same love [anna]

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dear anna,

Sorry I didn't write you before, but congrats on being chosen as the Hogwarts Champion! I've been corresponding a little bit with Durmstrang Champion, Elias, and I realized that it was kind of silly that I was talking to him and not to you. I, uh, have something I want to tell you, but if there's something else you want to talk about...it can wait.

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Dear Fred,

Don't worry about not writing ... we've all been pretty busy so no judgment here! Thanks though. I'm really excited ... and maybe a little nervous too, but that's normal, right? You've been writing the Durmstrang Champion? What do you think of him? I haven't really had the chance to talk with him yet. We've both been too busy. What do you want to tell me? I'm super curious now.

            ~Anna
@fred

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dear anna,

Yeah, I've been writing him. My dad and I thought it would be cool to send a random foreign student a bunch of Wheezes products to expand our market and such, and he was the one who won the lottery. I met him at Hogsmeade, actually. He seems really nice, if not a little socially awkward. I like him a lot. Which is kind of what I wanted to talk to you about... Anna, I'm gay. And I think I like Elias. Like, like like him. I'm sorry.

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

Why would you be sorry about that? Do you really think I don't want you to be happy, no matter who it's with? I'm happy for you, Fred. Really, I am. And ... I guess I can understand if you want to root for him to win the competition more than me ... just don't root against me, all right? Please don't think I'm angry with you, I'm really not. I want you to be happy.

            ~Anna
@fred

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dear anna,

I could never root against you. You're at least in my top thirteen favorite cousins. Maybe top twelve, on a good day. Thank you, for accepting me the way I am. I haven't told many people, so I'm still getting used to this whole "coming out" thing. Good luck in the Tournament. Crush that French bimbo! (And Elias, too, if you want to. I promise I won't be angry.)

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

I'm glad I rate so high on your list of favorite cousins! Of course I accept you Fred. You're a great person and if people don't understand that, it's because they're ridiculous and don't know you at all. 

Thanks! I'm just going to do my best, not really try to crush anyone ... though hopefully I won't end up in last, which would mean I'd need to crush someone ... at least I have your promise that you won't get mad at me no matter who it ends up being.

            ~Anna
@fred

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dear anna,

Does this mean I'm higher up your list than you are mine? Because that's a little awkward. But aww, you're making me blush. I love you, little cousin. (Yes, you're still little to me, because you're still in school and I am a big scary adult.)

Anna, you need to crush them. Show them that the Weasleys are a force to be reckoned with, and that we don't get by on our name alone. I am so proud of you, little cousin. Good luck (again).

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

Honestly, I don't have a list. And I'm not going to make one. But you do mean a lot to me, of course, and I want the best for you. I love you too. (By the way, I can accept you calling me little because you're a graduated adult, but I do not consider you big or scary. Just so you know.)

All right ... so apparently now I am supposed to crush both of them? We might want to get this straightened out so I know what you actually do want for me or else I'm just going to end up all sorts of confused and I won't know what to do. Just kidding. I'll do my best to show them all of that and make everyone proud. Thanks for the good luck, it really does mean a lot to me.

            ~Anna
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dear anna,

I know you said you weren’t going to make a list, but I still think you should. Even if it’s in jest, it helps you to think about your relationship with other people, you know? Like, James is at the bottom of my list right now, because he was my best friend, and now he’s not talking to me, and that’s not cool. And you’re at the top, because you’re the only one other than him who knows that I’m gay, and you love me anyways. I’m not big on introspection or anything, but sometimes it’s necessary. (I am the biggest, scariest, meanest person you’ve ever met. Hush.)

You know what, let’s make this simple. Crush whoever you want to crush. But if you’re going to crush them, crush them well. I’m going to be at the Tournament, so maybe if we see each other there, we can talk further, if you’re still confused. Love you, baby cousin.

