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Aug 27, 2016 20:16:33 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2016 20:16:33 GMT -7
Edmund nodded when Grey said that he knew what happened, "She told me about it, but she didn't actually show me the letters," he confirmed. Still, he felt his eyes narrow a little bit, "But what do you mean it's going to happen again? I thought you wanted to be close with her, not push her away?" He tried to sound open and not accuse Grey, but this wasn't what they talked about. Edmund wanted to sort things out between Addi and Grey, but he didn't want Grey doing something that would make her even worse in the end. "I still think you talking with her is a good idea," Edmund said, though he was starting to lose his resolve. He had to act before he cdhanged his mind altogether. It was too late for him to go back now, Addid was already stuck in the closet and he was sure she was furious. He took a deep breath and then muttered "expelliarmus" under his breath, followed by "Confundus". He didn't want to do this to Grey, who he was sure wouldn't forgive him, but he also felt like he didn't have an option. As quickly as he could, he opened the door, tried to push Grey inside and close it behind him, locking it quickly and being careful to make sure that he kept all the wands with him and didn't let Addi out. This wasn't going to be good once the two of them got out. Once they were both in the closet, Edmund leaned against the wall, feeling weak and shaky. He could hardly believe he just did that to his girlfriend and her brother. They were going to kill him once they got out and he wouldn't fight it. As long as they worked everything out, it would be worth it. He grabbed an extendable ear out of his back pocket and slid it underneath the door. He needed to know what they were saying to one another. @jill2 grey xavier slater(ooc: Up to you guys now! Ed will jump in at the end, but until then ... have fun and make up! haha)
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Aug 27, 2016 22:29:09 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Aug 27, 2016 22:29:09 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us What did he mean it would happen again? Wasn’t that pretty obvious? Grey had already been flaky with promises towards Addilyn already, who was to say it wouldn’t happen again. Hell, he could almost guarantee it. “I do want to be close to her again, but if that comes with the price of possibly hurting her again, isn’t it just easier to back off completely? I’m sure I’m missing something somewhere. I really don’t know.” It all made sense in his head, but it seemed like whenever he told someone else about it, they didn’t understand. That meant that his rationale was fundamentally flawed. He had an idea about what it was. The only way to be sure of that though was to take to Addi face to face, should she allow it. The letters were so recent too, so he felt like that was going to be almost impossible on his own. Turning to Edmund so much made him feel like a failure though; while Edmund was part of the whole thing, this was also his and Addi’s problem. A family issue. It was great that Edmund was helping, but Grey needed to solve this on his own and come to a resolution with Addi. That line that Edmund didn’t need to cross was here and now. It was between the siblings at this point. As he muddled over this idea, about possibly telling Edmund that he’d handle the rest, a strange thing occurred. There were a few quick flicks and flashes, and suddenly Grey was going backwards into what he assumed was a dark hole of sorts. He wasn’t exactly sure what was going on until the light that was in front of him disappeared completely, and that was it. Standing up (he wasn’t sure how he had ended up on the floor either, but it had happened regardless), Grey fumbled around in his pockets for his wand. Nothing. “What’s going on?” He yelled out. Nothing. Moving around a little more as his eyes started to slowly adjust, Grey could make out the sliver of light from the outside that was near the floor. That meant there was a door there. Heading towards it, he reached for it, and continued to move his hands along the door until he got to the doorknob. Of course it was locked. Eyes adjusting to the darkness more, he looked to one end of the door and thought he saw the shape of another person. Somewhat shocked, Grey jumped backwards, again reaching for the wand that he didn’t have anymore. Backing up slightly, he zeroed in on the other ‘person’. A million things were running through his head as he tried to figure out what exactly was going on. Why was he in this closet, which was now pretty apparent, with another person? Thinking this through again, Grey finally realized that it wasn’t just some random person in there with him. It was Addi. Was this some kind of sick joke Edmund had prepared? Sure, he wanted to talk to his sister, but not under forced pretext and while being locked in a closet. He preferred doing things at his own pace; the kind where if he really wanted to get something done, he would. Grey didn’t know what to say to her, so he just stood there, staring. It felt like a few minutes went by, obviously unsure if it was minutes or seconds, and there was only silence still. Swallowing, Grey decided to say something. “Erm…” he started hesitantly, still unsure if Addi had noticed him. “How’s it going? Any idea why we’re locked in this closet?”MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Aug 28, 2016 7:46:11 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 7:46:11 GMT -7
All Addilyn could hear was silence. She was trying to rack her brain as to why Edmund would shove her in here with no wand. Was he leaving her to die? To sleep? She had absolutely no clue, and the more she thought about it, the more annoyed she would get and the more she would cry. Addi wiped away her tears angrily, her breathing heavy. And then, all of a sudden, the door opened and her eyes widened.
