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Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2020 8:04:50 GMT -7
TRIGGER WARNING: mention of the pandemic & mental health
Hey guys!
I wanted to post here and kind of explain my reason for having disappeared during the past few months. This pandemic has affected my mental health in ways that I wasn't sure was possible. I had no motivation to do anything besides take naps. Work had been horrible, and still is for the most part, because of people. And now that the pandemic "doesn't exist" people are going insane again, and pretending like things are back to normal.
During these past few months, I've mostly just chatted with friends, and napped. Each time I logged onto my accounts, I froze and was unable to do anything. During that time, there were moments when I felt worthless, that I felt like roleplaying wasn't for me - and even contemplated leaving this world behind. But after discussions with some friends, I slowly realized that roleplaying was an escape and came back slowly but surely.
I'm hoping that my mental health won't be as bad as if has been the past few months. I pray that I am able to come back and actually post for you all. But I ask for patience. If I disappear again, which I hope won't happen, I apologize in advance. These times are foreign to everyone, they are so confusing and I don't know what tomorrow will bring. If I realize that I am not the same as I am before, a purge likely will happen - and ultimately, there might be a moment when I think leaving is best. I really hope it doesn't come to any of this.
I thank you all for being patient with me, even with me not having replied for the past three months and plots/threads are at a stand still. I'm hoping with the next coming weeks I'll do my replies, be caught up, post the starters that I owe and be back to "normal" Rissy.
I love you guys <3