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

Alright. Just for you I will ... consider the idea of making a list. I do think it is a good idea to think about my relationships with other people and put things into perspective. But at the same time, ranking them is something that I'm not sure I could do. But I'll think about it. And I'm just glad I'm on your list and that you know I love you anyways. You're family. I'll always be here for you if you need anything. (Now you added mean? I'm really sorry, but I don't see any of that coming from you. Still love you though!)

Deal. I will crush whoever I can crush and I will do it as well as I can. How does that sound? Love you too, you old man, you.

            ~Anna
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dear anna,

You’d be surprised all the things you thought you could never do, and then you end up doing. I mean, if I had asked you a month ago if you would be able to make it through a maze with killer spiders, you would have thought I was crazy, right? You did great in the task, by the way. I know everyone was looking for you, so I decided just to go home, and whenever you have the time we can meet up. You know, you seem to put a lot more stock into family than a lot of people. No offense, but we don’t even look related or anything. Not that it makes me love you any less, but yeah. That’s a thing. I’m definitely mean! You just haven’t seen any of it.

You definitely did as well as you could. Like I said, I’m proud of you.

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

You know, if you would have asked me about that a month ago, I would have thought killer spiders wouldn't be too hard to deal with. Now they haunt my dreams. Not as much as being blind does. It's crazy how much that maze has messed with my head. I mean, I'm not really the kind of person that gets scared a lot or can't control her fears, but I think it's going to take me a while to get over some of that.

Thanks Fred. It means a lot to me that you think I did good. And why wouldn't I put stock into family? Friends are great and I love mine dearly, but family is always yours. You might not get along with all of them (*cough cough like Lucy and me*) but they will always be your family. And I don't care if we look related or not, you're family. Well how am I supposed to believe you're mean if I never see it? And no, I don't mean that as an invitation for you to be mean to me. 

Thanks again. And I would love to meet up with you sometime! It's been weird not having you here at school this year. Love you!

            ~Anna
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dear anna,

I’m sorry about that. I’m not a mental health expert or anything – otherwise I probably wouldn’t be so screwed up in the head – but if you ever want to talk to me about anything, I’m here. Unless you have someone better, in which case, totally talk to them instead.

I would debate the whole ‘family is always’ thing, considering people get disowned and adopted and killed all the time. I mean, didn’t the Lestrange girls get adopted by the Headmaster? Their family wasn’t forever. Too bad you’re not giving me permission to be mean to you, though. I have some new pranks I want to try, but only on people I really hate. So, if you have any nominations… Just kidding. Sort of.

It’s been weird not being at school! Just tell me if your busy schedule ever clears. Love you too.

yours,
fred

@annelise

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Fred,

No, it's not your problem at all. Sorry I unloaded on you a bit there. I'm sure you probably have enough going on without me whining about things ... but I might take you up on your offer to talk sometime, once I get school under control. I didn't realize how much the first task put me behind in my classes until now. It's annoying.

Ok, I guess you're right there. You've got me. I guess what I was talking about is real family. You know, the ones that you know love you and care for you and will be there for you. Those are the ones I was talking about, not everyone that has your same last name or the same grandparents as you. I hope that makes more sense. Ha ha, well glad I don't make that list of people you hate. If I find someone who deserves to be pranked I will definitely let you know.

I will definitely tell you when I get a chance where we can talk. I miss seeing you all the time.

            ~Anna
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dear anna,

It’s not a problem, Anna! I do have a lot going on, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t want to hear about what’s bothering you. That’s what family’s supposed to be for! Just shoot me an owl when you’re ready! Sorry about all the extra work. I didn’t do like, half my school work, but hey, that’s me. I’m the bad kind of Weasley. I think you’d probably rather die than not turn in homework, right?

That does make more sense. Problem is, I don’t think you can ever tell who your real family is. I mean, the people you love one day can always do something to make you hate them the next day, and…well, basically, everything can be right until it’s not. Which sucks.

I’m sure you’re fine without always having me around. I’m just another annoying cousin. You still have plenty of those around. Bother Roxy for me!

yours,
fred

@annelise