But it shut just as quickly. The small amount of light and then darkness once more. She groaned loudly, and jumped when she heard another voice. That voice. His voice. Suddenly it all clicked. Addi stood there, her anger rising, and her breathing heavy. Oh, was she going to kill Edmund when she got out of this damned closet. There was more silence. Grey didn't say anything, he just looked at her. She stared back, tears silently streaming down her face. She never wanted Grey to see her cry, especially angry cry. Addilyn wasn't sure what to say either. This was not only extremely awkward, it was embarrassing.
"I have a feeling." Addi turned back towards the door and banged on it a few times. "Edmund you better run when I get out of here! I don't know if this is some joke but I don't like it!" Addilyn shrunk back and rested her back against the wall, looking down at her feet. She had never felt self conscious around Grey before. But suddenly, she was. She was scared about what he was thinking and why he hated her. He didn't want to be around her anymore, and that is when Addilyn Slater assumed Grey just didn't love his sister, that he hated her and was done being around her. It was heartbreaking to be stuck in here with him and those thoughts.
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grey xavier slater
HOGWARTS ALUM DAILY PROPHET QUIDDITCH REPORTER
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Aug 28, 2016 17:08:39 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Aug 28, 2016 17:08:39 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us Obviously none of this was a joke, since the reaction Addi had to seeing him locked in the closet with her was enough to say that. She looked like hell, no thanks to his actions of course. After communicating, if it could even be called that, he watched her bang on the door more and yell at Edmund outside. So he had done the same thing to her as well. The kid was going to get beat up when they escaped the closet. Not by Grey though. Addi looked like she was ready to rip him apart limb from limb. While Grey thought it was a pretty direct way with dealing with the problem at hand, Edmund was taking a lot of risks by doing this. Maybe that’s what was needed to finally fix all of it. “Addi…” he started, watching her bang on the door a few more times. “Addi, don’t take it out on him. It’s a little extreme, I know, but he’s trying to help where he can.” Grey hoped that didn’t fall on deaf ears. There was a good chance she would refuse to acknowledge him. Understandably so. Eventually she backed away from the door and went back to her place against the wall, still not making eye contact with him. Grey didn’t want to know what she was thinking about, because it definitely wasn’t puppies and sunshine. Normal Addilyn would like that though. That was his goal now. Even if their relationship wasn’t fixed, Grey needed to make her realize that her new personality, her life choices as of late, were not indicative of who she was. He didn’t know how aware she was of that, or how to go about it, but he’d figure something out since they probably weren’t leaving this closet any time soon. Taking a deep breath, he looked at Addi again. She was still staring at the floor. “I’ve thought about it more, since the letters and all that. I want to go back to how it was before the deal with Theodosia.” He bit down on the inside of his cheek, waiting to see if there was any reaction from Addi before continuing. “That was my intent from the start, even with the letters, but you said you didn’t want me to hurt you anymore and I got scared because I didn’t know if I could guarantee that. After a lot of thinking and talking to Edmund, I can do that now.” He didn’t know why that was so hard to say. It was most likely because that had been the intent all along, especially with the letters. When that had fallen through, panic mode kicked in and he decided to retreat to the plan of removing himself from her life. Grey wasn’t sure why he thought that was a smart thing to say in the first place, but it seemed to solve the problem of Addi not wanting to get hurt, as well as not seeming like she wanted things fixed. He wanted to lay all the blame on himself, but it was hard to do that when they were both being stubborn idiots. “I want things to go back to normal, and I know you do too. This…” Grey motioned to his sister. “…isn’t you at all. I’m worried about you and so is Edmund. I’m ready to change and be the brother I promised to be over the summer. Not the asshole you punched in the face. So go back to the sister that you were before all of this happened. Please.” He inhaled again, slightly short on breath. That was more than he ever thought he’d have to say to her, but that was everything that had been bothering him over the last few weeks. Both of them needed to change. To stop this stupid charade. They were family after all, and that wasn’t how family was supposed to treat each other. MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Aug 28, 2016 19:14:54 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 19:14:54 GMT -7
Addi scoffed at Grey as she wiped her tears away. How dare he tell her not to be upset with Edmund? She shall do as she pleases! Not only that, but Grey didn't have a say in their relationship. And whether or not Edmund was just trying to help didn't matter to Addilyn. If Grey had wanted to speak with her... Well, she may have accepted. But no one had asked her! She was beginning to wonder if this was their plan all along, to get her alone so Grey could corner her. Her eyes narrowed at him. "Sorry, brother, but I've got a right to be angry at him, yeah? He knows he can help in other ways than this."
