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Jun 3, 2017 13:04:55 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jun 3, 2017 13:04:55 GMT -7
dear admiree,
Oh, so you revealing you have a brother wasn’t intentional? Interesting. It doesn’t really narrow things down that much, you know – a lot of people have brothers, especially pureblood girls, since there’s the whole thing about continuing on the family name or what have you. I was upset that Brandon had to move away, but I’m glad that he could come back. He’s nice, and really chill – and when you’re like me sometimes you need someone to help calm you down, you know. I’ll keep that in mind – I’m going to my first lesson today, so I’m excited and nervous to begin my musical journey, or whatever you want to call it. I do want to meet you, and the more letters I write, the more impossible it seems to wait until May to do it. It is hard to love someone all the way when you don’t even know their face… and needless to say, I want to love you all the way.
I’m still debating whether or not I want to be closer to all of them, if I’m honest. We only have a certain amount of energy we have to spend on relationships, you know? And it’s already a lot of work, trying to keep up with Max and Adrian and Odette… And Odette (my elder sister) is having a baby, so I have to think about that, too. (I don’t know if I’m supposed to be telling people that, so please keep it quiet.) So, really, I guess the question is how much energy to I have left over to devote to that sort of thing. Elias and I got off on the wrong foot and we still haven’t hit our stride. Like I said, though, is it worth the extra energy trying to get into sync with him?
I don’t think it’s logical, either, but maybe I don’t understand it fully, either. They’re good people… well, Mina is a good person, at least, and she’s the only one I’ve had any significant amount of conversation with. Anna is doing really well, and I’m proud of her for it. I’m not disappointed in his performance so much as how little he seems to care. Anna is always in the library looking for information to help her in the tasks, and I don’t think I’ve ever seen Elias there once. And the Weasleys already have a family name to fall back on, if that makes any sense. We have to be better. We always have to do twice as much work to be noticed, to be treated the same… at least that’s the way it feels. I don’t know if I would have been better, but at least it would have been my failings reflecting on me, not someone else’s.
As for preparing for Tournament tasks…I think I would have found time to start writing to pretty girls. love, jamie @lionaanna
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Jun 3, 2017 20:00:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jun 3, 2017 20:00:10 GMT -7
Dear Musical Adventurer (@jamie ),
As I stated in my other letter I was preoccupied with the memory. It is one of my favorite memories so when I do think about it I feel like I'm in that time again. It's a very happy memory for me. But yes, I didn't meant to reveal so much. I can't take it back now but it does get me closer to being able to meet with you as myself. I'm a little excited that you're getting closer but I'm also a little nervous that you're getting closer to finding out who I am. And yes you are correct, it doesn't reveal much but it was enough and definitely more than I intended, I think. I hope you have fun with your first lesson! Take it easy your first time. Holding a violin can get difficult and be painful after a while so make sure to take a break and to rest your neck and shoulder. Your words made my heart do funny things again. Lets hope this first meeting that you proposed goes well. I still can't decide if I wish to disguise myself or not.
It is entirely up to you to decide if getting to know him is worth the extra energy. I don't know much of him other than what I've heard about him because he's a champion, as well as what I've seen of him but if you don't believe him to be worth it then you do not have to devote the energy. It is hard to find out that you have so many siblings and feel like you have to force a relationship with them because they are your siblings. Just don't force it. Don't push it away if it happens naturally but I don't think you have to devote yourself to it.
She's representing Hogwarts well in the tournament. I'm actually really rooting for her, but that isn't much of a surprise because I'm a Hogwarts student and I want Hogwarts to win. I can understand that you'd be disappointed in him for that. I wonder if he has anyone he can turn to for help. I assume that Durmstrang's headmaster would be willing to do anything they can to help him win. I wonder if he's asked for the help. You are correct though; I have not seen him in the library nearly as much as I've seen Ms. Weasley. I think you would have done better than your brother, not that I'm trying to cultivate any sibling rivalry or anything of that nature but hearing about his performance I think you could have managed better.
