don't you leave her now -- hugo

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zac pushed the food around on the plate. he wasn't hungry and he didn't really want to be stuck down in the caferteria at saint mungos. he'd been there since last night when his mother had brought him and winnie to the hospital to see xan and they hadn't left yet. though none of them wanted to. he had fallen asleep leaning up against a wall in her room and now his neck was sore. he rubbed it with one hand lightly as he pushed the plate away from him, giving up trying to shovel any into his mouth. his mother had insisted that he come down and eat something and had made sure a healer had even walked down with him to make sure he'd brought food. well he had .. he just didn't think he could eat it. he took a sip from the drink he had brought from a vending machine, that he could do. he leaned back into the chair and thought about giving up on killing time down here and heading back to his sisters room. he knew there was nothing he could do for her but he hoped that him being there was enough.

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Hugo had seen a lot of the Hospital lately, but he was still as optimistic as ever. He simply refused to believe that Xan was going to die. He hadn't seen her die from this, and he wasn't planning on letting that vision change. Sure, he didn't know anything about healing or this crazy thing that was happening inside her, but he was foolish enough to believe that his faith alone could save her if nothing else could. He fully wanted them to do their best, obviously, and he believed in medicine. But if that failed, he was right there and ready to be the most positive influence on the planet and hoped that his light would drive the darkness away. That was that.

He was there now, but he caught sight of Isaac and changed his course. "hey Zac," he said, moving to sit beside the fellow Gryffindor, childhood friend, and his girlfriends brother. His voice was soft, understanding, as if he could convey all his support in two words.

@isaac

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@hugo

he sighed as he pushed the plate away from him and ran his hand over his face. it wasn't often that he didn't have an appetite but this was one of those rare times. worry was eating at him and he didn't like it. he hated it. he was a happy person. he didn't know how to do sad and worried well. he didn't know how to support someone who was sick, all he could do was try and be positive but he had a feeling that was the last thing xan wanted after the three of them had met in the library before she had come here. "hey Zac," he was shaken from his thoughts by hugo and he lifted his head from the back of the chair and sat up straighter. "hey, i thought you were with xan?" he asked. that's where he had been the last he had seen him.

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"Yeah," he nodded, "I was actually just on my way there. Sadly, I have to do other things with my time too," he rolled his eyes and chuckle. Really, he'd love to just stay by Xans side all of the time, but he was sure that she would prefer him to be living his life rather than just sitting and waiting. In fact, he was sure she'd be pretty upset if he put life on hold for this. She smiled softly at the thought, at how Xan was so selfless, even if she sometimes didn't think she was. "What about you, Zac? Are you on your way to see her?" he asked softly.

@isaac

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@hugo

"Yeah, I was actually just on my way there. Sadly, I have to do other things with my time too," he nodded lightly when hugo said he had other things to do with their time. like school. that was a big one. zac had sent lou an owl asking him to get his homework for him and to write some notes up about their classes that he was missing while he had been at the hospital visiting xan. it hadn't been long but he didn't want to miss any of his work. "xan will be glad to see you" he said honestly. hugo seemed to be the thing that could make his sister smile at the moment. that's what she needed. "What about you, Zac? Are you on your way to see her?" he shook his head slightly and glanced at the tray of uneaten food. "i was there. mum sent me down to get something to eat"

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Hugo shrugged as Isaac said Xan would be happy to see him. He hoped so. This hand kind of put a strain on them, considering Hugo still promised that she'd grow old. He'd touched her over and over since this diagnosis and seen nothing different, and he refused to believe anything else. When this all first started, she had felt betrayed by him, and that crushed Hugo. But they still loved each other, and he could still make her smile. But it was hard to walk in there every day without knowing what he could do to make it better.

"Leslie's pretty smart," he said, gesturing to the food, "only issue is, doesn't look like you've done that yet. Come on, Zac," Hugo reached out, pushing the tray toward his friend just a little.