Then Grey spoke. And his words ran down her spine. She wasn't sure how to react. Her eyes darted up to him and back down again. Before the deal? The deal where he just go easily got rid of her? Addi wasn't sure he was being honest. Addilyn figured Grey to be the type to do whatever he could to get what he wanted, even lying. However she wasn't sure why he'd lie to get her, she obviously wasn't all that special. And then her blood boiled. "You couldn't figure that out by talking to me? Really Grey? You understood you wouldn't hurt me anymore by talking to my boyfriend who you've only just met? Well, that sure makes me feel special." Addilyn's voice was angry and sharp, with a bit of hurt thrown into it. She felt a pang of jealousy over Edmund, not knowing why Grey would listen to him and not his own sister.
More tears began falling down her cheeks as she stared at Grey. He spoke like it was just so easy, so easy to be able to just go back to the way things were. But he didn't get it. He didn't know the pain he's put Addi in through the years. He doesn't know that she used to sit up at night, wondering why he hated her. Or wondering what she could do, how she could change to get him to love her. And now, after she's finally broken, he just wants her to change in a second. How the hell was she supposed to do that? It didn't seem possible, and he seemed very stuck in his own bubble. "This is me, Grey. And you're still the asshole I punched. You don't seem any different to me. So why should I go back to sweet, bubbly Addilyn? Addilyn that was never hurt, never got to show her own fears and feelings like bad Mr. Grey could. Give me one good reason."
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Aug 28, 2016 22:41:30 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Aug 28, 2016 22:41:30 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us Grey hated when she called him ‘brother’. While that was what he was, there was nothing to it, no feeling, just a word, a signifier that he was related but not much more than that to her. It brought back flashes of the letters she had sent him. That was where it had started. He had to bite his tongue to stop himself from responding to her as ‘sister’. That would make him just as bad as she was, and that wasn’t the goal. The last thing he wanted was her anger towards him getting deflected back at Edmund. The boy knew what he was doing and the repercussions, Grey was sure of that. This wouldn’t be happening if Edmund hadn’t thought that through. “Edmund has tried to help in other ways, and this is why we’re here right now.” There wasn’t much more to it than that. Addi wasn’t thinking clear if she couldn’t figure that out. Hell, he wasn’t even thinking that clearly, just blurting out whatever came to his mind first, yet he had understood the goal Edmund had for them. “Obviously I couldn’t figure it out. I’m stupid Addi, stupid enough that what I thought would help you ended up turning into this. And I didn’t want this, never in a million years. But it did.” Grey could feel his voice raise a little bit. He didn’t want to yell at her, but she was being stubborn about all of it. She wasn’t understanding that he was trying to apologize. It was hard not to think that this was the same way he had been in the letters. “I’m so used to only caring about myself and my immediate surroundings that switching like that, learning to think about someone else, about your feelings and what you would want, was too much for me to take on, and yet I did. I screwed up trying to make things better for you. You’re right though, maybe I shouldn’t have done that without talking to you again.” Admitting he was wrong again hurt. Grey knew that he messed up from the second he had finished talking to Theodosia all those weeks ago and that wound was continuously reopened over and over again. In a way, that was good. It reminded him how he had messed up and caused all of this. “I talked to Edmund because he approached me first. He knows you better than I do Addi, he helped me understand where I screwed up, since I couldn’t understand what you were trying to tell me. Like I said…I’m stupid, even