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Oct 24, 2016 17:21:31 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Oct 24, 2016 17:21:31 GMT -7
"poetry is just the evidence of life. if your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash."
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Oct 24, 2016 17:33:58 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Oct 24, 2016 17:33:58 GMT -7
love letters to the people who will never really believe i love them
her eyes are a flurry of resentment and winter rain and dull steel blue. her hair is the color of autumn leaves the day after they’ve fallen to the ground and died. but by god, she’s beautiful. the curve of her waist and the flare of her hips dare me to say the words, and the dips between her ribs and the cups of her collarbones invite me to dance. her voice is an old, old voice even though the lines on her palms are ditches, not canyons. she twists my insides into a labyrinth that i cannot fathom, cannot escape, cannot ignore. and that’s her, and i still can’t believe that when i say i love you she looks at me, and blinks once, then smiles, as if she discovered my secret. then she bites her lip and looks at me guiltily and says, quietly, “i love you, too.” but i still don’t think she believes me.
it’s complicated to love someone who can’t really love you back in the way you need to be loved. you can’t take your heart back and they can’t give you any of theirs and then you’re left somewhere in between, with your love in the middle, a wall you built instead of tearing one down. she reminds me of soil in summer, warm and soft and easy to hold, but also so quick to fall between your fingers, and return to where it wants to be. she makes me want to give away all my stupid little secrets. then she takes them and buries them deep inside her, my soul engulfed by hers. that’s why i love her, but also why i can’t. there’s so much i want to say, but it will change things. she will see me differently, and i don’t want that, even if it’s not a bad thing. for now, i will bite my tongue and forget to say i love you until she is ready to hear it.
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Nov 23, 2016 15:22:48 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Nov 23, 2016 15:22:48 GMT -7
storm
the air is getting colder, love, and so, i think, are you.
the rain is falling faster, love, and so, i think, am i.
the lightning is burning brighter, love, and so, i think, are your eyes.
the thunder is clapping louder, love, and so, i think, is my heart.
the wind is blowing harder, love and so, i think, are your words.
the storm is growing bigger, love, and so, i think, is my love.
(colder, brighter, harder) (faster, louder, bigger)
((you)) ((me))
(((us?)))
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Nov 23, 2016 15:26:32 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Nov 23, 2016 15:26:32 GMT -7
(untitled)
run far, far away, away from where i can hurt you. i can’t hurt you here, across this ocean, like you can’t hurt me there, across this ocean. you told me not to stay, not to be with you. (not to be where i belong.)
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Dec 7, 2016 12:48:28 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 7, 2016 12:48:28 GMT -7
alive
he reminds me of crescendos, of strawberry soda and london in autumn. he reminds me of sweltering summers, and the way sidewalks smell after it rains.
he hugs me and i am caught between earth and sky, the quiet warmth of his chest, and the cool planes of his arms, which are loud, so loud. the sound swallows me up, a crescendo i never expected in a song i don’t understand.
he is like a burst of adrenaline, carbonation exploding, and i feel – i feel – alive. synthetic strawberry burns me from the inside out and that's how i remember his voice.
i like the way he smiles and tells me the world is good, even if we know it’s not, always. his eyes are soft, but his words are hard, like the soft gray silk sky and the hard fire of leaves and skyline.
he sticks to me long after he’s gone, summer heat after sunset. his laughs are grass stains that smudge my white walls. he is an sycamore in july, reaching for the endless sky stopping only when his fingers brush against the bellies of newborn thunder clouds.
he is new and old wrapped in a messy bundle of feelings i can’t express. he’s the way sidewalks feel when they’ve been scrubbed by the ninth storm of the week, the way they glisten, burnt umber and pitted with age, with water that once was the tears of the ocean.
photographs and sensations that are just beyond the tip of my tongue, the tips of my fingers – those are him. that is what it is to be alive.
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Dec 18, 2016 18:51:02 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Dec 18, 2016 18:51:02 GMT -7
okay
i woke up today and realized i am going to be okay.
the sky is dark, but there is a moon, and there are stars.
i've fallen, but i've gotten up before - many, many times.
i've built up walls, but walls are meant to fall.
i am going to be okay. and so are you. we are going to be okay.
and maybe, when we're both ready, we can be okay together.
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Jan 6, 2017 17:20:40 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 6, 2017 17:20:40 GMT -7
1 jan - on starting
a haiku to start. i know that soon i will not be able to stop.
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Jan 6, 2017 17:23:55 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 6, 2017 17:23:55 GMT -7
2 jan - skylines
i know skylines the way you know how to breathe.
i know skylines the way you know the back of your hand.
i know skylines, their dips and ridges, their sharp edges and soft curves, and i know horizon lines.
when you see the world from thousands of feet up you need to know skylines and you need to know horizon lines.
you need to know them so you remember the reasons you come back down.
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Jan 6, 2017 19:05:50 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Jan 6, 2017 19:05:50 GMT -7
3 jan - cold hands, warm heart
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Feb 11, 2017 15:33:25 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2017 15:33:25 GMT -7
4 jan - a collector's lament
i collect words like trophies and place them on shelves where they gather dust because i am afraid i will use them on the wrong people
i collect words in everything in newspapers and books in whispers and screams and even in things that have no words stolen glances and hidden smiles bated breath and dreamy sighs
i collect words so why is it i can't find the right ones for you?
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Feb 14, 2017 8:04:42 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Feb 14, 2017 8:04:42 GMT -7
5 jan - what i should have done
i should have told you.
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Mar 27, 2017 20:00:47 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Mar 27, 2017 20:00:47 GMT -7
6 jan - sunshine
i know you can't see the sun anymore, but if you ever forget how it shines, look in the mirror, and smile.
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Mar 27, 2017 20:01:49 GMT -7
Post by Deleted on Mar 27, 2017 20:01:49 GMT -7
7 jan - easy
you say loving you is not easy. but why would i have easy when i could have you?
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