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Nov 15, 2016 20:42:34 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2016 20:42:34 GMT -7
Braelynn really tried to not cry, she really did. But seeing one of her oldest.... friends? She wasn't too sure how to classify their relationship, just that he was important to her. Even though she hadn't seen him in months. Even though things had always been rough between them. His single word response, 'hey', made her sniffle just a little. "Hey." She responded as she tightened her arms around him. She'd realized immediately that he was returning the hug. To her shock, surprise, and relief."Thank you... for bringing him, Zander." She managed to say as her husband explained how Raleigh had come to be on their doorstep.
She appreciated the moment that Zander was giving them. Only after hugging for several more silent moments did she pull back to look up at him. "Raleigh, I'm so, so sorry. For everything." Bay didn't know how much he'd been told. About why she'd been compliant in the Purifiers plans. But he had to know that she was sorry. That she'd hurt him and other people. Whether he forgave her or not... Well, that'd be his decision. She'd be fine with whatever his decision was, but she wanted him to know that she was sorry.
@zander @leigh
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Nov 28, 2016 10:11:34 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Nov 28, 2016 10:11:34 GMT -7
@zander
"Raleigh, I'm so, so sorry. For everything." he felt raw. everything felt raw. his throat, his head and his heart. he wasn't sure how he knew what that last one felt like but he was certain that's what it was. she was alive. he'd been feeling guilty about her death since the moment he had seen her. he'd gone over it in his head a thousand times. he should have gone right back after he'd gotten zander outside. he should have made zander go on her own. he should have cast something at desi the second he'd seen her standing over her sisters crumpled body. it had been an image that had haunted him every day for the last few months. he dropped his arms from around her, using one of his free hands to break the hold he had on her as gently as he could and he moved to take a step back. "why didn't you tell me .. why did you let me fe-" he cut himself off as he realized how his voice sounded. rough almost raw like. he shook his head slightly and rubbed his hand over the back of his neck. he couldn't tell her. he couldn't tell her what he had felt .. he wanted to but .. he was raleigh flint. he didn't show when he felt something. he didn't react when he was hurting. he brushed it off. he had been doing that for eighteen years. so why was it so hard now?
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Nov 29, 2016 12:22:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Nov 29, 2016 12:22:19 GMT -7
Zander waited a few moments and put on a pot of tea, prepared it, set it on a tray and stepped back into the sitting room with it in hand. The two were broken apart and Raleigh just looked... broken. Zander felt sick. He crossed back to the couch and set the tea down on the table in front of it. He stood and walked over to Bay, wrapping his arm gently around her waist. He didn't speak yet, he wasn't sure what was said right before he walked back in. He didn't want to say something stupid and he was sure that anything he said would be the wrong thing right now.
@leigh @braelynn
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Dec 21, 2016 18:56:20 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2016 18:56:20 GMT -7
Raleigh had finally broken the embrace and taken a step back. Braelynn let him, staying where she stood as Zander came up behind her and put an arm around her waist as she waited for Raleigh to speak. He looked so.... conflicted. Almost broken. As if he didn't know what to do, or say. She didn't blame him. Even though they'd never gotten along before now, they'd still been betrothed. They'd still been in each other's lives in some way for the majority of it. Finally he managed to speak, and Bay felt her heart sink. He'd cut himself off before he could finish speaking, but she could guess where it was going. He'd been the one to come in after her. He'd been the one to find her, according to Carson. And they'd let him think she was dead. When she finally was healing she was so lost and confused about everything that they hadn't even considered what Raleigh was going through.
"I didn't know..." She softly answered, one of her hands moving to rest on Zander's arm to comfort herself. How were they supposed to explain this? "I can't.... I still don't.... remember most of those four days. Something is.... is blocking my memories." She'd tried to piece things together with Zander's help. She'd gone through all of his spell books to try to come up with an answer. But whatever was blocking her memories was powerful and dark magic.
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Jan 7, 2017 11:35:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 7, 2017 11:35:10 GMT -7
@zander
"I didn't know... I can't.... I still don't.... remember most of those four days. Something is.... is blocking my memories." he frowned slightly as she said she couldn't remember those four days. well in a way he envied her for not being able to remember. he could remember it all with clarity. what had been done to the students, the pain the crucio had inflicted not to mention countless other spells. he almost shuddered at the very thought but he managed to keep his composure, well what little composure he had at the moment. "don't take this the wrong way .. but count it as a blessing that you can't remember" he said as he folded his arms over his chest lightly. he let out a breath and looked at her, his ice colored eyes finding hers. "but are you okay?"
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Jan 8, 2017 13:59:38 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 8, 2017 13:59:38 GMT -7
Raleigh was right, really. It was a horrible thing to remember, and Zander wasn't even there for the worst of it. For Desi.... Killing Bay. Zander wanted to let them talk, though, even though he had brought the tea. So he leaned over to Bay and gently kissed her cheek before giving Leigh a nod. "You too catch up," he said, moving away from Bay in order to leave the room again. He could tell where he wasn't going to be of much service. And, in all honesty, he wasn't sure he wanted to hear about it if Raleigh was going to help her fill the spaces...
@leigh @braelynn (zander out)
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Jan 11, 2017 17:43:33 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 11, 2017 17:43:33 GMT -7
Braelynn had to take a slow, deep, breath as Raleigh said it was a blessing she couldn't remember. A blessing. She wished. Oh, how she wished it was. She closed her eyes for a moment, taking another deep breath and opening them just in time for him to meet her gaze, asking if she was alright. She didn't respond yet, just nodded as Zander spoke up, saying they s hould catch up and left the room.