when I mean well I make everything worse.”He wasn’t sure if this was going anywhere. What else was there to say? While it was good to take advantage of the situation Edmund had created, being flung into it without a true game plan was terrifying. The more it carried on though, the more Grey started to realize that this might be the best chance he’d get to talk to Addi though. A game plan hadn’t gotten him anywhere thus far, so making a new one wouldn’t either. Edmund was pretty damn smart after all. During all of this, Addilyn had started crying again. Grey didn’t move. She was already pissed off enough at him, and he was hesitant to try and comfort her at this point. Now wasn’t the time or place. Things being said were going to hurt both of them, because that’s what the truth did. “I’ll admit I’m still an asshole, and probably always will be, but I don’t want to anymore if I can help it. I’m tired of all the fighting, of hurting you, of being an awful brother. If you want to stay the way you are, then you do you. But don’t push everyone away like I did. In the end, you’ll just be an empty shell that can toss people aside like I can. I’ve caused too many problems because of it and now that I’m smart enough to realize it, it’s too late. I ruined my relationships with most of the Gryffindors, with mum and dad, Claire, and now you. If there’s anything to trust me on Addi, it’s that. Don’t become me.”Just like before, he felt like he was running out of breath. Having to talk this much, to spill everything out that had been building up was hard, yet relieving at the same time. The worst part though was that he was unsure how Addi would react. He wanted her to believe him so much, to see what he was trying to say, whether it made sense or not. It was so easy writing things for the paper, but doing it in person like this was beyond him. Slightly light-headed from all the talking, Grey didn’t know what else to say. She thought this new persona was her, but he didn’t think it was, at least not all of it. He knew there was still a piece of the old Addilyn, the sweet, bubbly one that she mentioned, still there, emotionally scarred, but still existed in her. “You don’t have to go back if you don’t want to…but why not be a little bit of both? I envy you that you can so freely show your emotions and understand other people. The sweet, bubbly Addilyn just had to smile and it would make your day better. What’s so wrong with that?” He stopped for a few seconds to gather his thoughts, scratching the side of his head in the process. “At the same time though, I can’t tell you what to do. What I can tell you though, is that the person you were was the bright light at the end of the tunnel for me, and I’m sure for others as well. I want to be the older brother that can protect and help that become a reality again, so that someone else isn’t left wandering in the darkness without you there to save them.”MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Aug 29, 2016 9:30:58 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 29, 2016 9:30:58 GMT -7
Addilyn could see the flash of anger in his eyes. She knew how to push Grey's buttons. He always made it so easy and so obvious that she remembered almost every time she annoyed him. Normally, Addilyn wouldn't do such a thing to her brother. It wasn't fun for her to hurt or antagonize him, but lately she didn't really care. Not to be mean, but Addi couldn't find it in her heart to care about what she said or what she did. All she cared about was trying to get Grey to understand, trying to get him to realize how she felt and why she was so upset and angry. But as he just stated, he had really only understood Edmund. Addi knew Edmund was only trying to help, only trying to get her brother back for her, but she couldn't help but be upset about it. Shoving her into a closet and taking her wand was not okay, and he'd definitely have to run whenever she got out of there. But for now, Addilyn assumed she should do what Edmund had planned for them, and speak with Grey about everything. Just tell him how she felt, be honest with him. "Regardless, I'm still angry with him, Grey."
