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rhys alexander greyback
HOGWARTS ALUM WEREWOLF CURSEBREAKER ECHO
1,172 posts
played by vanessa
the air around me still feels like a cage
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last online May 2, 2024 2:55:32 GMT -7
WIZARDING ADULT
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Dec 5, 2020 11:53:46 GMT -7
Post by rhys alexander greyback on Dec 5, 2020 11:53:46 GMT -7
she's a myth that i have to beileve in all i need to make it real is one more reason
December 8, 2025 @maria
She didn’t answer him when he asked about clarifying what she said about his sisters, though he didn’t push it either. One way or another he’d have to find a way to find some tiny form of harmony there. He told himself it was for the betterment of everybody’s relationship but really, he just didn’t want to have to choose between his child and his family, the idea of abandoning any family was a terribly troubling thought but again he always defaulted back to that his child not feel as unwanted as he had been made to feel. He didn’t push it, it was a discussion for another time and perhaps when Maria was feeling better, her morning sickness was still leaving her tired and drained. Some days she didn’t even have the energy to argue with him which had been amusing at first and then it had just felt odd though they managed to learn to just talk once in a while, which was also something newer for them.
Rhys didn’t disagree with her, he couldn’t. It was a tactic they both seemed to do almost involuntarily but very consciously at the same time. It was a terrible feeling to inflict such pain on yourself just so that you could at least brace yourself for the hit since you were already convinced it was coming. When he asked about how Viola had gotten hurt, she gave him a look, more of a stare as if she had frozen for those few moments or was thinking very intently on what to say. And then she spoke in almost a whisper. ’I burned them’. Rhys looked surprised, she had burned them? It had given him more questions than answers but then she continued or rather, clarified. With that he understood, maybe not the why but at least the what. Even with the displays of fire she had show him, mostly in anger and him the possibly intended target, he’d never actually thought she would have burned anyone. ”Oh…” He managed, what does one say to that? But he let out a sigh and looked sympathetically at her.
”It was an accident?” He was assuming. First because he still couldn’t think of a situation where she would intentionally burn someone, even in anger and second because he heard the regret in her voice and the expression on her face. It had to be. She may have a face when she was in public but with him he saw someone else, and it wasn’t someone who would intentionally hurt someone they cared about.
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Dec 14, 2020 14:06:17 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 14, 2020 14:06:17 GMT -7
Maria stared down at the ground, though it didn't seem good enough, so she grabbed one of the text books she'd set aside, starting to flip through it again. She wasn't necessarily reading, just needed something in her hands. To keep busy. Maria was a master at avoiding subjects she didn't want to discuss, but she wasn't doing that today. She wasn't trying to change the subject. If she was going to tell anyone about what happened... Well, for some reason she trusted Rhys enough. Despite his constant asshole antics.
Maria could still remember the day that she'd hurt Viola. The look on Viola's face. The burns afterwards. It'd been bad. Worse then she'd burned anyone before then. And yet, after that Viola had still stayed by her. Still stood by her side. Still loved her. But Maria couldn't forget how she'd hurt them. Or forget that someday, she'd probably hurt them again. Being with Maria didn't end well for anyone. All it brought was pain. So, while breaking up with Viola had definitely hurt them, it would also save them from a lot more pain in the long run. Emotional and physical. "Does it matter?" Of course it was an accident. She never would have hurt Viola intentionally. But she'd still done it. Hurt was hurt, intentions be damned. "Either way they got hurt and I can never take it back."
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rhys alexander greyback
HOGWARTS ALUM WEREWOLF CURSEBREAKER ECHO
1,172 posts
played by vanessa
the air around me still feels like a cage
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last online May 2, 2024 2:55:32 GMT -7
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Dec 15, 2020 0:51:34 GMT -7
Post by rhys alexander greyback on Dec 15, 2020 0:51:34 GMT -7
she's a myth that i have to beileve in all i need to make it real is one more reason
December 8, 2025 @maria
She was fidgeting, he noticed it because it might have been something, he would do himself when he was on the spot. But he waited for her to speak, these topics weren’t easy to talk about and they were similar in the sense of how much they felt things when they let themselves. It was….different to see Maria like this, she was still upset about this event that had occurred however long ago it was, and it wasn’t quite the tough demeanor he was used to seeing from her. It told him how much emotion was still there, lingering. Rhys paused and thought for a moment, ”It does matter.” He disagreed with her. He knew better than anyone how his own actions or reactions rather tended to have consequences that he never intended but they happened anyway. It reminded him if his own ex, or sort of ex or whatever you even wanted to label that. ”I think sometimes its inevitable…no matter what we do, we always hurt them.” It was a fact but could also be taken as an excuse. In this case, he believed what Maria had done was an accident.
