her at the club in London. She, ah... Actually royally pissed me off that night. I didn't like her that much."
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Sept 7, 2016 20:22:22 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 20:22:22 GMT -7
Dan wasn't expecting Nik wanting him to stay so close, but he nodded, "only weird because I'm pretty sure we've both barely been this close to anyone before," he chuckled, shifting so he could lean against the back of the hospital bed along with Nik, "but of course I'll stay here." he was glad that Nik started talking about Magdalena right then, since he wanted to know more. "Awe, all the best stories start out that way, don't' they? So what happened?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.
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Sept 7, 2016 20:34:55 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 20:34:55 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Nikolai laughed along with Dan and he nodded his head. "That is true... But hey that's alright, yeah? There's a first for everything." Dan sat back a bit and Nikolai was sure that if a nurse walked in they'd assume these two were dating. But Nikolai didn't care. He was comfortable, sitting here with Dan holding him. "Well, to start, she was out of her mind drunk, couldn't talk, couldn't walk, mind you I hate drinking anyways. There were these three guys trying to take advantage of her and threatening her." The images flashed through his brain, his emotions flying everywhere. "I ended up taking her home and getting her to bed. I stayed the night to make sure those men didn't follow us."
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Sept 9, 2016 8:20:31 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 9, 2016 8:20:31 GMT -7
"First for everything. Right," Dan grinned. That was a scary thought, in a lot of ways. He never guessed they would end up like this. He was glad Nik started to talk about Mag, though. That made him feel a lot better about all of the emotions coursing through him. He had a bad feeling he'd need another sleeping potion after this. But maybe this talk of the girl would calm things down inside him. Because right now, he was still feeling sick since he'd let go of that calm feeling.
So, she was drunk. Guys were following her and Dan felt just as angry and everything else Nik was feeling. Dan clenched his fists. "Scum bags," Dan muttered, "you did a good thing, though. She must have appreciated that?" he guessed. Nik was brave to do that, braver than he is.
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Sept 9, 2016 16:18:26 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 9, 2016 16:18:26 GMT -7
@daniel <3 Nikolai saw Dan's fists clench. As much as he was upset and angry thinking about this past memory, he was happy Magdalena was safe and with him. And seeing Dan getting angry was not what Niko wanted. He wanted him to just be...okay. Niko took a deep breath, trying to calm his own emotions and keep them calm. He yawned and then nodded his head.
"Yes, she did appreciate it. And well, you know I'm an animagus now, I followed her every day and night, making sure she got to work and home okay. And from then on we just kind of...got closer." He thought for a moment, thinking of why they actually spoke more. "I wanted her to get a different job...the one she has isn't good." His nose scrunched up slightly, remembering all of the men looking at her so degradingly. "Then, I let her touch me and well..." Niko smirked, looking up at Dan.
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Sept 12, 2016 6:36:47 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 12, 2016 6:36:47 GMT -7
Dan nodded as Niko continued about Magdalena. It was nice to hear, even if the emotions were really strong. Good and bad. Niko really liked this girl, that was clear. And as weird as that was to Dan, he couldn't really say anything against it. He had Irina now, after all. Then that smirk came and the mention of him and Magi getting close enough to touch. Dan chuckled, turning his attention to the wall straight ahead of them. "Well, I'm glad. I mean, hard not to be when you are," he said. "But yeah. I'm glad," he yawned.
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