His words hit her like a ton of bricks. Addilyn never wanted to be the reason Grey felt not good enough, or stupid. She knew he wasn't either. He was extremely smart, and talented and good at everything he does. She didn't understand why he couldn't see that about himself, why he didn't believe it. Addi had always looked up to him, much more than she had Claire. Claire was too uptight all the time, Grey was calm even though he was angry. She slowly slid her body down the wall behind her, and when she sat on the floor, her knees were pulled up tight to her chest and her hands were in her lap, intertwined together. She looked at Grey's shoes as he was standing, her eyes wide. Addi cleared her throat and shook her head at Grey. What he was saying was wrong, he was not stupid. "Grey, stop. Stop saying that. You are not stupid, you never have been and you never will be... You need to believe that..." Maybe if she told him how much she's looked up to him he may agree, but then again he might just laugh. "You're smart, and well, you can be sweet... Sometimes. And I've always looked up to you...I wouldn't do that if you weren't smart." As he spoke more about Edmund, Addi felt a pang in her heart. She loved Edmund, adored him. Even Grey said he knew her better than him, and that's the one thing Addilyn has always wanted; for her older brother to know her better than anyone else. "But I want you to know me better..." Her voice cracked and more tears fell, her eyes still fixated on his shoes.
Grey stayed where he was. And Addi couldn't blame him. After she had punched him, she wasn't sure she'd want to try to touch her either. Or maybe he just didn't know how to comfort her. Either way, she didn't move from her position on the ground either. Addilyn wasn't going to try to deny the fact that he was an asshole, but she didn't react to it either. He said he didn't want to be that way, he didn't want to fight anymore. That's all Addilyn wanted. That's all she said in her owls to him, was that she didn't want him to hurt her anymore. But apparently he hadn't really understood that until now. Addi shrugged, wiping a few tears off her cheeks. "What if I want to be you? Yeah, you didn't ever seem happy. But at least you were you, and honest with yourself." Part of the reason Addilyn was always so happy was because she didn't want to be honest to herself, she didn't want to know how mean her parents were to her siblings, or how bad Grey had it. She pretended like they all had the perfect life and like nothing bothered her. But it did. It all did.
Which led exactly to his question about what was wrong with sweet, bubbly Addilyn. She laughed and shook her head. "What's wrong with her is that she can't share her feelings. She can't get help from other people. Bubbly Addilyn has to fix everyone else, but no one tries to fix her." A quiet sob left her mouth and she shut her eyes, trying to calm herself down. And then Grey's next words made her lose it. She finally looked up at him. "I- I still want to be your bright light, Grey. I care about you and I..." Addi sniffled. "I love you. I want to help you." Addilyn wasn't positive on how much more help Grey needed, but Addi knew there wasn't a single thing that would keep her away from him. She cared for him too much to just let him go, no matter how angry she may be.
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Sept 4, 2016 0:13:55 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Sept 4, 2016 0:13:55 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us He watched Addi as she slid down onto the ground, all the while continuing his rant about what had been happening, how he had been feeling about the whole situation. Grey still wasn’t sure if what he was telling his sister was getting through to her. After the letter incident, it seemed like it was going to be even more difficult now. As long as he stood vigilant and held to what he believed was the appropriate response, then there was no way he would lose this. Losing meant that neither of them wanted anything fixed, and he knew that wasn’t what they needed, nor what the intention had been all along. Listening silently as Addi responded, he knew what she was going to say. The second he had called himself stupid was when he had her back to how she used to be. Self-deprecation seemed to be a unique asset of his. He wasn’t going to call it a tool to getting people to pity him, but it was a way to get someone to tell him what they really wanted to say. Calling himself an asshole was too much, since both he and Addi agreed on that detail. Going to the base level though, and considering himself stupid, which he was in a way, was enough to grab his sister’s attention. He felt a small pang of guilt when she said she admired him. Grey didn’t think that was the best thing for her to do. There were so many problems he had. Personal ones. Emotional ones. How was that admirable? Was it the way he dealt with things? That didn’t seem like it was that great to him either. There were too many things he