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Aug 18, 2016 19:27:04 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 18, 2016 19:27:04 GMT -7
@jill9
Nikolai being angry was better then him being sad. Wiping a few more tears, she looked away as he glared. "You can't stop me from crying." she muttered. It wasn't his choice. And wasn't empathy a good thing?
Magdalena looked back at him as he said he wasn't changing, smiling just a little. That smile stayed even when he continued on saying he wouldn't blame her if she left. She noticed he moved closer that that point as well. "Thanks, but I don't want an exit. I want to stay with you." Then he moved even closer, his hand on her own. She smiled even more.
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Aug 19, 2016 3:23:17 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 3:23:17 GMT -7
@magdalena <3 "I know I can't stop you. But I want to." Nikolai hated seeing her cry, even if he himself was crying. He felt like it was his fault and that he upset her, which technically it is but he hadn't meant to do so. He just wanted her to understand why he was acting the way he was and what his dream had entailed. If she wants to be with him, she'll have to take the whole package.
Magi wanted him. She said she wanted him. Niko swallowed, and looked into her eyes, trying to see what she was thinking as he touched her hand. He saw the smile she gave, but Niko really couldn't bring himself to smile anymore. "Are you sure?"
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Aug 19, 2016 5:40:14 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 5:40:14 GMT -7
@jill9
Magdlena just nodded as he said he didn't want her to cry. "I just... I'm sad you had to go through that. And angry that someone would want to hurt you." she finally managed to say, expressing why she was crying. That and he was crying. It was hard not to cry when someone else was.
Why was he questioning her wanting to be with him? She turned her hand just a little in his so she could squeeze his hand gently, her eyes never leaving him. "I'm sure. "
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Aug 19, 2016 7:04:18 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 7:04:18 GMT -7
@magdalena <3 Nikolai wasn't sure what to say anymore. She was crying, he was crying. They were both a mess and Niko knew it. It came to a point where he was happy that she cared so much for him, but still wished he could make her feel better. "I know. But I've chosen not to dwell in my past. It's just...the dreams have been more recent than ever before." Nikolai was calming down quite a bit.
He looked at Magi and lifted his hand up from hers to wipe tears away from her face. "I don't want to see you cry, either, Olli."
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Aug 19, 2016 8:43:57 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 8:43:57 GMT -7
@jill9
Magdalene couldn't help with the dreams. Now it made sense why he'd freaked out so much. Considering what had happened, and waking up in an unfamiliar place his mind had gone into overdrive. "Is there anything we can do to help with them..?" she asked softly, not realizing that she'd said we. She wanted to help, in any way possible.
Only when he said he didn't want to see her cry and wiped away a few of her tears did she laugh softly. "I don't usually." she admitted. It was true. But for some reason he'd somehow seen her cry twice now. What was wrong with her? Why was she so open emotionally with him when she just shut down around everyone else?
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Aug 19, 2016 8:59:44 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 8:59:44 GMT -7
@magdalena <3 Nikolai shook his head at Magdalena. "No... I don't think so. They're pretty recent. Last time I had the dreams I just let them continue until they stop." He had been much younger, about ten years old. As well as directly after being kidnapped, but his parents tended to give him sleeping draught to make sure he got a good sleep. Of course Niko wasn't aware of this for awhile, but he did find out eventually because the nightmares had gotten worse.
"I know you don't. And I know we haven't known each other very long, but...I care about you too much to see you hurt." Nikolai looked up at her. He really wanted her to hold him, but he wasn't going to ask her, that would've made him sound vulnerable and that isn't what he wanted. That's why he's always had such a big façade up all the time.
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Aug 19, 2016 10:45:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 10:45:10 GMT -7
@jill9
Nikolai didn't have a solution to help them. Just wait them out basically. Magdalena sighed, turning so her back was against the wall again and stared out into space. "Well, tell me when it's happening, okay? I'll stay up with you. Being alone...it doesn't make things easier." wait, was she really admitting that? Her, the one that had pushed everyone away after graduation. The girl that wanted to become just a face in the crowd and feel nothing. And yet deep down she'd always known that that wasn't the answer. That maybe her life wouldn't be so messed up now if she hadn't pushed everyone away.
She caught his hand again, giving it a warm squeeze and smiling just a little. She didn't look back at him yet. "You know.... You make me feel human again. Sometimes hurting is good. I'd forgotten what it felt like..."
