Post by Deleted on Sept 23, 2016 17:14:44 GMT -7
Alright, so if you've looked in the front few pages of this book, it's obvious that I am not good at keeping a journal or writing my thoughts down or anything, but ... I'm going to try again. I'm not saying I'm going to write every day, but I'll try to be consistent enough that it makes sense. Honestly, though, after last night I'm not sure if I'll have any extra time, so I'll have to make it. I'll probably write on nights when I can't sleep, like tonight.
Anyway, back to my life! So last night was Halloween, the night they chose the champions for the Triwizard Tournament. It was so tense in the Great Hall. I was sitting next to Irina and Andy and was just so nervous I could hardly eat. After the feast was over, Headmaster Longbottom announced the champions. Emile Chevalier (or something like that) from Beauxbatons was chosen first and then Elias Greyback from Durmstrang. Then it was me!! Yeah, so that might be why I'm trying to be better at writing in here, not going to lie. It was so exciting and everyone was screaming and I still can hardly believe I was chosen.
I went to the meeting with the other champions and then made my way to Gryffindor Tower. The second I walked in the party started and it was fun, but after a while I needed a break so I wandered the corridors and ran into Oscar. Oh my, I haven't written about him, have I? (yes, I might have just looked through the rest of this book to make sure ... don't judge me)
Alright, long story short, a while ago (a little more than a month, I think) I met this boy and he and I got into a huge fight. He's from Beauxbatons and his name is Oscar ... I can't remember his last name. I'll get that later. Well, he's here for the tournament and we got into a pretty heated argument about the tournament and our schools and then he left. I was so angry about how rude he was that I never wanted to see him again, but I started running into him everywhere. Especially on the third floor. That's where we fought that first day we met, and I ran into him another day there (yes, literally-so embarrassing! Maybe I'll write about it sometime) and we actually had a nice conversation without any arguments. We actually do a lot together now. He's teaching me about French History, and how to make crepes and I gave him a tour of Hogwarts one weekend. I like spending time with him.
So back to last night. I was walking and I found him on the third floor. He was sitting on the floor, looking so broken and sad that I sat down beside him and we just talked. He told me that it was the anniversary of his mothers' deaths and that he would help me get ready for the Triwizard Tournament. We talked for the longest time about all sorts of things and it was just peaceful and comfortable and perfect. And he was holding my hand. Yes, I am aware that holding hands should not be a big deal to a seventh year, but I've never been in a relationship, so it meant something to me. We actually fell asleep on the floor in the corridor until it was almost time for curfew. I just, it was perfect. Spending time with him makes me feel happy and peaceful and tonight I realized that I like him. I mean, as more than a friend. I have no idea what he thinks or if he even feels anything for me, but I'm hoping ...
Then I ran into Lucy. Actually, she was waiting for me outside the Gryffindor tower so she could yell at me for being the Hogwarts Champion. Like that's my fault! It's not like I did something to make the Goblet choose me instead of her and I definitely don't think I'm better than her or anyone else that wasn't chosen. It just really hurts that my own twin couldn't be happy for me. She was too busy trying to hurt me and make me doubt myself and I'm sure she'd be happy if she knew it worked. I could hardly sleep last night because her words kept on echoing through my mind. A part of me can't help but wonder if she is right, if I'm a terrible choice for champion. I hope not, but I guess only time will tell. Don't worry, I'm not planning on telling many people about what happened with her (though Irina, Andy and Lily may have happened to get it out of me last night ...) They followed me up to the dormitory once I came back inside. Really, I just have the best friends. I'm so grateful for their support. They noticed something was wrong and helped me calm down a little bit after everything that Lucy said. I didn't tell them about Oscar though ... oops. I'm not sure if I want to yet. I'm worried that if I tell someone how I feel about him, it'll mess everything up.
Wow. That was a lot more than I thought it was going to be. Still, it feels good to get it out. I should be sleeping but ... Lucy's words are still haunting me. I guess I should still try though. Night.
Anyway, back to my life! So last night was Halloween, the night they chose the champions for the Triwizard Tournament. It was so tense in the Great Hall. I was sitting next to Irina and Andy and was just so nervous I could hardly eat. After the feast was over, Headmaster Longbottom announced the champions. Emile Chevalier (or something like that) from Beauxbatons was chosen first and then Elias Greyback from Durmstrang. Then it was me!! Yeah, so that might be why I'm trying to be better at writing in here, not going to lie. It was so exciting and everyone was screaming and I still can hardly believe I was chosen.
I went to the meeting with the other champions and then made my way to Gryffindor Tower. The second I walked in the party started and it was fun, but after a while I needed a break so I wandered the corridors and ran into Oscar. Oh my, I haven't written about him, have I? (yes, I might have just looked through the rest of this book to make sure ... don't judge me)
Alright, long story short, a while ago (a little more than a month, I think) I met this boy and he and I got into a huge fight. He's from Beauxbatons and his name is Oscar ... I can't remember his last name. I'll get that later. Well, he's here for the tournament and we got into a pretty heated argument about the tournament and our schools and then he left. I was so angry about how rude he was that I never wanted to see him again, but I started running into him everywhere. Especially on the third floor. That's where we fought that first day we met, and I ran into him another day there (yes, literally-so embarrassing! Maybe I'll write about it sometime) and we actually had a nice conversation without any arguments. We actually do a lot together now. He's teaching me about French History, and how to make crepes and I gave him a tour of Hogwarts one weekend. I like spending time with him.
So back to last night. I was walking and I found him on the third floor. He was sitting on the floor, looking so broken and sad that I sat down beside him and we just talked. He told me that it was the anniversary of his mothers' deaths and that he would help me get ready for the Triwizard Tournament. We talked for the longest time about all sorts of things and it was just peaceful and comfortable and perfect. And he was holding my hand. Yes, I am aware that holding hands should not be a big deal to a seventh year, but I've never been in a relationship, so it meant something to me. We actually fell asleep on the floor in the corridor until it was almost time for curfew. I just, it was perfect. Spending time with him makes me feel happy and peaceful and tonight I realized that I like him. I mean, as more than a friend. I have no idea what he thinks or if he even feels anything for me, but I'm hoping ...
Then I ran into Lucy. Actually, she was waiting for me outside the Gryffindor tower so she could yell at me for being the Hogwarts Champion. Like that's my fault! It's not like I did something to make the Goblet choose me instead of her and I definitely don't think I'm better than her or anyone else that wasn't chosen. It just really hurts that my own twin couldn't be happy for me. She was too busy trying to hurt me and make me doubt myself and I'm sure she'd be happy if she knew it worked. I could hardly sleep last night because her words kept on echoing through my mind. A part of me can't help but wonder if she is right, if I'm a terrible choice for champion. I hope not, but I guess only time will tell. Don't worry, I'm not planning on telling many people about what happened with her (though Irina, Andy and Lily may have happened to get it out of me last night ...) They followed me up to the dormitory once I came back inside. Really, I just have the best friends. I'm so grateful for their support. They noticed something was wrong and helped me calm down a little bit after everything that Lucy said. I didn't tell them about Oscar though ... oops. I'm not sure if I want to yet. I'm worried that if I tell someone how I feel about him, it'll mess everything up.
Wow. That was a lot more than I thought it was going to be. Still, it feels good to get it out. I should be sleeping but ... Lucy's words are still haunting me. I guess I should still try though. Night.