Once again you flatter me. If I could kiss you now, I would. I'll just have to be patient.
Sincerely,
A Pretty Girl
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Jun 30, 2017 17:48:35 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jun 30, 2017 17:48:35 GMT -7
dear admiree,
I figured as much. It’s hard to recount a pleasant memory without seeing every little detail in your mind’s eye. I’m glad that you didn’t try to filter it – it wouldn’t have had the same effect, I don’t think. If it makes you feel any better, the fact that you have a brother isn’t actually all that telling. It seems that many purebloods have sons. Do they still do the whole ‘carrying on the family name’ thing? Personally, I think that’s a little silly. Who cares if no one knows your surname a hundred years from now? Maybe it takes a Slytherin to understand that. Or maybe it takes someone whose family name doesn’t inspire images of fear and destruction like mine does. Be sure that I will be poring over that letter as much as possible to extract every single detail. And I will be writing down a list of everyone you could possibly be once I go through that process. I promise that I’ll be careful, but I want to learn one particular song as soon as possible. It’s for a friend. And I have strong shoulder muscles from Quidditch, so hopefully it won’t be as awful as possible. I am certain that it will go well. And do whatever makes you comfortable.
You see, I feel like in theory everyone says that it’s my choice as to whether or not I want to know him better, but in reality, they all have the expectation that I will get to know him better. It sounds horribly callous to say that I found a long-lost brother and then decided not to talk to him at all. I didn’t really force a relationship with the others – well, kind of my younger brother, but that is an entirely different story – but those all turned out better than this one. I know it’s in the nature of relationships that some aren’t going to be strong as others, but… it’s hard. I think that I’m just overthinking things, and that maybe I need to let things happen the way they’re going to happen.
I would be a bit perplexed if you were rooting for anyone other than Hogwarts… though imagine how surprised I would have been to find out, after all of this time, that you were a foreign student! It would certainly be able to figure out who you were then, since there are so few foreign students here. I don’t know what is happening as far as Elias and the Tournament go. As long as Anna wins, I’ll be pleased. That French guy seems like quite the ass, and I don’t think anyone could take it if he won and his ego got even bigger.
I do try to flatter. Be patient, indeed. love, jamie @lionaanna
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Jul 5, 2017 19:57:22 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2017 19:57:22 GMT -7
Dear Flattering and Beautiful (@jamie ),
I know that having a brother doesn't mean much in the ways of revealing my identity but even the tiniest detail could be the end of my hidden identity. So I would much rather be too careful than to ruin the fun. As for the 'carrying on the family name' portion, it really depends on what you mean. Yes my family would like to carry on its name and I rather like my name so I would either keep it or hyphenate it when I get married. The issue with worrying about forgotten names is that if your name is forgotten in history, there is no one to connect you with your accomplishments and your contributions to the world. There are many that do not find that important but I think it's important for more than one reason. And I know you may be tired of hearing it but it honestly does take one person to change the way a name is seen. I look forward to seeing what you come up with. I am also certain you will do well at the violin once you get used to being in that position. I wish I could ask you what to do but I may have already made up my mind. What would you do if the roles were reversed?
I am not like everyone else, so my expectation are as I stated them without any of the underlying disbelief or judgement. Do what it is you wish to do. Things can stay as they are now and you can be civil of course but if putting in any extra effort to form a relationship is too draining, you do not have to partake. You don't have to purposefully not talk to him at all or avoid him. Just don't force attempting to form a relationship. We all sometimes suffer from overthinking things so it's okay to do so.
I think that would be rather cruel of me to leave out the fact that I was a foreign student if I were. I am not so I guess I can be a bit grateful for the fact that it is helping me keep my identity safer. I have faith that Molly Weasley will win the tournament. And yes I did hear the same of the Beauxbaton's champion although I have not met him myself. Have you experienced his ego firsthand?
Unfortunately, patience is still not one of my virtues, Jamie.
Sincerely,
Decisions, Decisions
(~~Le Fine~~)
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