didn’t understand about Addi still, the way she processed everything, why she was acting the way she had been lately, and what drove her to try and simultaneously push and pull him away. It seemed like Addi wanted the same thing though. Her solid statement about wanting him to know her better, followed by her signature tears was more than enough to tear at Grey. He had spent the last few weeks only caring about making things the way they were before the deal was struck. Never had he ever contemplated that there were already issues that existed between the two of them. The problem was that they weren’t issues, because they were things that the siblings were already making strides towards; getting to finally understanding one another. And here Grey was, trying to save face, protect Addi, and then act like everything could go back to normal. How was that not selfish on his part? He had taken too much for granted. Now she wanted to be like him, be the person he had tried so hard to not be anymore, and he had the audacity to tell her that it wasn’t a good idea. Addi had been right all along and he simply hadn’t understood what she was trying to tell him. Even thinking of it that way concerned him. He had made so many mistakes already, who was to say this was also the wrong way to go about it? There were more questions still popping into his head, all of them queuing up in line of unanswered hypotheticals that probably deserved answers sooner or later. These questions were piling up faster than he could solve them, just like how fast everything with Theodosia, Addi, and Edmund had happened. Funny how things like that happened. His silent vigil continued as Addi answered all of his statements, observations, questions, and woes. He needed this. It was starting to look like maybe he was figuring everything out, at least the surface level of problems that existed. Grey knew that his comment about the difference Addi had taken in her personality and overall outward appearance would elicit a lengthy response, but not the one that she gave. Again, he had never thought of it that way. Maybe he was ultimately holding her back from being the person that she needed to be. Maybe he had already known this and thought that dealing with Theodosia, effectively fixing the problem Addi had there, was the solution to it all. Obviously it wasn’t, now that he looked back on all of it, but at least it was a step in the right direction. It sounded like she wanted help on a deeper level, not the surface, which Grey had trouble looking past for some reason. He just needed help understanding what it was that she really wanted out of him, what he should do as her brother. Seeing that Addi was emotionally effected by his last comment, Grey finally moved from his spot, deciding to sit down next to her, just like he had weeks earlier when she told him about what Theodosia had done to her, and about how she was dating Edmund. “I think I’m starting to see what I missed the first few times. I still need help though, since there are pieces I don’t understand. The one thing I’ve learned though is that I need to stop trying to help you Addi, and you need to stop helping me. We need to start helping each other, together. That’s the only way we’re going to be able to move forward.”MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Sept 4, 2016 9:49:02 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 4, 2016 9:49:02 GMT -7
grey xavier slater , @edmund Brother by Needtobreathe && Gavin DeGraw OOC: This post is horrible. I'm sorry D: <3 Grey didn't speak for a long time. Addilyn felt weird being the only one conversing and saying things. Usually it was what she did anyways, however, just having Grey stare at her was...different. Naturally, they would've gone back and forth talking or arguing. And at the moment Addi preferred the latter. She was curious if her words were registering with him, or if he was just ignoring her. The tears stopped for a while, which she was thankful for. As she took in a deep breath it sounded shaky, and she wiped the tears off of her cheeks.
That was when Grey finally came and sat down next to her. She curled herself up more, not uncomfortable with him right next to her, but feeling like he should hug her. Grey didn't seem like he wanted to do that, nor did Addilyn. Her eyes looked down at her feet, and she slowly rested her cheek on her knees, looking to her side to see her brother sitting there watching her. Her heart was beating fast, hoping he'd say it back, but when he did speak, it wasn't exactly what she wanted to hear.
Addi's heart broke into a billion pieces. Not because of what he said, but because of what he did not say. You could see the pain in her eyes, and she shut them for a moment and swallowed. "I've always tried to do this together, Grey. I don't know what else to do..." She felt embarrassed speaking again, which is why she moved her head once more, her forehead resting on her knees, her eyes looking into darkness, more tears falling. "You...you didn't say it back."
