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Mar 11, 2021 0:23:10 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Mar 11, 2021 0:23:10 GMT -7
Maria didn't trust him. Absolutely not. Not after everything. But yet? She was addicted to this. This feeling of being understood in such a broken, carnal, and raw way. No emotions aside from just a desperate need to satisfy themselves. To take out everything they were feeling on each other, and apparently they'd both had a lot of pent up feelings. Thankfully though Maria had invested in much sturdier furniture that had survived their intense active.
She hadn't fallen asleep though. She'd rolled onto her side, her back to him, closed her eyes, and tried, but sleep never came. Not tonight. Because despite how thoroughly exhausted she was her mind was reeling. Consumed by thoughts and fears. By the fact that she'd ended up here, again, in bed with Rhys. Despite how much anger and hurt she'd felt before, and still felt, she'd been to weak to stay away. Unable to fight that need. She'd wanted to just stay clear of him, in this sense, after he disappeared the first time and she'd found out she was pregnant, but clearly that hadn't worked out. It had helped, a bit. To distract her from the thoughts of another Christmas without Elias. But now that they were done those dark thoughts had returned, creeping up on her. It was definitely the hormones though. Her hormones and been all out of sorts the past week.... And apparently it would only get worse.
In the silence of the night though, she heard him shift. She didn't pay it any mind at first, as he could just simply be rolling over in his sleep. After a moment though, she heard more movement and the shift in his breathing. Rhys was awake. Part of her considered just not saying anything, ignoring his own awareness and pretend to be asleep as she had for the last hour. "Can't sleep?" She asked before she could stop herself. She didn't move, but her words were surprisingly clear. She'd definitely been awake quite some time.
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rhys alexander greyback
HOGWARTS ALUM WEREWOLF CURSEBREAKER ECHO
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the air around me still feels like a cage
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Mar 13, 2021 17:16:57 GMT -7
Post by rhys alexander greyback on Mar 13, 2021 17:16:57 GMT -7
can't help myself got secrets I can't tell December 24, 2025 @maria There were many sides to Rhys that he kept hidden away. He felt that those sides of himself would make him look weak or vulnerable, but over time only those closest to him saw those pieces of him though very few would ever see the full image. And on the other hand, the different sides that would make him look like a monster—or at least the monster some people assumed he was as the oldest known son of Fenrir Greyback. After almost a year, Maria had seen pieces of both sides but leaning toward his more aggressive sides. Or the parts of him that craved any kind of vices to fill the silence that only brought out his worst thoughts. It wasn’t like any connection he’d ever had with anyone, Rhys knew he didn’t love her, and it was nothing like what he had ever felt toward Deva. Yet, he craved her—there was the apparent physical compatibility but someone who saw the broken pieces he’d let slip into view and who didn’t look in horror because they had their own past and they could understand. Empathize.
Isn’t that what he wanted? To be understood and not judged, to be Rhys and not Fenrir’s son. Rhys had almost completely ruined that connection when he’d run away. In hindsight, Rhys could admit that—he’d just run out of fear though, at the time, it had seemed reasonable. Then again, he hadn’t really thought much of it until Maria had brought it to his attention in the way she did, but their connection now was solidified by her pregnancy whether or not they had wanted it to be. They’d survived another round of processing their individual frustration and anger, Rhys wished to forget the heavy anxiety he carried, and he knew Maria was still wary of him. Maria wasn’t facing him, and he’d assumed she was asleep. But before, he usually was able to tell when she was physically close to him, rather than the distance she put now.
Rhys heard her speak, and he glanced over at her back before returning to look at the ceiling instead. He’d learned to keep his distance, considering her tendency to create fire when he was around. ”No.” He responded, moving his hands behind his head and letting out a heavy sigh through his nose. Rhys was exhausted, the buzz from the whiskey he’d been drinking at the party earlier had completely worn off, but all he wanted right now was a drink and to sleep. Maria didn’t sound like she did when he’d accidentally wake her up—though they both had similar things on their mind. The baby. But Rhys, even with his limited knowledge, knew that pregnancy affected the entire body. ”You either?” He asked flatly. He’d basically spent his whole month drinking, trying to help Maria where he could in the reassurance of his commitment to stay and be a father, and wondering how he would get through the Holidays lying to his sisters that everything was okay with him. It wasn’t as if the bags under his eyes or bottles of whiskey had got unnoticed in his flat. ”Haven’t really been able to sleep for a while.”
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Aug 15, 2021 17:30:44 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Aug 15, 2021 17:30:44 GMT -7
Maria stayed on her side, facing away from him. She had one arm tucked under the pillow. Even though the room was dark she just couldn't close her eyes. It seemed like she simply had too many thoughts running through her mind to rest in any way. Though as Rhys responded it seemed she wasn't alone in the insomnia. Rhys never slept well, something she'd noticed after sleeping with him so often. It seemed nothing had ever really helped his sleep much, so it was a fact she just accepted and ignored most nights. She usually slept well... just not currently.
THere was a silence that followed, before he spoke again, returning the question. She almost rolled her eyes. Obviously she couldn't sleep. But for some reason she felt to tired to be sarcastic. "I haven't really been able to sleep since I found out." She answered quietly. Since she found out she was pregnant. She expected it would only get worse. What the hell was she supposed to do in the upcoming months..? And after? She didn't really know. As Rhys mentioned not being able to sleep she finalyl rolled over to glance at him as he lay on his back. "I don't think that's going to be changing any time soon, Rhys."
(aaand I'mma just say end so we can clsoe this haha)
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