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Aug 19, 2016 10:53:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 10:53:19 GMT -7
@magdalena <3 Nikolai nodded his at at Magdalena. "Yeah... I'll let you know. But you know I won't always be here right? I'll be at my house..." He didn't want to be the bearer of bad news but he couldn't help but mention it. It wasn't the best situation to be in but Niko knew that Magi cared for him and wanted to help him. He just didn't know what to do to help himself.
As she squeezed his hand and spoke, Niko raised his eyebrows, shock setting in on his face. He made her feel human? Niko just wanted to tell her he loved her...he felt it. But he didn't know if she felt it too. Everything about Magdalena was everything he's ever wanted. "Well I hope that's a good thing, then..." Nikolai looked at her, and wiped a few of his own tears away, sniffling. He was as close as possible to her now, and he leaned forward and kissed her cheek. He turned onto his back on the floor and rested his head on her thigh, watching her reaction.
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Aug 19, 2016 13:14:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 13:14:19 GMT -7
@jill9
Magdalena almost swore when he reminded her that he wouldn't always be here. She forgot about that. Instead she made a sour expression. "Fine, when your here then, you tell me." now that she thought about it, she didn't actually know how often that would be. Was tonight a one time deal? Oh heavens she hoped not....
She nodded as he spoke, hoping what she'd said was good. "It's a good thing." she muttered softly, finally looking over at him with a small smile. Magi had noticed him creeping closer as they spoke, and when he finally leaned in to kiss her cheek her heart soared, and that smile grew a little wider and then he shifted, laying on his back with his head on her leg. She shifted a little herself, to make the position a little easier for him. She brushed one of her own stray hairs from her face as she looked down at him to meet his gaze. Carefully she reached out to brush some of his own hair back.
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Aug 19, 2016 15:16:03 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 15:16:03 GMT -7
@magdalena <3 Magi's quick expression change made him give her a small smile. It was small, but it was still a smile. "I promise, Magdalena, yeah?" It was going to be hard, but Nikolai would try. He wasn't one to ask for help, or even accept help. But he'd do it, for her.
Niko let out a sigh as she brushed away some of his hair. It was such a sweet and gentle gesture, but it was also something he's never felt before. At least, not since he was a very young boy and his mother did that to him. Suddenly, he realized just how tired he was, but he wasn't sure that he'd even fall back asleep. Niko bit his lip as he questioned Magdalena. "Are you ready to go back to bed?" He looked at her apologetically, "And...do you mind if we leave the light on?" His voice was extremely quiet, and he wasn't even sure she'd hear him.
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Aug 19, 2016 16:29:44 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 16:29:44 GMT -7
@jill9
Magdalena smiled as he promised, nodding just a little. If he at least tried, that'd be enough for her. She didn't care if the only thing she could do was stay up with him. IT was at least something. He didn't move away from her this time, thankfully, instead he seemed to... relax as he lay there. She tilted her head back, her eyes closing just a little as she relaxed herself. She'd be perfectly content to stay like this all night if she had to. Thankfully, he had other plans, and she tilted her head forward once more to look down at him. "Are you sure? I don't mind staying up with you." She responded, then she heard the mention of the light. "Yeah, of course."
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Aug 19, 2016 16:41:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 16:41:10 GMT -7
@magdalena Closer by The Chainsmokers && Halsey <3 Nikolai nodded his head. He knew she was tired too. He couldn't keep her up all night, and he didn't want to stay up all night either. Niko slowly stood up. The dream and crying had caused him to become a bit dizzy, and he didn't want to pass out. He took a deep breath as he stood and stayed still for a moment or two. Nikolai smiled at her gently as he walked over to the bed, still just in his underwear, with his back to Magdalena. Niko stretched and groaned. Crawling into the bed, he looked at her, a small blush reaching his face. "Will you...will you hold me?"
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Aug 19, 2016 17:18:29 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 19, 2016 17:18:29 GMT -7
@jill9
Magdalena didn't follow him immediately as he stood, Her head simply tilted to the side, watching as he moved away from her and towards the bed. He might be embarrassed about it, but she wouldn't hesitate to tell him that he had a nice body. If it weren't for everything that had happened, she would have told him immediately. But right now wasn't the time. Only once he was settled once more on the bed and looked at her, making his soft and sweet request did she get up and finally follow him. She placed her hands on his cheeks and planted a kiss on his forehead. "Always." She settled down next to him for the night, her arms around him. She didn't know if either of them would actually fall asleep tonight, but strangely? She was okay with that.
(end <3)
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