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Sept 4, 2016 18:46:52 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Sept 4, 2016 18:46:52 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us Now what was he supposed to do? It didn’t seem like what he had said at the end, after sitting down next to her, had made any kind of effect. Was that the wrong thing to say too? This was more difficult than he had ever imagined it would be. Here he was, thinking he had been saying the right things, but the way Addi reacted made it look like he still hadn’t figured it out. He was definitely stupid. Any smart, sane person would have figured it out at this point, yet he couldn’t. It killed him not knowing what was wrong. Obviously whatever he was proposing to fix things wasn’t correct, and thinking about it more and more fueled his confusion. There was still something missing…what was it? As he thought this over, Addi started to say that she had always tried doing what he had proposed. Goddamnit. He thought he had figured out a solution, yet he was still behind. Addi seemed to be even more distraught now than she had been before. This was frustrating. Standing back up, Grey stepped a few feet away from where he had just been sitting. He rubbed his eyes for a few seconds as he processed everything that had happened in the last few minutes again. There was an integral part he had missed somewhere, whether it happened during this conversation or not was the question. As far as he could tell, Addi still hadn’t moved since he stood up. He wouldn’t have been surprised if she had taken him getting up as a sign that he was over what they were talking about. That wasn’t the case at all. He just couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Then she said it. Grey knew exactly what he hadn’t said now. This wasn’t about what he had said, it was what he had forgotten to say, and probably the one thing he shouldn’t have forgotten about. He had always thought that was a given, not thinking much of actually saying it out loud. He was horrible. That was all Addi probably wanted to hear from the start. Grey turned back to face his sister and stuck his hand down towards her, hoping she would grab it to stand up. “Of course I love you Addi, you’re my little sister.” For whatever reason, he could hear his voice get audibly quieter than normal, and it cracked too. That had never happened before. Trying to ease the silence that followed, he formed a small smile, “Do I qualify as your brother again? Edmund might get jealous if you make me say it a few more times.”MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Sept 4, 2016 20:07:19 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 4, 2016 20:07:19 GMT -7
Grey's silence didn't seem like a good thing. In fact, Addilyn thought it to be a completely horrible thing. Not that she really had anything to compare it to, but usually when Grey went quiet, it was never good. In this instance, she looked up from her feet to watch his facial expressions and his body language. Maybe she'd be able to tell then, or at least get some glimpse of what he was thinking. Grey stood up and walked away from her, and Addilyn felt an immediate sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach. Well, that was it. Grey obviously didn't want anything to do-
Her brother turned back to face her, and she had never seen his face look like that before. So... Addi couldn't even explain it. If she would take a guess, it looked like a bit of guilt mixed with sadness. But Grey didn't get sad. At least not that she knew of. He was stone cold, never cried, never felt much emotion. And here he was, staring at her, feeling. Then he said it. And Addilyn completely ignored his hand. She stood up quickly and wrapped her arms around his waist, crying into his chest. She didn't speak, just let the tears fall. Not only did it make her so emotional because that was the first time she's ever heard Grey say that, but because when he said it... She heard his voice crack. She heard that small change in her brother, the one wanting to come out and feel. "Well... We-we just have never said that before and I wasn't sure you did..."
Addilyn would never tell Grey he wasn't her brother, she may have referred to him as her blood relative, but he was never not her brother. However at the moment she was a bit too emotional to even respond to his question.
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Sept 8, 2016 21:40:46 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Sept 8, 2016 21:40:46 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us Grey didn’t know what to expect. Everything he had done so far, everything that he had thought was the right way to handle the situation, seemed like it had been futile. But he had never given up even though it might have looked like it. From the minute the deal with Theodosia had been struck, he had started thinking of some kind of plan to let Addi know what had happened so that a situation like this could have been prevented. Obviously he was too slow and Theodosia had beaten him to Edmund with the news of what went down and that was why they were now like this. Even with the failed attempts to regain his sister’s trust still fresh in his mind, Grey had never wanted to give up. His letters didn’t help with that and it seemed like that was his intention, but it never was. There was always a vested interest in protecting Addi. The one thing he had never thought of was that his own actions would cause her the most pain. He was so caught up in everything else that it slipped his mind when first planning everything out. He knew that was a mistake now, and had since tried to fix it. At that point though it was too late to catch back up, and that’s why he never expected anything to turn out like this. Grey never would have expected, or even thought of, that telling Addi that he loved her was the key to all of this. He had always assumed that was common knowledge between them, even when they weren’t really close. Apparently that was another of his grand assumptions that only existed in his own little world. He knew now that it didn’t hurt to say things like this to the people that deserved it, even if it was already acknowledged. So when Addi stood up and hugged him, he understood what the missing piece to this seemingly impossible puzzle was, or at least caught a glimpse of it long enough to know that this was the answer his sister had wanted the entire time; the answer that he seemed to dance around without even realizing it. “I took it for granted. I shouldn’t have done that.” Grey returned his sister’s hug. “I’m sorry, I really am…”MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Sept 9, 2016 16:03:48 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 9, 2016 16:03:48 GMT -7
Feeling Grey hug her back was definitely such a relief. Addilyn had so many emotions running through her. She wasn't sure if she was happy, sad, exhausted, what. All she knew was that Grey actually loved her. He loved her. The one thing she had always wished to hear, and now it was repeating inside her head, and Addi closed her eyes, her head still resting on Grey's torso. The tears continued to fall, but she was no longer sobbing. She was just taking in deep breaths, in and out, trying to calm herself down. Her body was exhausted, she was exhausted. It was as if she had just ran a marathon and needed to sleep for twelve hours.