”And then you left them?” Rhys thought about Deva again and that last fight they’d had, he’d been so angered and jealous, and she’d thrown in his face the same things she always did when he pushed her away. Even when he wasn’t trying to hurt her, he did anyway. There were so many things he wished he could take back, he thought about the child they had created together though the more he thought about it he felt torn between accepting it and wish it could be taken back. They both seemed to acknowledge something about themselves that was quite alike, and Rhys knew how he could be, though it wasn’t as clear when he let his emotions or anger get the best of him in a moment. ”Its easier to blame ourselves for something than be rejected.” He muttered, it was what he had done his entire life. The few times he had put himself out there at a risk, it had turned out to be incredibly painful and he’d decided to just pull away instead. He could take whatever pain he inflicted on himself. "I probably would have done the same..."
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Dec 21, 2020 12:32:08 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2020 12:32:08 GMT -7
Maria wasn't really sure if she liked how Rhys seemed capable of peeling away the protective layers she put up. He could see past the façade she put up. Viola could do that too. Could see past everything and actually see the miserable and broken person beneath the surface. With Viola, it had been terrifying but also comforting. She'd found that she wanted Viola to see who she really was. With Rhys? Well... It seemed to be coming more naturally. Because he was just as broken as her. Kindred spirits. While their pain wasn't the exact same, they could understand each other in a way others couldn't. But she wasn't sure what that really meant. It wasn't the same as Viola. It felt... different.
When he told her it did matter, she gave him a look, as if not believing him. "Not really when they're scared of you." Viola had never said it, but Maria had known. Viola was afraid of fire now. Afraid of being burned again. Viola was afraid of what Maria could do to them. Though when he went on to add it was inevitable that they would hurt others, she couldn't agree more. Though she couldn't help but notice how he said "we". As if he was the same. As if he self destructed relationships like she did because, inevitably, the other person would get hurt. Like people like them were built to hurt, not love. Certainly that was how Maria felt about herself. But he must feel the same.
Maria nodded at his next question. She left Viola. Practically broke her own heart in the process. And the look Viola had had... God, she'd never forget that look Viola had given her. It haunted Maria still to this day. It seemed Rhys understood far better then she'd initially though, as he muttered those words about rejection. Better to leave, then be rejected. Don't give people a chance to reject you, because they would, inevitably. "Your turn. Who's Deva?" Maria desperately needed the subject change. From her own ex to his. To focus on something else then how she'd hurt and broken Viola.
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rhys alexander greyback
HOGWARTS ALUM WEREWOLF CURSEBREAKER ECHO
1,172 posts
played by vanessa
the air around me still feels like a cage
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last online May 2, 2024 2:55:32 GMT -7
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Dec 21, 2020 21:27:37 GMT -7
Post by rhys alexander greyback on Dec 21, 2020 21:27:37 GMT -7
she's a myth that i have to beileve in all i need to make it real is one more reason
December 8, 2025 @maria
It takes one to know one, something Rhys had found over the years. He never typically said out loud what his real fears and anxieties were, and it was easier to see them in other people just as he had come to realize with Maria. She was just as afraid as he was about certain things, though the realization had come when she had almost set him on fire rather that up front. Still, it was uncomfortable when someone could look at you like that—past the surface. Like someone staring right into your eyes and seeing everything you were trying to hide away whether out of fear or denial. But, for the first time they seemed to be having a conversation rather than testing the sturdiness of the furniture in either’s apartment. She brought up a point, fear was a powerful force. Rhys himself feared what he really was or could be, a werewolf and a monster in capable of controlling his aggressive urges whether it was sex or violence and that had also kept him away from those he loved for fear of hurting them. He gave her a look, one of understanding—he couldn’t say she was wrong.
But then the focus shifted to him and he paused, taking off the glasses and putting them back in the case and closing the book he had been flipping through. Really just stalling a little bit, where to start? Rhys didn’t look at Maria and instead on some other part of the room. ”She was my girlfriend when I was sixteen.” He began, everyone that knew about them had been there, so he’d never really had to explain it before. ”She was…the first girl I ever loved.” There was a fluttering in his chest when admitted that and he paused, it wasn’t memories he ever dwelled on. Even when he saw her in the present day though it had been almost two months since that last fight. Rhys paused again, thinking over what his next words would be. ”And she loved me.” His tone was reminiscent, he could remember those moments where’d felt free and happy, but it hadn’t lasted long as the real world always came and ran through anything good, he ever felt, so he chose not to feel them.
It had been hard to see her suffer with everyone’s words and thoughts about him, those that were his fault. ”She’s a nice girl. Father is an Auror who hates me and so are a lot of her family.” He still had a massive dislike for Rhys and was most likely constantly on his radar for any reason to bring him and give him a hard time. ”She had no business being with someone like me…” Rhys didn’t fill in the details, though he had no problem asking Maria questions so he wasn’t sure she wouldn’t do the same. Though he didn't initially bring up that they still saw each other this many years later. ”I broke up with her before we left school for the summer.” Rhys remembered them sitting under that tree and enjoying that exams were over and how far he’d had to go and the thing she’d had to say to get her to leave. He had broken both their hearts that day.
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