"Why don't you sit down...?" She offered, her voice quiet as she motioned into the living room before leading the way in. She took a seat in one of the arm chairs, her hands folded in her lap. "Most, not all." She finally explained, swallowing hard as she thought about those first moments that had come back to her. "It's not. A blessing, I mean. I woke up, unable to remember almost anything except one thing. The only thing I could remember was dying. And I didn't know why. Flashes of.... of Desirae trying to kill me. And pain. More bits and pieces have come back now, but still not everything." Bay hadn't been looking him as she explained, but she managed to look back at him when she paused. "I know... I know I saw something during those days. Something important and I know I need to tell someone about, but I can't remember. Constant nightmares of.... of someone. I don't know who, or what they were, but I've never been more scared in my life." She wasn't looking away from Raleigh now, and her hands were squeezed tightly together. She'd only told Zander all of this. "It's not a blessing, Raleigh. Because I'm terrified that something is going to happen and people are going to get hurt. And I somehow knew all along about it but couldn't tell anyone because I couldn't remember." Braelynn didn't want more blood on her hands. She already failed Ethan, she didn't want to fail anyone else.
@leigh
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Jan 12, 2017 12:12:22 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 12, 2017 12:12:22 GMT -7
@braelynn "Why don't you sit down...?" he moved through to the living room with her but he didn't feel like sitting in one of the chairs in that very moment. so he sat on one of the arm chair arms. not really sitting on it, more like leaning against it as he folded his arms over his chest and watched her as she continued speaking. he didn't know how to respond to her in that moment. she wanted to remember something she couldn't? he didn't know how she was going to do that. if the mind wanted to forget something he was sure it would be almost impossible to get back. "if you can't remember, then it's not your fault" he said with a frown as he rubbed his hand over his shoulder and he looked at her. he shook his head slightly as she kept insisting that it wasn't a blessing that she couldn't remember. he ran his hand through his hair and stood up from the chair. "i can't agree with you. i remember everything. i remember the screams of the other students .. the smell of flesh as they tortured them .. the pain they inflicted on all of us ... seeing desi kill you, finding you and thinking you were dead. that it was somehow my fault because i hadn't been fast enough .. i hadn't done enough .. but you know the worst part? i'll never forget the look on zander's face when i made him leave you." he said as he frowned and turned back to her, his blue eyes filled with something he didn't think she'd even seen him in, sorrow. "you are dying to remember .. and i'm dying to forget."
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Jan 30, 2017 21:27:59 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2017 21:27:59 GMT -7
Braelynn slowly looked back at him as he spoke. She'd heard... a little of what had happened from Zander. But Raleigh always had a way of commanding your attention, and forcing you to hear and see things the way he did. It was that commanding and sometimes intimidating air about him. Her expression didn't change as he spoke, just listened to each word and holding her breath the entire time. Especially when he mentioned Zander. Her gaze dropped back to the ground than. When she'd woken up she'd been overwhelmed with guilt. Of betraying Zander. That look when he'd realized she'd been on the same side as Elaine. That she'd been involved in some way with all those terrible events. When he realized that she'd lied to him about so much. She'd never forget that pained look in his eyes. She'd broken him. Even though things were good now... She still couldn't forget it.
She didn't speak for several minutes, just stared in silence at the floor as she mulled over his words. Finally though she sighed, and closed her eyes. "You didn't deserve any of that, Raleigh. I just... I wish I'd done something to stop it..." She opened her eyes, and slowly looked back up at him. "What's worse is... I could have. I... I knew what Elaine and Desirae were doing. I knew for months, and I didn't say anything. And when I was finally going to, Desirae-" She stopped, her voice quivering as her gaze dropped again and she swallowed hard, hoping to swallow the emotion with it. "Desirae found out about Zander. They would have hurt him. It's my fault Ethan died, Raleigh. That all those students died. I'm just as much to blame as them." Her voice was shaky then as the grief started to sink in. It'd been eating her alive since the beginning of that year. Being a part of something so terrible and not saying anything. Knowing that she... That she let those students die because she was to much of a coward.
@leigh
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Feb 2, 2017 18:33:59 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 2, 2017 18:33:59 GMT -7
@braelynn "You didn't deserve any of that, Raleigh. I just... I wish I'd done something to stop it... What's worse is... I could have. I... I knew what Elaine and Desirae were doing. I knew for months, and I didn't say anything. And when I was finally going to, Desirae- Desirae found out about Zander. They would have hurt him. It's my fault Ethan died, Raleigh. That all those students died. I'm just as much to blame as them." he ran his hands over his face and shook his head slightly, dropping onto the couch behind him and he rested his elbows on his knees. he didn't know what to say. she wasn't lying. she knew that and he couldn't turn around and tell her it wasn't true. well part of it wasn't true. she had done something. "you're right. everything you just said is true." he said as he dropped his hands from his face and he looked at her. "for the most part. you did something though. you got zander and i out of there. if you hadn't we'd never have let carson know and not all of us would have made it out alive." he said as he frowned slightly.
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Feb 3, 2017 13:26:42 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 3, 2017 13:26:42 GMT -7
Braelynn smiled just a little as he agreed with her. It didn't surprise her at all that he would agree. He'd never held back his opinion and always had a blunt way of putting things. Zander wouldn't have approved at the harsh agreement, but Bay didn't mind. It was the truth. She needed to be able to accept what had happened. And yet, despite his agreement he went on to prove her wrong. That she had dome something, in the end. Of course she should have done something sooner, but at least she'd tried to make things right in the end. It'd taken her a while to finally remember getting Zander and Raleigh out, but it'd come back to her a few months ago.
Hearing Raleigh say that, pointing out at least one thing she'd done right was.... strange, but it made her smile grow a little more. It was probably the closest he'd ever come to complimenting her that she could remember. "I wish I'd done something sooner. But... I'm glad you're okay." Despite their differences.
@leigh
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