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"Leslie's pretty smart, only issue is, doesn't look like you've done that yet. Come on, Zac," zac glanced down at the tray hugo pushed closer to him and he shook his head slightly. he could't eat it. he didn't feel like food and there was no point in trying to eat right now. "thanks hugh, but i'm not hungry right now" he said as he rested his other arm down on the table. he was too worried to eat, the worry was gnawing at him and it wouldn't go away. what if something was happening right now? what if she was dying and they couldn't help her. what if .. what if everything. there were so many what ifs that he didn't think he could focus on food. "you can eat it though, if you're hungry"

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Of course Zac wasn't hungry right now. Hugo couldn't remember the last time he had really eaten a balanced meal since... well, anyway. "Maybe later then," Hu said with a small frown. Then Zac offered his food to him and Hugo shook his head, offering a small smile. "No thank, Zac. I'm not sure I've eaten in... a while either," he admitted. Hugo, always the good example! "But we can talk about something else if you want, Z," he reached a hand across to touch Zac's arm, "everything is going to be okay. I know that," he said in a hushed tone.

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"No thank, Zac. I'm not sure I've eaten in... a while either," he didn't think hugo would have had much of an appetite at the moment. he doubted anyone in their family would have. he would always include hugo, rose, ron and hermione family. why call them anything different? they had been in his life since he'd been born. "i don't think any of us have" he said quietly as he rubbed his knuckle into the corner of his eye. "But we can talk about something else if you want, Z," zac nodded his head slightly but couldn't help but wonder what they could talk about that wouldn't come back to xanthippe in the end. "everything is going to be okay. I know that," he shook his head slightly and felt himself frown. "you don't know that hugo .. your visions change all the time. you can't know she's going to be okay"

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Awe, the negativity that was eating their souls. It was hard for Hugo to take, being such an optimist. He shrugged at Isaacs words, "I know I can't change your opinion," he added. "So, let's just move onto something else. Or you should head up there," he suggested, looking down at the food in between them on the table. He heard his stomach grumble but then looked back up at Zac, awaited his decision on where to go from here. Hugo knew this was going to be short lived, but he couldn't convince everybody else of that.

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"I know I can't change your opinion, So, let's just move onto something else. Or you should head up there," he shook his head and ran his hands through his hair and rested them on the back of his neck for a second. "i'm sorry .. " he hadn't meant to seem like hugo didn't know what he was talking about. he was sure if he had visions like hugo he'd try and convince people of what he'd seen but it was just so hard to accept at the moment. "i just don't know how to help her and i hate it" he said as he dropped his hands from his neck onto the table. he didn't like being he moved to push the tray toward hugo again encase he actually did want to eat it. "we can talk about something else"

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Isaac shook his head, which Hugo was expecting. He said sorry then, which Hugo wasn't expecting. Hugo understood hating not knowing what to do about Xan. That was his daily struggle. He simply nodded, at at the mention of talking about something else Hugo sat up a little straighter. "Thought at all about what you're going to do after we graduate next year?" Next year as in next school year, of course.

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"Thought at all about what you're going to do after we graduate next year? he had thought a lot about what he was going to do when he left hogwarts. he knew he wanted to do something with healing but he was flipping between whether he wanted to heal people or animals. he'd been reading up on muggle vets. what they did and how they saved the lives of the animals they helped and it looked interesting. he just wasn't sure about how to go about that path if he decided too. "i don't know. i was thinking i wanted to become a healer .. but i've been becoming more interested in becoming a vet .. a muggle vet" he said. hugo's mother was muggle born so he'd know all about muggle vets.

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Just like Winnie, Zax was thinking of becoming a healer. But, the answer shifted and Hugo grinned at the end result. "A vet? That is a great idea," Hugo loved animals and he knew Zac would be great at taking care of them. Heck, even non magical animals needed help. Maybe he could even sneak in a little magic every now and then. "What made you think about doing that, anyway?" he asked, hoping that this lighthearted topic would be a little easier for Zac.

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