Grey's words shocked her. He was sorry? It kind of made her heart melt that her brother was apologizing for such a thing. To think back on how they used to be, and how far they'd come, really surprised her. Addilyn would've never tried to hug her brother only two months ago. Well, maybe she would've tried, but it wouldn't have happened. She lifted her head up a bit, looking at him, but not letting her arms go from his body. Her makeup was running down her face, and she tilted her head. "I'm just glad you said it, Grey. That's...that's all I ever wanted. I-it's one of the reasons I've always tried so hard to get you closer to me...I never thought you loved me."
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Sept 12, 2016 5:57:20 GMT -7
Post by grey xavier slater on Sept 12, 2016 5:57:20 GMT -7
The Monsters walk among us He could tell Addi was still crying, even if he couldn’t see her face. It had changed though, the typical sad, frustrated crying he had seen at the end of the summer break and in the first weeks of the term was different from what this was. Even the way she had been only mere minutes before she hugged him was on another level. The switch from that frustrated crying to a relief filled one was somewhat calming. To Grey, that meant everything was fine now. Everything he had tried to do over the last few weeks was finally at an end, at least for now. There was no telling if it would rise again someday to haunt him, and there was a possibility that Theodosia and her friends would be down all of their throats soon enough. That was going to be a pain. He still had nagging thoughts about what he had said in his letters to Addilyn as well. The idea that he couldn’t guarantee something like this would happen again was still with him. He didn’t understand his sister all the way, but it was a work in progress. The more he had thought about it though, he kind of understood why she hadn’t wanted him to say that. It was a quick solution to a problem that didn’t need to exist in the first place. “I always have. I just needed a little push to let that out…I guess.” He wasn’t exactly sure why it had always been hard for him to show emotion. Anger and sarcasm had always been his default to distasteful situations, and anything that either didn’t apply to him or wasn’t that interesting, was ignored. He knew Addi had done her best to try and get closer to him, that much was clear, and he had to reciprocate that now more than ever. “So how about we let poor Edmund know that his plan worked? I’m sure he heard us yelling, he might think one of us killed the other because it’s been quiet.” Grey let out an awkward laugh. How exactly were they supposed to convince Edmund that everything was fixed? He assumed at this point that the boy had thought of the possibility the siblings would lie to get out of the broom closet. But they had been in here for a while, so maybe that would be an indication that things were smoothed over. Grey waited for his sister to make the first move at the door. MADE BY VEL OF GS + ADOX 2.0
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Sept 12, 2016 14:31:40 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Sept 12, 2016 14:31:40 GMT -7
Addilyn nodded her head. She was sure that Grey had issues letting out emotions. Well, other than anger. That seemed to be his specialty. However recently he seemed more open. Addi herself had seen Grey out and about laughing, chattering with others and just being happy. Every once and a while she kind of hoped he was that way because of her, but she doubted it at the same time. But he'd definitely become a different person in his last year at Hogwarts, and for that she was happy for him.
Her head was still resting against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. Her body moved when he laughed and she glanced up at him, finally letting her arms drop from his waist. Addilyn sniffled and wiped away all of the tears on her cheeks and hoping her makeup didn't look too terrible. Taking a deep breath in, and letting it out slowly, she smiled gently at Grey. "Yes, I suppose we can tell him. But...he's not going to get away from me very easily." Her eyes narrowed at the door, knowing Edmund was out there, just waiting.
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